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The Retarded Thread: Sploo Needs Attention
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2019-01-26 at 5:04 PM UTCThey're really either for pre and post drug abuse persons. Their they're the mellow entryway into hard drug abuse, or they're the nutrisweet version of the "good shit" that you let yourself partake in after the fact when you're spent the last decade and a half sticking needles in the crease between your leg and nuts, and living with Craigslist prostitutes.
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2019-01-26 at 5:10 PM UTCIf you don't have an anxiety disorder benzos won't appeal to you. For those of us with anxiety it's like an overwhelming feeling of freedom. A vacation from the hell of our mind. Same with alcohol.
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2019-01-26 at 7:08 PM UTCBlacking out is fun
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2019-01-26 at 7:28 PM UTC
Originally posted by CASPER They're really either for pre and post drug abuse persons. Their they're the mellow entryway into hard drug abuse, or they're the nutrisweet version of the "good shit" that you let yourself partake in after the fact when you're spent the last decade and a half sticking needles in the crease between your leg and nuts, and living with Craigslist prostitutes.
How was living Craigslist prostitutes? Was it fly? Are they a good time/any fun? -
2019-01-26 at 8:29 PM UTC
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2019-01-26 at 9:16 PM UTC
Originally posted by RestStop I never saw the appeal of benzos. I just get fucked up and don't remember shit/pass out for 12-14 hours.
When my life was shitty they'd just lower my inhibitions enough to wanna an hero or sabotage myself. In this stage of life they are still dangerous because I don't give a flying fuck about anything but I'm also minding my p's and q's -
2019-01-26 at 9:35 PM UTCI am feeling suicidal urges
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2019-01-26 at 9:35 PM UTCHoly shit, even Mel Gibson can't defeat Mel Gibson.
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2019-01-26 at 9:38 PM UTCyeeeee boiiii
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2019-01-27 at 1:48 AM UTCHello!
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2019-01-27 at 1:49 AM UTCJello...
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2019-01-27 at 2:42 AM UTC
Originally posted by RestStop How was living Craigslist prostitutes? Was it fly? Are they a good time/any fun?
Generally, they were people that thought way too highly of themselves. The girl I lived with was pretty fucking obnoxious. But her hippie friend was actually really sweet, sad girl. She would've been fucking a bunch of strangers whether she was getting paid or not. I've always liked the sad girls.
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2019-01-27 at 2:45 AM UTCGenerally I'd be in the car in the hotel parking structure getting high, and when she'd finish we'd go score and spend a stupid amount of money on restaurants.
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2019-01-27 at 3:48 AM UTC
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2019-01-27 at 3:56 AM UTCI mean, xanax never actually removed my anxiety directly. It just put me into a state of literal retardedness and shot my memory for 4 years. I was still anxious as hell the entire time.
Gabapentin on the other hand, directly addresses my anxiety and doesn't even make me drowsy, let alone extra retarded and fucked in the memory dept.
I had .5 of ativan for my MRI this week, and I just felt like shit and had no memory for a few hours afterwards with no high feeling. It wasn't as hazy as xanax though. A bit more clearheaded, but that's not saying much.
Fuck benzos, they utterly destroyed 4 of my "prime" years. I don't understand how the kids think they are recreational. Mind numbing, yes, but not fun in any way IMHFO. -
2019-01-27 at 5:01 AM UTC
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2019-01-27 at 5:05 AM UTC
Originally posted by DietPiano I mean, xanax never actually removed my anxiety directly. It just put me into a state of literal retardedness and shot my memory for 4 years. I was still anxious as hell the entire time.
Gabapentin on the other hand, directly addresses my anxiety and doesn't even make me drowsy, let alone extra retarded and fucked in the memory dept.
I had .5 of ativan for my MRI this week, and I just felt like shit and had no memory for a few hours afterwards with no high feeling. It wasn't as hazy as xanax though. A bit more clearheaded, but that's not saying much.
Fuck benzos, they utterly destroyed 4 of my "prime" years. I don't understand how the kids think they are recreational. Mind numbing, yes, but not fun in any way IMHFO.
You can't think like that. It'll make you crazy. In all liklihood, the drugs didn't fuck up your head. I mean it's certainly possible. But chances are you were fucked up and therefore you sought out drugs. Once I realized that, it seemed a lot more easy problem to sort out. Who's to say those 4 years wouldn't have made you a weaker, less aware person?
Idk. I'm hi. -
2019-01-27 at 5:07 AM UTCOr maybe it's just me trying to find order and meaning in senselessness. But the person I was when I was 18-20 seems like a completely alien species to how I feel now. Idk.
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2019-01-27 at 5:39 AM UTC
Originally posted by CASPER Who's to say those 4 years wouldn't have made you a weaker, less aware person?
Indefinitely. This is the line of thinking shift I got from my use, going to jail, going to rehab. I wouldn't have the perception I have now had those things not happened, and the past doesn't exist, and there are no "could haves". There is only what is now, and you can be enjoy where you are now in life, or choose to feel like shit and wallow in misery. My head still hurts tho. -
2019-01-27 at 6:49 AM UTC
Originally posted by RestStop I never saw the appeal of benzos. I just get fucked up and don't remember shit/pass out for 12-14 hours.
To borrow a phrase from the deceased, benzos are a fast forward button for life. There are some really shitty 12-14 hour periods of our lives that many of us would rather never have experienced. For these moments man has stolen benzos from the gods.