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2019-06-18 at 12:41 PM UTCWhen I am continually going through all the things I need to do in my mind, and it feels overwhelming, I write it all down on paper. As I complete each thing, I cross it off the list. Gives me a feeling of accomplishment.
BTW, that is not a day in the life of a normie, just sayin😜 -
2019-06-18 at 1:07 PM UTCI feel a sense of pride when I clog the toilet
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2019-06-18 at 1:10 PM UTCHOW THE FUCK CAN IT BE SUMMER AND RAIN ALMOST EVERYDAY?
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2019-06-18 at 1:15 PM UTCI mean i imagine normal people have like 4-5 main things they have to do each day. Pay rent. Go to work. Call plumber. Take little Starsceam Goldstein to ballet recital. Call dad to wish him a happy fathers day. Even that minimal amount of responsibility just feels like too much stuff. Its not so much the quality of the things i have to do, but just having to do anything at all. It seems i can manage getting up, working for 4 hours, showering (maybe...depending on how itchy i am) and watching youtube videos. Ive been wanting to finish watching The Expanse and play some video games, but every night when i get back home, it just seems like too much to do. I started watching other people play the games on youtube bc then i dont have to do anything.
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2019-06-18 at 1:17 PM UTCI sometimes feel like I may be an ssri zombie, but it's what works for me.
But basically I don't experience much in the way of emotions at all.
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2019-06-18 at 1:23 PM UTC
Originally posted by CASPER I mean i imagine normal people have like 4-5 main things they have to do each day. Pay rent. Go to work. Call plumber. Take little Starsceam Goldstein to ballet recital. Call dad to wish him a happy fathers day. Even that minimal amount of responsibility just feels like too much stuff. Its not so much the quality of the things i have to do, but just having to do anything at all. It seems i can manage getting up, working for 4 hours, showering (maybe…depending on how itchy i am) and watching youtube videos. Ive been wanting to finish watching The Expanse and play some video games, but every night when i get back home, it just seems like too much to do. I started watching other people play the games on youtube bc then i dont have to do anything.
Its fucking weird.
Yeah till I start buying more stuff for my apartment, games console etc, I just lie back and watch shit on Youtube. I'm going to start getting back into reading. My main priority is sobriety, everything else will fall into place once maintained. -
2019-06-18 at 2:12 PM UTC
Originally posted by MORALLY SUPERIOR BEING VII: Mattchews Camping Trip I sometimes feel like I may be an ssri zombie, but it's what works for me.
But basically I don't experience much in the way of emotions at all.
My only feeling is a continual sense of unease and angst, and SSRIs help me bury that.
I feel like id be cool with that. Right now im either just numb and exhausted, seething and ready to hit someone, or i start thinking about something fucked up or regrettable, and i cant stop crying so i scream into a pillow until my throat is hoarse, or punch the door to my dresser. Id be cool with just "generally okay/not bothered".
Originally posted by Octavian Yeah till I start buying more stuff for my apartment, games console etc, I just lie back and watch shit on Youtube. I'm going to start getting back into reading. My main priority is sobriety, everything else will fall into place once maintained.
Stop buying cocaine, fag.
Or do what i did at the end and mix the shit your snorting with salt. If you're not willing to fuck your sinuses up, get a massive infection and splitting sinus headache to get your high, you clearly dont want it bad enough. Aversion therapy eventually did the trick. Shooting it hurt, smoking tar made it so i could hardly breathe and got chest pain, and snorting it did the aforementioned. -
2019-06-18 at 2:14 PM UTCI woke up feeling horrible and have had 4 diarrhea shits so far today. Smoking shatter helped but I need to go to the gym and take painkillers and physically yell at at least 1 person or I'm going to spiral, or at least spiral in another trajectory
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2019-06-18 at 2:19 PM UTC
Originally posted by CASPER Stop buying cocaine, fag.
Or do what i did at the end and mix the shit your snorting with salt. If you're not willing to fuck your sinuses up, get a massive infection and splitting sinus headache to get your high, you clearly dont want it bad enough. Aversion therapy eventually did the trick. Shooting it hurt, smoking tar made it so i could hardly breathe and got chest pain, and snorting it did the aforementioned.
It doesn't even seem like he's getting good coke rn anyway. He said he did 4 grams in a day, 4 grams of pure to yourself is insane and unnecessary. I've read a bit about the street level cocaine of Britain being of a typically higher quality but this doesn't seem to be his case which is even more depressing.
Coke isn't what you need to be doing. Plan to get your dopamine from other things. Money, altruism, sex, food etc all give it to you, it sounds like these things aren't enough for you in your life in its current form. Look at fucking fubi, he used to shoot heroin and drink his own piss and now he's apparently a fine upstanding country gentleman.
Coke is for peasants and oligarchs, not for lower middle class yobs fresh off the dole. You got this -
2019-06-18 at 2:37 PM UTCFishscale
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2019-06-18 at 3:47 PM UTC
Originally posted by Octavian Yeah till I start buying more stuff for my apartment, games console etc, I just lie back and watch shit on Youtube. I'm going to start getting back into reading. My main priority is sobriety, everything else will fall into place once maintained.
Buy a gaming PC and then a Steam Link for $5 -
2019-06-18 at 4:31 PM UTCPls tell me where i can buy for 5 dollars
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2019-06-18 at 4:37 PM UTCOh shit I got it on sale for $5, guess it's pretty expensive now that it has been discontinued? Anyway there are Steam Link apps for Android and other shit so you can throw it up on your TV ez.
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2019-06-18 at 4:37 PM UTC
Originally posted by Sudo It doesn't even seem like he's getting good coke rn anyway. He said he did 4 grams in a day, 4 grams of pure to yourself is insane and unnecessary. I've read a bit about the street level cocaine of Britain being of a typically higher quality but this doesn't seem to be his case which is even more depressing.
That coke the other day was shit but I could get it on credit so did it. Had that been what I usually get, Flake, I would have been up for at least 2 days.
You are right though, I need a new outlet. Fubi is good inspiration. -
2019-06-18 at 4:38 PM UTCOr just buy a long HDMI lollThe following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire!
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2019-06-18 at 5:10 PM UTC
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2019-06-18 at 5:16 PM UTC
Can't believe this Willem Defoe looking cunt is actually in the race for the Tory leadership. As if I'm having him as PM.
Just look at him:
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2019-06-18 at 5:32 PM UTClooks like Willem Dafoe's corpse
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2019-06-18 at 6:02 PM UTCSudo how long have you been clean now?
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2019-06-18 at 6:17 PM UTCreminds of a young uglier deadish peter o'tooleThe following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire!
