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The Retarded Thread: Sploo Needs Attention
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2019-02-02 at 8:36 AM UTCAnd how old are you again?
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2019-02-02 at 8:51 AM UTCI've been on antidepressants, mood stabilizers, and antipsychotics. Some have worked okay. Honestly I don't want to take a pill every day to pretend to be a normal person. It's like if you took a pill that made you convinced you were a billionaire beta stud, would you take it even though you are the same ugly, broke loser (I'm projecting here)? Things might have the illusion of being great, but shit hits the fan when reality crashes in because your debit card was declined buying a cheeseburger.
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2019-02-02 at 8:52 AM UTCHi
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2019-02-02 at 8:59 AM UTC
Originally posted by Bipolar High Roller I've been on antidepressants, mood stabilizers, and antipsychotics. Some have worked okay. Honestly I don't want to take a pill every day to pretend to be a normal person. It's like if you took a pill that made you convinced you were a billionaire beta stud, would you take it even though you are the same ugly, broke loser (I'm projecting here)? Things might have the illusion of being great, but shit hits the fan when reality crashes in because your debit card was declined buying a cheeseburger.
I'm 29.
Idk I felt the same way about taking thyroid meds every day. Like if i couldnt live without a pill, should i really be alive? But thats kind of a retarded way to look at things. What if the only "reality" thats fucking you up is your state of mind? I think if theres something that works, and you havent tried it for long enough to really attempt doing the Real Life thing, youre totally shooting yourself in the foot. Idk. I probably wouldve agreed six months ago. But now that i understand how much of what i thought was permanently fucked up and ruined- was just my brain trying to keep everything nice and quiet...its kinda shocking how susceptible i was to that suggestion. -
2019-02-02 at 8:59 AM UTCHi
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2019-02-02 at 9:06 AM UTCI actually put up that thing i wrote in this thread the other night- copied, pasted to Tinder. I got like 6 matches since i threw it up around 1pm. Which is like 3x the amount i ever got before.
Of course im too nervous to talk to most of them, but...its cool how positive energy (or maybe just self deprecating humor) draws people to you, even through the internet.
All week people have been telling me that I look better, and ask if i started working out. I said "Nah i just smashed a bag of Pepperidge farms cookies like 45 min ago." Like im so fucking confused right now, i have no words.
2 co-workers- boyfriend and girlfriend- had their last day at work today. Theyre moving into their first apartment together in vegas. So i kinda spilled my guts about all the stuff id kind of talked my way around for the last year and a half. We ate ribs and then drank tall boys and smoked blunts. I bestowed my wisdom and got really deep. And when everyone went inside, the girl gave me a hug and got kinda teary eyed, said to promise to take care of myself, and that when i talked about the stuff about my dad, thats the same way she felt growing up without a father.
The only way I could articulate it was that in day to day life, we try hard not to invade other peoples bubbles. Not to puncture that barrier with anything to personal or prying. But when you just act like an absolute blissed out shizophrenic and have a human moment with someone youve never really "talked" with before, its amazing how many people seem to be looking for that exact type of connection.The following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire! -
2019-02-02 at 9:08 AM UTC
Originally posted by CASPER Idk I felt the same way about taking thyroid meds every day. Like if i couldnt live without a pill, should i really be alive? But thats kind of a retarded way to look at things. What if the only "reality" thats fucking you up is your state of mind? I think if theres something that works, and you havent tried it for long enough to really attempt doing the Real Life thing, youre totally shooting yourself in the foot. Idk. I probably wouldve agreed six months ago. But now that i understand how much of what i thought was permanently fucked up and ruined- was just my brain trying to keep everything nice and quiet…its kinda shocking how susceptible i was to that suggestion.
It's probably just hypocrisy, but I feel like it's different when it involves mental illness. I guess maybe that's just the stigma that has been ingrained into us as a society, though. Our consciousness is just a series of chemical reactions in our brain. If I take antipsychotics to "fix" my brain chemistry, am I even the same person? I'm probably just retarded. I am the most self-destructive person I know, so this way of thinking comes with the territory.
Edit: Your thyroid thing seems more like a Darwinian idea to you. I can survive physically with my mental illness, so it's not a matter of susvival, it's more about changing my actual person. -
2019-02-02 at 9:09 AM UTCGet a girlfriend
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2019-02-02 at 9:13 AM UTC
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2019-02-02 at 10:27 AM UTC
Originally posted by Bipolar High Roller I've been on antidepressants, mood stabilizers, and antipsychotics. Some have worked okay. Honestly I don't want to take a pill every day to pretend to be a normal person. It's like if you took a pill that made you convinced you were a billionaire beta stud, would you take it even though you are the same ugly, broke loser (I'm projecting here)? Things might have the illusion of being great, but shit hits the fan when reality crashes in because your debit card was declined buying a cheeseburger.
I'm 29.
try not being a fag
Originally posted by CASPER I actually put up that thing i wrote in this thread the other night- copied, pasted to Tinder. I got like 6 matches since i threw it up around 1pm. Which is like 3x the amount i ever got before.
Of course im too nervous to talk to most of them, but…its cool how positive energy (or maybe just self deprecating humor) draws people to you, even through the internet.
All week people have been telling me that I look better, and ask if i started working out. I said "Nah i just smashed a bag of Pepperidge farms cookies like 45 min ago." Like im so fucking confused right now, i have no words.
2 co-workers- boyfriend and girlfriend- had their last day at work today. Theyre moving into their first apartment together in vegas. So i kinda spilled my guts about all the stuff id kind of talked my way around for the last year and a half. We ate ribs and then drank tall boys and smoked blunts. I bestowed my wisdom and got really deep. And when everyone went inside, the girl gave me a hug and got kinda teary eyed, said to promise to take care of myself, and that when i talked about the stuff about my dad, thats the same way she felt growing up without a father.
The only way I could articulate it was that in day to day life, we try hard not to invade other peoples bubbles. Not to puncture that barrier with anything to personal or prying. But when you just act like an absolute blissed out shizophrenic and have a human moment with someone youve never really "talked" with before, its amazing how many people seem to be looking for that exact type of connection.
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2019-02-02 at 10:32 AM UTCI have to figure out how not to make food good.
Some customer at work the other day was trying to get me to do cross fit. 6'7" 350... I would be a fucking animal if I even got into like 6 years ago shape, and got my cardio up. I'd enjoy that. -
2019-02-02 at 10:34 AM UTC
Originally posted by CASPER I have to figure out how not to make food good.
Some customer at work the other day was trying to get me to do cross fit. 6'7" 350… I would be a fucking animal if I even got into like 6 years ago shape, and got my cardio up. I'd enjoy that.
you should be a power lifter, you are made to be a warlord, conquering the fucking world. you don't want to lose your breath before you've even finished sacking half the city. -
2019-02-02 at 10:38 AM UTCBut compulsive eating is just another facet of addiction too. When I stopped doing drugs at the batshit insane amounts I was doing 2 years ago... I was just eating constantly. I noticed my cat doing the same thing when she gets bored, and realized it's something really deep seeded. When you're not feeling well, you seek out things that make you feel a good feeling more compulsively.
So yeah that's kinda next step.
It's so weird looking at the few rare pics of me from high school. I was so sure I fat fat and disgusting, but I was actually in decent shape. The media makes so much off all the pressure we put on women, and the body image issues they develop. It's like...bitch everyone s like that. -
2019-02-02 at 10:40 AM UTC
Originally posted by CASPER But compulsive eating is just another facet of addiction too. When I stopped doing drugs at the batshit insane amounts I was doing 2 years ago… I was just eating constantly. I noticed my cat doing the same thing when she gets bored, and realized it's something really deep seeded. When you're not feeling well, you seek out things that make you feel a good feeling more compulsively.
So yeah that's kinda next step.
It's so weird looking at the few rare pics of me from high school. I was so sure I fat fat and disgusting, but I was actually in decent shape. The media makes so much off all the pressure we put on women, and the body image issues they develop. It's like…bitch everyone s like that.
#bodypositivity
#fatisthefuture
why shouldn't you feel fat and disgusting? why shouldn't you strive to be a living god? being a flabby pasty shit may be normal but is that okay? who cares what you're addicted to, food is gay, drugs are gay, fight yourself faggot. you don't have deep seeded problems. nobody has enough roots to have deep seeded problems. -
2019-02-02 at 10:43 AM UTC#pluralgang
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2019-02-02 at 10:48 AM UTC
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2019-02-02 at 10:55 AM UTCYee
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2019-02-02 at 10:57 AM UTCstop replying to my posts faggot
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2019-02-02 at 10:58 AM UTCI didn't
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