But yeah I get a lil bit depressed. I'm kind of a happy go lucky guy so I don't think my depression is rooted in a chemical imbalance because thats kind of bullshit. I get upset because things didn't go my way or how I thought they were supposed to go. Theres not a single day that I don't think about my daughter. And I'm just going to have to live with that until the day I die, unfortunately. I hated her mom for lying to me. My mom told me I should just have another kid with someone else but thats probably not for the best. If I actually loved this girl I would of been there a lot more. I went to all the doctors appts and was there when she was born because I was really curious (I believed her when she told me she was pregnant, i've had wavves and wavves of girls tell me they are prenant just to get attention so I can see the difference) It makes me wonder if things would of been better If I just completely went along with it, but I really don't like her family and my parents didn't either.
I had no support from my dad when I said I had a kid, he couldn't believe it either, he said something about black hair and the fathers side being hereditary, and so she should have black hair, she did when she was born but her hair changed to dirty blonde.
And then my mom got really pissed off at me because she wanted a daughter and instead had my lil bromo and I and she at least wanted a granddaughter. And I get that. I just didn't know something like that would happen.
My mom would tell me that I did everything the way I wanted to do. But I think well what other way is there? She's cute and she's smart as hell, one of the best times I've ever had in my life was laying down with her when she was 2 weeks old with her and her mom and had her laying on my chest making cute little sounds while she slept.
I didn't even have sex with her mom after she told me she was pregnant except one time and it was a disaster.
I'm still paying her medical bills lol
I started thinking about this again because the nurse who took my vitals yesterday asked me If I wanted to have kids and I told her I already have one but its far from a perfect situation. I should of just got married to her and cheated on her, I'd have a lot less legal problems. She used to be a lot prettier.
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kr0z was killing it last night. had me laughing and playing good tunes. not so much in a funk.
shit.. did I say last night? more like 3am Pac time this morning.
Luigi stacked on his electric skateboard on the way to the latrine and we dispatched medics .. they airflighteded him to the Zuckerburgs SF General. I hope he can afford the ride.
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kr0z was killing it last night. had me laughing and playing good tunes. not so much in a funk.
shit.. did I say last night? more like 3am Pac time this morning.
Luigi stacked on his electric skateboard on the way to the latrine and we dispatched medics .. they airflighteded him to the Zuckerburgs SF General. I hope he can afford the ride.
