You know what bothers me, every now and again i feel like listening to a song on Jootube with a sad motif, for whatever reason. Something sad can be beautiful you know. But then i scroll down and there's a million faggots over-sharing on why the fuck they're miserable. I guess we do the same here at times and i guess it's normal and it shouldn't irk me. But somehow it does.
I guess it's not over-sharing when we talk about it here because we all know each other for more than 10+ years(For the most part) but it's something about people on Jootube.
I guess i think it's inappropriate to do with complete strangers. At least i got a handle on most people here and i hope you feel the same vice reversa. That's XRA reference, ask Enter.
While i'm here, anyone ever see the anime Baka to Test to Shoukanjuu? I randomly saw a gif of it on a LoFi track and it looked interesting so i saved the name.
Originally posted by aldra
it's not that life is intolerable in a general sense.
why would you continue to sit through a movie that you don't like? it's not like you're getting your $10 back and you don't get anything for waiting until the end
It's only a movie to god. For us it is more like a video game and we have direct causal influence over its direction. And there's nothing else to do in town and one quarter is all you get. And you're going to sign off eventually anyway. Seems to me that it's inherently better to experience more aliveness and causal influence than less.
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Originally posted by aldra
it's not that life is intolerable in a general sense.
why would you continue to sit through a movie that you don't like? it's not like you're getting your $10 back and you don't get anything for waiting until the end
There's always something worth waiting for. Life may seem like its in a perpetual downwards spiral, but it always gets better at some point. It doesn't just keep getting worse.
Idk. Promise of doing cool shit has mostly been what's kept me from suicide. I've crossed a few things off my bucket list that I wouldn't have imagined a couple years ago. Life has been so much easier with solid goals in mind.
But now that I don't have any of those I don't know what the fuck to do. But there has to be some cool shit. Eventually I'll go on some hike, or meet some person, and all those times i though about killing myself will seem so fucking silly. Happiness is fleeting but that doesn't mean it goes away forever. Im determined to suck every last morsel of enjoyment from this shit life as I can.
I am not asking this for attention seeking or advice persay, mainly want opinions on possibly more experiencerd users on this. If you are able, I respectfully ask that you please refrain from passing judgement on me for this.
On to the subject: It is well known Pentobarbital is a prime choice in both self and assisted euthanasia for its effectiveness and peaceful method. The price, however, can be high. We know that Fentanyl, and its more potent analogues, are equally lethal, and for a much lower price for the amount required.
I have come to hear mixed opinions on opiate OD experiences (where they live) like some saying it just went black and peaceful/empty and others saying it was brutal and painful. If someone were to use a sure-fire lethal dose intentionally, would it theoretically be so strong it would just put you down quick without much time for suffering or anything? Especially if you do it with benzodiazepines on board?
I dont mind having to man up and experience a few more moments of misery before the drug kills me if I went the opiate route but I want to be sure it will work which is the benefit of Pentobarbital.
Any input? Please, I ask you kindly, do not try to lecture me against these considerations. I am solely seeking scientific opinions. Thank you.
Also, to add, my other reasoning for hoping fentanyl etc/ benzos would be sufficient is solely because I figure the less I have to spend then the more cash I can leave for my family. Sure, I can afford the Pentobarbital but its like $600 and I can probably accomplish the same with like $80 of fentanyl, $20 of benzos and $10 of alcohol.
I have many top grade prescription antiemetics like Zofran and know how to preload it days ahead of the event, so failure via loss of product by vomiting won't be a concern.
Originally posted by Solstice
I am not asking this for attention seeking or advice persay, mainly want opinions on possibly more experiencerd users on this. If you are able, I respectfully ask that you please refrain from passing judgement on me for this.
On to the subject: It is well known Pentobarbital is a prime choice in both self and assisted euthanasia for its effectiveness and peaceful method. The price, however, can be high. We know that Fentanyl, and its more potent analogues, are equally lethal, and for a much lower price for the amount required.
I have come to hear mixed opinions on opiate OD experiences (where they live) like some saying it just went black and peaceful/empty and others saying it was brutal and painful. If someone were to use a sure-fire lethal dose intentionally, would it theoretically be so strong it would just put you down quick without much time for suffering or anything? Especially if you do it with benzodiazepines on board?
I dont mind having to man up and experience a few more moments of misery before the drug kills me if I went the opiate route but I want to be sure it will work which is the benefit of Pentobarbital.
Any input? Please, I ask you kindly, do not try to lecture me against these considerations. I am solely seeking scientific opinions. Thank you.
Originally posted by Solstice
Also, to add, my other reasoning for hoping fentanyl etc/ benzos would be sufficient is solely because I figure the less I have to spend then the more cash I can leave for my family. Sure, I can afford the Pentobarbital but its like $600 and I can probably accomplish the same with like $80 of fentanyl, $20 of benzos and $10 of alcohol.
I have many top grade prescription antiemetics like Zofran and know how to preload it days ahead of the event, so failure via loss of product by vomiting won't be a concern.
Yo imma start by ignoring your wishes and telling you, I'm not going to enable this urge because I care about you. Please reach out for assistance.
National Suicide Prevention Lifeline 1-800-273-8255
Poc I know you're smart enough to kill yourself successfully. We aren't a stupid bunch. Malice killed himself on the first go. A lot of people just halfass it in a self destructive burst or end up doing dumb shit like cutting or taking too much ibuprofen.
And if you're deciding between fentanyl analogues and pentobarbital for your suicide method, you've obviously given it some thought. So I'm not going to tell you not to do it because it's not like that'd do shit anyway.
I don't think it really matters tbh. But having done barbiturates, I think I'd prefer an opiate feel before I die. I'm sure dose won't be an issue considering how potent and cheap it is. You'd have to fuck up hard to mess up an intentional fent OD, the goldilocks zone is pretty marginal iirc.
Good luck with whatever you choose. Personally I hope you choose to just buy some more shrooms with the money instead. Or buy me socks or some shit. I need some.
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SWIM smoked meth in his hotel over about an hour or so and was about 6 feet from the door because he used the stove to vape it with. Could people smell that realistically?
Also he flicked a lighter a lot and tapped the glass to the glass stoevtop a good bit and jacked off potentially moderately loudly... he is VERY very paranoid.
Nobody has called him yet 2 or hours after last toke. Also his door is right next to the elevator. He turned the tv on for noise 5 minutes in though.
Can other people really notice exhaled meth from outside a closed door?
Originally posted by DietPiano
SWIM smoked meth in his hotel over about an hour or so and was about 6 feet from the door because he used the stove to vape it with. Could people smell that realistically?
Also he flicked a lighter a lot and tapped the glass to the glass stoevtop a good bit and jacked off potentially moderately loudly… he is VERY very paranoid. He DID have the fan on though.
Nobody has called him yet 2 or hours after last toke. Also his door is right next to the elevator. He turned the tv on for noise 5 minutes in though.
you can't leave by the door now, they're definitely outside. You'll have to use the window
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