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The retarded thread: Fuck, §m£ÂgØL made one first edition
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2015-09-24 at 10:32 PM UTCI think florida
the only evidence I have is him (her?) saying twice 'I am a lesbian'
But see, if one is a male, and saying they are a lesbian, they usually have a qualifier, like 'I was born a lesbian trapped in a man's body' or somesuch.
I waited for months for him to make a comment that might point in the right direction, but no luck.
I was thinking of just flat out asking, but I thought it would be funnier if I caught him out....then I forgot all about it until now -
2015-09-24 at 10:45 PM UTCOnly got some bullshit twitter hashtag references. But i did find this https://www.reddit.com/user/Infinityshock and there's a profile on DeviantArt which has curiously only one friend, the friend being BILLY! The mohawked emo fag. http://kriotpunk77.deviantart.com/
kekekek, gonna see if i can DOX him just cause he looks like a fag. -
2015-09-24 at 11:21 PM UTCNew GearVR supports all 2015 galaxy flagships by samsung, and is 99$
https://www.reddit.com/r/oculus/comments/3m80q4/new_gearvr_supports_all_2015_galaxy_flagships_by/
This will be great for increasing awareness and accessibility to VR. Of course it's not as good as dedicated head mounted displays, but it's still a good introduction to VR and the platform makes it easier to share with others that are interested due to the portability along with making it easier to acquire content. -
2015-09-24 at 11:40 PM UTCI have 4 fucking phones right now and talk to someone everyday (in person) who had murder investigators call his phone recently. My IQ is nigger
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2015-09-24 at 11:58 PM UTCLol I'm on 80 mg of loperamide after vyvanse comedown which caused causing extreme peripheral neuropathy/skin feels like vinyl. Plus prolongs qt and is cardiotoxic. Fuck
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2015-09-25 at 12:16 AM UTCstill no hot water, I guess tomorrow I replace a thermocoupler
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2015-09-25 at 1:36 AM UTC
Yeah, pretty much. I will eventually if I keep this up though. I've got to cut down on the drinking. If I still had my vape I'd switch to weed, or honestly, if i had a script for ambien I wouldn't be using either. I only drink at night so that I can get to sleep.
Using alcohol to go to sleep every night is the dumbest thing I've ever heard. It sounds like you are legit addicted at this point. You need to stop before it gets worse man. Not only for yourself but for your baby. Turn off all electronics ~2 hours before you want to go to sleep. Go running or get a gym membership if you can afford it, and push yourself to the point of exhaustion. Yes you'll probably be sore and aching the next day but at least you'll get restful sleep and not addicted to alcohol.
Where do you work btw if you don't mind my asking. -
2015-09-25 at 4:58 AM UTC
Lol yes, that's like 5000 good doses.
$60 a gram. 3-7g is quite a lot considering the dosage.
Yeah, like I said I want to store most of it. I don't expect it to remain legal too much longer (honestly surprised how long it's remained unscheduled so far) but benzos are a good thing to have on hand. And it cheap enough that I might as wellSo I've been trying to quit drinking every day because my needy whore of a gf doesnt like it plus 3rd year university and shit. I make at least $200-500 tax free erryday and need to buy a car but have no license. The people closest to me are the ones that drive me insane. A week or so ago I thought that girl was pregnant (hasnt had her period since august 2nd) so we talked about it, then I got a call so we went to a hotel, me and a guy went out for a smoke and when I got back she was acting weird and I realized she did coke behind my back so the next day I took her to a bridge, threw her purse and coffee off and told her I'll kill her if she tries to keep the baby. Thankfully yesterday she took her 5th or 6th negative pregnancy test. I plan on cheating on her tonight and she already suspects I'm going to and can't stop me so hopefully tomorrow I'll just tell her I cheated so have some self respect and fuck off. I take concerta and oxycontin everyday and of course smoke weed/hash and drink. I've accepted my alcoholism and the physical effects it brings every morning, thankfully I learned how to live with this from my old man back in the day. I live in a pretty nice apartment in a pretty nice area surrounded by asians. I have enough money to buy a good used car and have a bunch left over, put a down payment on a house or potentially get a business off the ground. I got a 5k line of credit I'm going to pay off within a few months of receiving. I literally have no taxable income either, just niggers who are willing to say I have a job. I have 160 or some odd hours of community service to do by the end of the year I've been lying to my PO and saying I've been doing. I'm literally going to register a company before deciding what to do with it. My gf says she never got anxiety (or multiple orgasms) before me and I can't remember the last day where I didn't see her cry.
I need to shit so bad right now right now right now
So basically you're scum, your girlfriend is scum, and think you're hot shit for being and fucking scum. Well, grats I guess, might as well feel good about it. -
2015-09-25 at 7:55 AM UTChttp://web.archive.org/web/20140915084157/https://www.zoklet.net/bbs/showthread.php?t=182485&page=2
I 've been thinking about this a lot lately. I know that the state of mind and a lot of the depression im experiencing is because of my use of psychs. In seeing the enormity of the world, and seeing my insignificant place in it, I just dont feel like anything i could ever do is worthwhile, and that anyone doing ANYTHING that doesnt directly improve someones life or help make the world a better place…is wasting their time and their life. And I dont even consider myself to have done a TOn of psychs, compared to a lot of people ive talked to- probably in the neighborhood of 50-60 trips (although some at what i think many would term "heroic" doses).
I don't know….everyone just seems so blissfully unaware. My friends are all paying car payments now, going to dental school. And their parents are happy for them, and they're happy with themselves. It just seems pointless to me. I see that we strive toward these simple creature comforts when there are so many bigger issues ast hand…an absolute dearth of empathy/ spirituality in the world, war, poverty, hunger, depression. It feels like the common man's "reality" is just a ploy to keep him productive and sane. Because I have to think that anybody who saw the world and "reality" for what it really is would just go completely insane, fall into a deep dispair and off themselves.
Ive been trying to think of what WOULD be something meaningful to me. And the only things I can think of (sincerely- not in a "padding your resumee" kind of way) are to either do humanitarian work, some sort of musician or artists who sparks awareness in "normal" people, a spiritual leader, or the like. But by society's standard, if you do a lot of that stuff, youre pretty much a loser and a fruitcake ( No much moreso, i suppose, than an unemployed heroin addict, but still). I dunno…i think this is why Im kind of stuck in my head.
You can tell ive thought of this a lot. I really dont know wether i regret it or not. Is knowledge worth a lifetime of crippling depression and shit?
Casper 4 years ago. Pretty depressing in a way, which is why I felt uncertain about whether to post it.
"Because I have to think that anybody who saw the world and "reality" for what it really is would just go completely insane, fall into a deep despair and off themselves. "
I saw it, haven't offed myself yet. It's almost a shame you would probably just abort the trip before it got to that point and may never experience that. Have you ever thought about what the conscious experience of an artificial intelligence would be like, adhering to strict rationality and without emotions, how they would see the world and "feel"? A lack of all meaning, all the light and warmth gone from the world, but you still have human memories, a human life and mind, and will return to that. I don't think it would help you though, so it is best best to avoid it. Gaining an understanding of that experience and how some people are effected by it isn't worth the cost if it causes a negative change in you that you can't return from, although I do think you could return.
I suppose that while from a perspective outside of yourself your life may not be significant, to you it's the most significant thing of all. As absurd as this existence is, that the creation of the universe and eons of evolution have led to you in this moment of time being able to realize absurdity of existence (From our consciousness rose the ability to search for meaning, only to find there was none, we lived only to find life was devoid of meaning and reason to continue living.), we still don't know or fully understand everything, or what's going to occur in the future. If you've really resigned yourself to death you may as well exhaust all options and wait it out as long as you can, even if your life comes to feel like it's just an incredibly long period of sleep, eventually there may be something that changes everything. -
2015-09-25 at 1:37 PM UTC
still no hot water, I guess tomorrow I replace a thermocoupler
Do the elements read good if you use a voltmeter to check the resistance?
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2015-09-25 at 1:41 PM UTC
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I suppose that while from a perspective outside of yourself your life may not be significant, to you it's the most significant thing of all. As absurd as this existence is, that the creation of the universe and eons of evolution have led to you in this moment of time being able to realize absurdity of existence (From our consciousness rose the ability to search for meaning, only to find there was none, we lived only to find life was devoid of meaning and reason to continue living.), we still don't know or fully understand everything, or what's going to occur in the future. If you've really resigned yourself to death you may as well exhaust all options and wait it out as long as you can, even if your life comes to feel like it's just an incredibly long period of sleep, eventually there may be something that changes everything.
Basically all that kept me going after my huge breakdown/wife leaving
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2015-09-25 at 1:48 PM UTCSo update on my shitstorm,
My chick has been running a grass cutting biz to keep her mom in a motel. Well that money ran out today so she's going to put her in a tent in a national park.
I'm really beyond giving a shit. I told her I didnt care where she (her mom) went as long as it wasnt my house.
I need to get her mom out of my town. out of sight, out of mind and all that. It would make things a lot less stressful.
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2015-09-25 at 2:12 PM UTC
http://web.archive.org/web/20140915084157/https://www.zoklet.net/bbs/showthread.php?t=182485&page=2
Casper 4 years ago. Pretty depressing in a way, which is why I felt uncertain about whether to post it.
"Because I have to think that anybody who saw the world and "reality" for what it really is would just go completely insane, fall into a deep despair and off themselves. "
I saw it, haven't offed myself yet. It's almost a shame you would probably just abort the trip before it got to that point and may never experience that. Have you ever thought about what the conscious experience of an artificial intelligence would be like, adhering to strict rationality and without emotions, how they would see the world and "feel"? A lack of all meaning, all the light and warmth gone from the world, but you still have human memories, a human life and mind, and will return to that. I don't think it would help you though, so it is best best to avoid it. Gaining an understanding of that experience and how some people are effected by it isn't worth the cost if it causes a negative change in you that you can't return from, although I do think you could return.
I suppose that while from a perspective outside of yourself your life may not be significant, to you it's the most significant thing of all. As absurd as this existence is, that the creation of the universe and eons of evolution have led to you in this moment of time being able to realize absurdity of existence (From our consciousness rose the ability to search for meaning, only to find there was none, we lived only to find life was devoid of meaning and reason to continue living.), we still don't know or fully understand everything, or what's going to occur in the future. If you've really resigned yourself to death you may as well exhaust all options and wait it out as long as you can, even if your life comes to feel like it's just an incredibly long period of sleep, eventually there may be something that changes everything.
How was your childhood Malice?
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2015-09-25 at 3:11 PM UTC
Using alcohol to go to sleep every night is the dumbest thing I've ever heard. It sounds like you are legit addicted at this point. You need to stop before it gets worse man. Not only for yourself but for your baby. Turn off all electronics ~2 hours before you want to go to sleep. Go running or get a gym membership if you can afford it, and push yourself to the point of exhaustion. Yes you'll probably be sore and aching the next day but at least you'll get restful sleep and not addicted to alcohol.
Where do you work btw if you don't mind my asking.
Well, yeah. I know I need to stop. I'm going to quit smoking (hopefully) and cut back a hell of a lot on the drinking. It's not bueno for the §m£ÂgØL. Going to try to stick to T-PAIN/Crouton instead. Also, my baby doesn't need me. I've never done anything for him but not use a condom.
Malice, I have two questions for you-
Question 1: A while back, didn't you buy some knockoff magic flight launch box? Mine is sitting in the local police department, I was wondering which one you got (if I'm remembering correctly) as well as how well it worked. Ever try a mflb to compare?
Question 2: T-PAIN and Zoloft? Y/N? -
2015-09-25 at 3:13 PM UTCHow do I give thanks?
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2015-09-25 at 6:03 PM UTChah a mflb...I bought one just to smoke spice out of....it kind of fucking sucked
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2015-09-25 at 6:18 PM UTC
Do the elements read good if you use a voltmeter to check the resistance?
I don't even know what that means, I am just learning this stuff as I go. Pretty much just going down a list of probabilities as to what is messed up, and hopefully sooner or later, one of the things I replace or fix, gets it to start working again.
My education in home repair consisted of my stepdad telling me 'just try everything and mess around with it until it works again'
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2015-09-25 at 6:52 PM UTC
I don't even know what that means, I am just learning this stuff as I go. Pretty much just going down a list of probabilities as to what is messed up, and hopefully sooner or later, one of the things I replace or fix, gets it to start working again.
My education in home repair consisted of my stepdad telling me 'just try everything and mess around with it until it works again'
What muffins wannabe electrician is trying to say is you get a MULTImeter open up your water heater to expose the heating elements then put the dial on rx1k or resistance times 1kOhm, and place one of your probes on one of the screws of the element and the other one on the other side. Make sure to check the wattage on your elements because a 3500 watt element should register 16 ohms, a 4500 watt element should register about 13, and a 5500 watt element should register like 11 ohms. If they don't they broke and you gotta replace them.
Also, what kinda dad/guy are you don't you even home repair? That's like one of the essential skills you're expected to have if you're a guy lolololol. Good thing i went to school for these typa things well, not home repair specifically but electricity and shit. -
2015-09-25 at 6:55 PM UTC
Well that money ran out today so she's going to put her in a tent in a national park.
Hahaha, what? I mean, how does she expect this to work? How is she going to apply for jobs and get her life together, move forward in life? Unless it's not too far from wherever she needs to go, there's a bus route or some other way for her to regularly get out of there, there's just so much she isn't going to have access to.
Here's hoping she gets eaten by a bear or something. Are there any dangerous creatures in that area? Wolves, snakes, mountain lions? There's always the chance of hypothermia or an illness as well, dysentery.How was your childhood Malice?
Inadequate, like the rest of the world. Not sure if it would have made a difference in the long run.
Like, do you ever wonder how you would have ended up if you had been raised by university professors? Really intelligent, knowledgeable,and driven people who were very involved in your life, loving, and exposed you to a lot of the world, important and valuable experiences in life? If they had been wealthy and been able to afford very nice things to further your development, not frivolous and superficial items, but anyone who thinks that a generic middle or lower class child is just as good as the Richie Rich experience is fooling themselves. Then there's the matter of intellectual stimulation, if you had gone to the best schools, schools catered to gifted children with the most unique, intelligent, knowledgeable, and driven people around, without the stupidity of standard schools and dealing with the idiocy of average people, if you always had people around who could understand anything you wanted to discuss and provide stimulating and challenging debates ad discussions? How different would you have been if you had developed to the fullest, if you had years of cumulative experience to develop your verbal and interpersonal skills, your critical thinking skills, ability to debate.
I suppose you could still be faced with the same disillusionment, the inability to find meaning and fulfillment in life, but maybe if I had never spiraled into this I would have developed different viewpoints, come to different conclusions, grasped different ideas/concepts and found answers to things. It could simply largely be driven by how I feel, the general melancholic emotional state, anhedonia removing the ability to feel any of these positive emotions, a desire for anything.
But then again, it's not as if that world is completely inaccessible. You can speak to those people, take university classes, go to clubs and private classes, meetups. Quite honestly, even looking at the elite, I can't say I'm the least bit impressed and can see what I want in that realm. I've genuinely never met, heard, or read about anyone who I thought was interesting, genuinely remarkable. In a world with 7 billion people they're far more interchangeable than they would like to believe once you look past the superficial characteristics, think about the basic traits, predispositions, that a person is composed of. I'm certainly not saying I'm superior to them, despite my egoism I deal with profound feelings of inadequacy and inferiority. It just seems everyone is looking for something that just isn't there, that if the singularity comes, immortality and augmentation is achieves, anything that occurred before that will be completely insignificant, our past would be looked at like that of children, even ants, the entirety of even the most elite human's entire lifespan nothing but a grain of sand in human history, in all that humans have accomplished.
Then there are the intractable flaws of the world, of human society, the human/interpersonal experience, the limitations of communication. Just look at how long this is dragging out. To really properly convey everything that really matters, the entirety of a human mind, a lifetime of experience. Could you ever achieve more than a tiny sliver of understanding of the totality of someone's being? And even if you did, what does it amount to? What does it do other than make you feel less alone, understood, able to be predicted for your mutual benefit?
“I am gone quite mad with the knowledge of accepting the overwhelming number of things I can never know, places I can never go, and people I can never be.†― Sylvia Plath, The Unabridged Journals of Sylvia Plath -
2015-09-25 at 7:03 PM UTC
Also, what kinda dad/guy are you don't you even home repair? That's like one of the essential skills you're expected to have if you're a guy lolololol. Good thing i went to school for these typa things well, not home repair specifically but electricity and shit.
It's just something I was never taught nor interested in. Necessity has forced me to learn some things, but I haven't yet encountered furnace/WH problems. Luckily I learn pretty fast. Appreciate the info, it seems relatively user-friendly and informative. Once I start working on it (maybe later) I will take some pictures if I have any problems.
