2019-08-05 at 1:18 AM UTC
That's what I'm trying to figure out. It's like something else is in control of my actions
I've been chugging water and Gatorade for the last couple days but it seems to get better, then worse, then better, then worse
Haven't been drinking or taking any drugs since then though, maybe it's alcohol withdrawal
2019-08-05 at 2:02 AM UTC
aldra
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I mean, there's got to be a reason you're getting full tilt pants-shitting drunk. do you just not remember starting, do you feel compelled to do it or is it a more conscious decision?
I'm not being judgmental, I'm a stranger on the internet so who cares anyway. I just mean there's got to be a reason you're doing this and without addressing it it's going to keep happening... Which is fine if that's what you want, but it seems like a bad way to live and a painful way to go out
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2019-08-05 at 11:43 AM UTC
The problem is, I keep thinking I've figured out what the problem was, then it happens again, and I think "fuck this, if this is going to keep happening, I'd rather just be dead"
But then it gets too painful or I get too afraid and then end up getting it treated/treating it myself
2019-08-05 at 11:47 AM UTC
But yeah, a lot of times I either don't remember starting or it starts with a massive overdose of something else
2019-08-05 at 1:32 PM UTC
I might do tia half gram and something else
2019-08-06 at 3:54 AM UTC
I haven't thought of it that way, yeah that's spot on for why I use a lot of the time, like when I get into a good spot feeling great and then "Heeeyyyyy, I don't know how to make a good situation even better and better, so I'm gonna get fucked up real quick and do destructive shit.
2019-08-06 at 10:43 AM UTC
Congrats you have the same drinking habits as Jeff Dahmer who binged on alcohol at an early age and abused it throughout his life
2019-08-08 at 4:10 AM UTC
bitches aint sh*t but ho*s and sticks
2019-08-08 at 4:12 AM UTC
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