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2015-09-20 at 11:42 PM UTC
Also, malice, for my psychoanalysis, I want to note that I am extremely manipulative, but underneath it all, the real me, is just really boring and I often feel like I have nothing to say to anyone, so I either keep silent or talk shit, and talking shit has gotten me into lots of trouble in real life. So nowadays I just keep my mouth shut mostly..
I always have shit to talk about with people, girls 10-14 are the hardest though because they have silly interests but it's worth it for that sweet underage pussy. -
2015-09-20 at 11:48 PM UTCwell I'm ok with small talk, but when it gets on a deeper level, like especially this girl I am seeing right now for example, she sits there and expects me to come up with conversational subjects after I have exhausted all the regular stuff like asking questions about her, and after a while I run out of shit to talk about, at least that she would care about. I mean, I could go on and on about drugs or current events or crime or if I am making fun of someone, especially to their face, but really, no one cares about that shit, and when I am expected to come up with witty conversation, I really just don't have it in me. She literally rolls her eyes at me if I talk about stuff in the news. No one really cares about the things that I care about, and vice versa, I don't care about their stupid shit either, but at least I try to fake my way through it for the sake of diplomacy and getting pussy
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2015-09-20 at 11:49 PM UTC
Crazy Mike knows his cats. I love cats too as it so happens and i it's good advice.
I used to breed cats but I'm too drunk and incoherent atm to offer any advice.
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2015-09-20 at 11:57 PM UTC
well I'm ok with small talk, but when it gets on a deeper level, like especially this girl I am seeing right now for example, she sits there and expects me to come up with conversational subjects after I have exhausted all the regular stuff like asking questions about her, and after a while I run out of shit to talk about, at least that she would care about. I mean, I could go on and on about drugs or current events or crime or if I am making fun of someone, especially to their face, but really, no one cares about that shit, and when I am expected to come up with witty conversation, I really just don't have it in me. She literally rolls her eyes at me if I talk about stuff in the news. No one really cares about the things that I care about, and vice versa, I don't care about their stupid shit either, but at least I try to fake my way through it for the sake of diplomacy and getting pussy
Lmao, sounds exactly like my gf, her interests are so superficial and lame i sometimes want to kill myself because of it. Luckily it's offset by the fact she's sweet and caring but meh. All my friends are smart luckily so i have cool stuff to talk about with them, same goes for my family. I try to avoid normal people as much as possible, i purposely don't talk to anyone within my apartment complex because i cringe at the thought of having to hear about there insignificant bullshit lives and interests but yeah i can fake it like no other if i have to, in the interest of pussy and diplomacy. -
2015-09-21 at 12:09 AM UTCwhat kinda cats
the all-gray longhaired maine coons and gray shorthaired tabbies are my favorites
I don't own cats right now, but I have before. -
2015-09-21 at 12:14 AM UTCJust posting to say hi niggas
Anyone wants to psychoanalyse me that would be interesting
Also enjoy your posts Crazy Mike
I've been doing jack shit today other then laundry and uncloging my septic system -
2015-09-21 at 12:15 AM UTCI did go shopping at Target. It's so pleasent to be surrounded by midle class white folks when shopping
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2015-09-21 at 12:22 AM UTCThere is no one around me with the mentality or inclination to discuss much of anything with me except their own prosaic interests. I do get along well with my kids, though, we always have stuff to talk about, but a lot of times it's just them telling me about their day or their social lives, and I just sit back and let them talk about themselves while I nod and smile, it may not be very interesting to me, but at least they are communicating. For obvious reasons, I don't really share many of my interests with them, and that is another reason I come here. There is no one to inherit my esoteric knowledge of subversion and guile; my offspring are going to be successful in their own fields and so it's of no use or interest to them.
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2015-09-21 at 12:28 AM UTC
There is no one around me with the mentality or inclination to discuss much of anything with me except their own prosaic interests. I do get along well with my kids, though, we always have stuff to talk about, but a lot of times it's just them telling me about their day or their social lives, and I just sit back and let them talk about themselves while I nod and smile, it may not be very interesting to me, but at least they are communicating. For obvious reasons, I don't really share many of my interests with them, and that is another reason I come here. There is no one to inherit my esoteric knowledge of subversion and guile; my offspring are going to be successful in their own fields and so it's of no use or interest to them.
I can respect that. At least you're there for them as a parent, that can't be said for a lot of men.
I was watching some hells angels chronicle thing on history the other day and it was honestly well put together.
I think I need to start reading more. Like the older shit from the people who created things in the world
I also feel about millenials as I imagine people did about hippies. I'm so tired of all the politically correct shit as well as gender crap and faggotry. People can butt bang and rub clams all they want, just keep it to yourself. I've been reading revelations again lately. Society is circling the bowl in my opinion -
2015-09-21 at 12:32 AM UTC
There is no one around me with the mentality or inclination to discuss much of anything with me except their own prosaic interests. I do get along well with my kids, though, we always have stuff to talk about, but a lot of times it's just them telling me about their day or their social lives, and I just sit back and let them talk about themselves while I nod and smile, it may not be very interesting to me, but at least they are communicating. For obvious reasons, I don't really share many of my interests with them, and that is another reason I come here. There is no one to inherit my esoteric knowledge of subversion and guile; my offspring are going to be successful in their own fields and so it's of no use or interest to them.
I'm glad you're dedicated to raising your kids well, i just made athread to do with parenting and childhood experiences as well http://niggasin.space/forum/spurious-generalities/26605-common-denominator-among-totse-zoklet-nis-users
I'd reccomend it for Malice as well, just because i think he might find it interesting in general. -
2015-09-21 at 12:34 AM UTC
I can respect that. At least you're there for them as a parent, that can't be said for a lot of men.
I was watching some hells angels chronicle thing on history the other day and it was honestly well put together.
I think I need to start reading more. Like the older shit from the people who created things in the world
I also feel about millenials as I imagine people did about hippies. I'm so tired of all the politically correct shit as well as gender crap and faggotry. People can butt bang and rub clams all they want, just keep it to yourself. I've been reading revelations again lately. Society is circling the bowl in my opinion
There is something fundamentally wrong with society. It's the fact that we have divorced ourselves from rationality. -
2015-09-21 at 12:34 AM UTCthanks, count blah. I wish I could say I enjoy your posts lately but I don't. Not because of anything you did, but because you have been going through some shit, and I know you don't deserve it. You were always cool from way back, ever since I met you, and I highly respect you as well. I hope things get better for ya, I have always admired your work ethic and your pragmatic outlook.
this etizolam shit....its got me going all sentimental and soft, I tell ya -
2015-09-21 at 1:05 AM UTC
Tell me something about myself i don't know Malice i love being analyzed. You can even make me a questoniare and i'll fill it out all neatly for you, i'll promise not to lie.
I'm bored as fuck and posting Malice where the fuck you at.
Sorry bb, my body malfunctions. Unfortunately I get profound crashes in mental and physical energy, avolition (ability to use one's will), and drive, anhedonia and pleasure, which effect it. It's like a person that only exists at select hours of the day, and even then they're only partly there. Sad, really, if you imagine someone trying to have an IRL relationship with a person in that state, or it happening to a loved one. Not necessarily incurable, but we'll have to see how things progress.well I'm ok with small talk, but when it gets on a deeper level, like especially this girl I am seeing right now for example, she sits there and expects me to come up with conversational subjects after I have exhausted all the regular stuff like asking questions about her, and after a while I run out of shit to talk about, at least that she would care about. I mean, I could go on and on about drugs or current events or crime or if I am making fun of someone, especially to their face, but really, no one cares about that shit, and when I am expected to come up with witty conversation, I really just don't have it in me. She literally rolls her eyes at me if I talk about stuff in the news. No one really cares about the things that I care about, and vice versa, I don't care about their stupid shit either, but at least I try to fake my way through it for the sake of diplomacy and getting pussy
Fantastic book if you're interested in changing it. Much better than the impression it or the title may give, it's not pop-garbage, something you'd see recommended by Oprah or some charlatan or motivational speaker, at all: http://www.amazon.com/How-Talk-Anyone-Success-Relationships/dp/007141858X
One of the main pieces of advice is to get people to talk about themselves, most people love it when someone genuinely seems to take interest in their life and wants to hear them out, especially if they feel they haven't had anyone to be able to talk to about these things. Also makes it really easy for you because you don't really have to do much after priming them, setting everything up, which is great.I did go shopping at Target. It's so pleasent to be surrounded by midle class white folks when shopping
White people are the best. East Asians if you're introverted and like being left alone.I think I need to start reading more.
2-FMA, trust me, that's the reading man's drug. Massive improvement. -
2015-09-21 at 1:23 AM UTC
Sorry bb, my body malfunctions. Unfortunately I get profound crashes in mental and physical energy, avolition (ability to use one's will), and drive, anhedonia and pleasure, which effect it. It's like a person that only exists at select hours of the day, and even then they're only partly there. Sad, really, if you imagine someone trying to have an IRL relationship with a person in that state, or it happening to a loved one. Not necessarily incurable, but we'll have to see how things progress.
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Well ok, but here's the thing. I don't feel like doing chores around the house because that's gay as fuck and my bitch should do that(lel) well, not really, but you know. I'm stuck with my programming project and i have to wait for some experts to answer some questions i have before i can continue. My headphones broke so i can't play vidya because that's supremely gay without sound. My drugs is finsihed save for one measly 10mg oxucodone i saved to stave off minor withdrawel in case i have to function a little better. I binged the last three weeks because YOLO. My internet connection has been bad so i am having slow speeds. My ISP is working on something or another IDK but it means i can't properly use my wifi to watch youtube vids on my tablet, and i can't do it on my PC because no headphones. I don't really feel like reading anything about pharmacology, because my interest in that has passed somewhat. I should probably read about programming and such because i'm teaching myself that, and i have a book which comes with a practical approach but like i mentioned i'm stuck on my project and i don't want to skip it. All other programming text i can access is either not engaging enough or incomprehensible due to my skill level. And twitter is only passingly entertaining and i stopped using my fakebook altogether because meh, i already read the hebe boards and they're baically only good for checking out non nude pics of cute girls, hardly any intelligent discussion ever occurs besides 80% of them are autistic as fuck. Matter of fact i talked to some of them on chat, one was being a dick to me so i DOX'd him and when he pisses me off sufficiently i am publishing his info and then his life will be ruined because he's a hardcore pedo, oh well.
See my problem?
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2015-09-21 at 1:29 AM UTC
speaking of Crouton, I am almost out of poppy seeds so I am going to mix the last lb. I have with 5 grams of red maeng da and an etizolam…well not 'I am going to', more like 'I just did'.
already starting to feel it
I love drugs
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2015-09-21 at 1:38 AM UTC
thanks, count blah. I wish I could say I enjoy your posts lately but I don't. Not because of anything you did, but because you have been going through some shit, and I know you don't deserve it. You were always cool from way back, ever since I met you, and I highly respect you as well. I hope things get better for ya, I have always admired your work ethic and your pragmatic outlook.
this etizolam shit….its got me going all sentimental and soft, I tell ya
Thanks bro, pragmatism has served me well. I used to be nowhere near this rational until my late 20's. The other thing fueling my thought process is rationality is all I have. Those who used to be my guidestones in life have passed and my parents have just honestly never experienced half the things in life that I've gone through.
My dad's advice when my wife left was "man up" while I thoughthe was being an insensitive dick at that moment I did it and it served me well.
An old guy I'm friends with (going on 20 years now) said I had an old soul when he met me. Usually I don't put much stock in those kind of sayings but since I started following Buddhism back in 2010 I've started to see it. My biggest hope is that in the next life things are better or if it exists by whatever name heaven, nibbana , etc that that will be where I end up when this life is done. A couple of months will be 35 years I've been on this earth and it's been full of ups and down and lessons learned. I hope my creator looks upon my good works and feels they outweigh my transgressions while here. I'll be the first to admit I'm no saint but I've also tried my best to help my fellow human. I know for a short period I brought much happiness to many people.
now look at me getting all sappy. I've got a lot to be thankful for and you guys are a huge part of it. -
2015-09-21 at 1:39 AM UTC
There is something fundamentally wrong with society. It's the fact that we have divorced ourselves from rationality.
I agree with that completely. -
2015-09-21 at 1:55 AM UTCSo I took some AL-LAD and smoked some weed right before the peak and by the time I put down my pipe I was like "well that was a mistake". Spent the following hour or so curled up on my bed watching spirited away, couldn't follow it at all of course but the visual progression was the only way I could perceive the passage of time. I had like a "meta" thought, like thinking about the nature of what I was feeling then but then I started thinking about thinking about what I was thinking so on to the point that I was thinking about the last thing I was thinking uncountably fast, it felt like perpetually falling upwards but swung back and forth between being terrifying and sublime. If I really focused I could process some small piece of information before I went to the next meta-frame so I could coordinate stumbling around a little bit but I would like get somewhere and have to just do this super-short planning process again.
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2015-09-21 at 1:59 AM UTC
See my problem?
I'd offer you advice, but I feel like you probably already know about everything I'd suggest and it would seem offensively simplistic. Alfa usb wireless adapter + yagi antenna and linux/wifislax (hella convenient)/kali to hack neighbor's connections? Free fast internet is the sweetest, I'll never pay as long as I can. Can you fix the headphones by opening them up and soldering?
Thoughts about the amount of problems in the world, things I can't find answers to and may never be able to, the things we have no (realistic) power to change, are a recurring theme that give me a feeling of being close to feeling overwhelmed and hopeless. It's the immense awareness that causes the unnatural severity of it, think of every subject that has been intensively studied, every field in universities, things that have had had so many books written about, PhD's writing dissertations, conducting studies/experiments, all trying to find solutions and discover new information.
I want to skip the journey and go straight to merging with artificial intelligence.Hey, where are you getting your poppy seeds?
The mother of your child is going through a crisis and you're trying to get high on poppy seeds. An absolute no good bum. You should see what I recommended she do to you, you'd either have a panic attack or burst out laughing. Hydro, I give you permission to share it with him. -
2015-09-21 at 2:10 AM UTC
I'd offer you advice, but I feel like you probably already know about everything I'd suggest and it would seem offensively simplistic. Alfa usb wireless adapter + yagi antenna and linux/wifislax (hella convenient)/kali to hack neighbor's connections? Free fast internet is the sweetest, I'll never pay as long as I can.
I use my neighbour's Wifi for nefarious purposes usually BUT...
You're not gonna' believe this but my neigbour's router broke same time my ISP started working on the crap they're working on and i do need to get a high range antenna so i get good connectivity with other neighbours. The reason i use my own ISP is because i get literally 100Mb/s over LAN which is bauce.Can you fix the headphones by opening them up and soldering?
I tried but it comes with this regulating switch with buttons and shit and when i cut the wire the insulation on these tiny wires got fucked without me noticing so when i plugged it back in to test it shorted the little controller circuit out.Thoughts about the amount of problems in the world, things I can't find answers to and may never be able to, the things we have no (realistic) power to change, are a recurring theme that give me a feeling of being close to feeling overwhelmed and hopeless. It's the immense awareness that causes the unnatural severity of it, think of every subject that has been intensively studied, every field in universities, things that have had had so many books written about, PhD's writing dissertations, conducting studies/experiments, all trying to find solutions and discover new information.
I know there's shit in the world and problems i won't be able to fix, but why is it required for you or me to do so? It is not our obligation to solve these problems.
