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The Retarded Thread: Malice Metro Edition
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2019-05-19 at 1:57 PM UTC
Originally posted by Technologist Sell the guns!!!! Problem solved.
Listen Juice,
I would never insult you by pretending for one second that I know exactly how you feel. I saw you write your diagnoses the other day, they suck bad. I’ve wanted to die on more than one occasion, even attempted it as a teen. I know my mind was no where near where yours is right now, but I no longer feel that suicide is the answer. Damn man, dig deep, find that guy in the picture. He’s in there.
I don't consider what I'm doing to be suicide, just voluntarily allowing the consequences of my actions to take their course.
It's been like this for over a decade, and my memory of my childhood has recently come back. It's not going to change. If it would, it would've happened already.
I am selling the guns, any money I make from it will be used to compensate the people here that have helped me survive as long as I have.
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2019-05-19 at 2:01 PM UTCWe should make a new forum. Call it "The Necropolis" and move all the posts of the dead there.The following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire!
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2019-05-19 at 2:01 PM UTCBollocks! We posted at the same time. Go peek at the last page pls joos.
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2019-05-19 at 2:02 PM UTClol I used to go in chat rooms offering to give random people all my money because I wanted to kill myself, I've been in the same space of mind it's not healthy man if you don't die you will spend a lot of time in hospitals which sucks but you probably need it at a point if you can't bring yourself back from this state of mind.
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2019-05-19 at 2:38 PM UTC
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2019-05-19 at 2:41 PM UTCTo all the people that have sent me addresses, I don't why this shit isn't working. DP can confirm that I'm good for the money. I will try to get it working in the morning.
Sorry for the delays. If I can't get the PayPal working i will send cash in mail to those that provide physical addresses -
2019-05-19 at 2:42 PM UTCAnd for the rest of you, why the fuck are you pretending to care now? I've been talking about this sort of thing since I joined this community almost a decade ago.
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2019-05-19 at 2:45 PM UTCThe following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire!
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2019-05-19 at 2:53 PM UTC
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2019-05-19 at 2:55 PM UTC
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2019-05-19 at 3:01 PM UTC
Originally posted by Jυicebox And for the rest of you, why the fuck are you pretending to care now? I've been talking about this sort of thing since I joined this community almost a decade ago.
Ive never read any of this stuff you just posted. Talking to you is opening my eyes to the fact that some people have had really fucked up childhoods, as well as how destructive some mental illnesses can be.
Trust me I knew people have fucked up childhoods, but hearing it first hand hits home, and you haven’t shared but a sliver.
God I’m can’t imagine my mind fucking with me like yours does. Mine can be self destructive as it is. To an extent, I can see why you are doing this, but I can’t understand it fully.
Damn Juicy Juice. -
2019-05-19 at 3:02 PM UTC
Originally posted by Ghost lol I used to go in chat rooms offering to give random people all my money because I wanted to kill myself, I've been in the same space of mind it's not healthy man if you don't die you will spend a lot of time in hospitals which sucks but you probably need it at a point if you can't bring yourself back from this state of mind.
This is the first solid advice I've seen from scron on the topic of mental health like....ever. This is a milestone.The following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire! -
2019-05-19 at 3:06 PM UTC
Originally posted by Jυicebox And for the rest of you, why the fuck are you pretending to care now? I've been talking about this sort of thing since I joined this community almost a decade ago.
Tbf I hardly remember anyone from before, but I hardly posted as myself, and hardly had legit convos with people about irl shit. It was really only the stuff I wanted people to hear about i.e. My cool guy drug dealing exploits, guns, etc.
I'm trying to remember if you ever posted any other names. I remember a Juicebox Hero on the music forums and SG on Zoklet, but that's about it. My memory is pretty fucked.
I just read your reposts though. That sounds like something very different from depressive psychosis. Of course it could be exacerbated by the meth, but idk. -
2019-05-19 at 3:07 PM UTC
Originally posted by Technologist Ive never read any of this stuff you just posted. Talking to you is opening my eyes to the fact that some people have had really fucked up childhoods, as well as how destructive some mental illnesses can be.
Trust me I knew people have fucked up childhoods, but hearing it first hand hits home, and you haven’t shared but a sliver.
God I’m can’t imagine my mind fucking with me like yours does. Mine can be self destructive as it is. To an extent, I can see why you are doing this, but I can’t understand it fully.
Damn Juicy Juice.
That wasn't directed at you.
Or Casper or sudo -
2019-05-19 at 3:11 PM UTC
Originally posted by CASPER Tbf I hardly remember anyone from before, but I hardly posted as myself, and hardly had legit convos with people about irl shit. It was really only the stuff I wanted people to hear about i.e. My cool guy drug dealing exploits, guns, etc.
I'm trying to remember if you ever posted any other names. I remember a Juicebox Hero on the music forums and SG on Zoklet, but that's about it. My memory is pretty fucked.
I just read your reposts though. That sounds like something very different from depressive psychosis. Of course it could be exacerbated by the meth, but idk.
Juicebox hero wasn't me, totally different poster
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2019-05-19 at 3:12 PM UTCBut if your mind fucks with you like that, how are you able to be coherent on here daily? Does the alcohol help? Are you still using CBD?
One more question, I know 20 questions, but how did you feel during your sober times? -
2019-05-19 at 3:16 PM UTC
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2019-05-19 at 3:22 PM UTC
Originally posted by Technologist But if your mind fucks with you like that, how are you able to be coherent on here daily?
Coherency fades in and out. My co-workers get most of the crazy, and by the end of my average 12 hour shift I'm too tired to acknowledge the crazy.
Look at the zoomed picture Karen posted. Clearly there's something wrong.Does the alcohol help? Are you still using CBD?
the alcohol doesn't help my mental state but it keeps me sedated enough to not flip out on those around me, which I very much do without it
The CBD helped a lot at first, but eventually it just made the psychosis worseOne more question, I know 20 questions, but how did you feel during your sober times?
I don't mind the questions. I've got nothing else to do and the consequences of answering won't matter soon
During my sober times, I feel very unstable. I lose my fucking mind over the smallest of problems while having little to no response to the major ones -
2019-05-19 at 3:35 PM UTCHave you ever tried meditating? What would be a purpose you would feel less empty pursuing?
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2019-05-19 at 3:38 PM UTC
