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The Retarded Thread: Sploo Needs Attention
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2019-01-07 at 2:56 AM UTCY'all a bunch of tryhards now
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2019-01-07 at 3:12 AM UTCYeah, the elipepsy thing is pretty neat. Anecdotally it seems to only be hit or miss at best for adults, which is strange.
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2019-01-07 at 3:50 AM UTChere's some attention HOWS THIS FOR SOME GODDAMN ATTENTION
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2019-01-07 at 3:53 AM UTCSNAKE
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2019-01-07 at 5:13 AM UTCSo my mom was going through her normal shtick and I just started crying and told her to stfu because my brain is broken. That'll teach you to ask me to do things. She got all preachy when I admitted that I smoked weed to clean the kitchen. But half the time I don't even have the energy to get up out of bed or bathe myself. It's not my imagination. Idk what is is, but something, chemically/hormonally/whatever...just isn't right. And I get the other side of it, but having someone telling you to just suck it up and stop being sad is just infuriating. In a way I'm glad for what I've gone through, because I get a different perspective. Before drugs, I thought that addiction was just a matter of choice. But it's a lot more intricate than just choosing to keep destroying yourself. She was talking about my grandma and her dementia, and she was almost angry at her, saying "she didn't want to have to deal with the fact that her husband had a stroke and was permanently disabled, so she decided to go hide away in a corner of her mind- there's nothing PHYSICALLY wrong with her." And I'm just thinking, you think someone just makes the conscious decision to lose their mind? There's a reason why the human brain does strange things to cope with trauma. It's because it can't deal with it rationally at the moment. She didnt just make a decision to shirk all responsibility and tuck herself away for a brain vacation. She saw the healthy, brilliant man she loved and came to rely on for 30+ years, reduced to a slack jawed, diaper wearing infant....and it scared the shit out of her and she didn't know how to deal with it. She didn't make a choice.I don't know how else to explain it to my mom.
Anyway. I guess I just forget how incredibly fucked up I am. If this weren't a gradual change over the course of years, like if someone just woke up feeling the way I do on a daily basis, they'd be so alarmed they'd go to an ER immediately. I suppose in neglecting medical intervention, I'm really not much better than the Christian Scientists I laughed at as a teenager. But everything seems like to much to deal with, and as with everything else in my life,I feel like if I ignore things for long enough, they'll resolve themselves without me having to DO anything. It's frightening to imagine an entire life where you have no choice and nothing changes, but it's so easy to make that choice every morning, and in no time at all, twenty years have passed.
Idk. Idk.
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2019-01-07 at 6:38 AM UTC
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2019-01-07 at 9:33 AM UTCIdk why, but I get the feeling if I started smoking again regularly, I'd have an okay chance of being sober a while. Weed just seems to poke me up through the cloud layer just enough to see some sunshine. Opiates work too, but really just to make me so numb and foggy that I don't have to think about much of anything. It's just the key that fits the tumbler lock of my brain just perfectly. But the feeling of being almost baseline instead of always at a low...it's nice. I don't remember the last time I listened to music for enjoyment or wrote or anything.
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2019-01-07 at 9:34 AM UTCI also might be drunk. But a weird mellow 3 bottles of wine over the last few hours drunk, instead of whiskey and coke and meth bumps sloppy kind of drunk I'm most accustomed to.
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2019-01-07 at 9:46 AM UTC
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2019-01-07 at 2:15 PM UTC
Originally posted by CASPER Opiates work too, but really just to make me so numb and foggy that I don't have to think about much of anything. It's just the key that fits the tumbler lock of my brain just perfectly. But the feeling of being almost baseline instead of always at a low
Mmm, that is a tasty choice of words.
That's kind if why I think about suboxone a lit, because it's really doable to live a very normal life with that extra little boost that doesn't floor you by any sense of the word. -
2019-01-07 at 2:20 PM UTC
Originally posted by DietPiano Mmm, that is a tasty choice of words.
That's kind if why I think about suboxone a lit, because it's really doable to live a very normal life with that extra little boost that doesn't floor you by any sense of the word.
This is why chasing heroin on foil is so much superior to pinning that shit. You get to be on the best buzz all day while still completely functional.
Pin heads are fucking stupid thinking coz it hits you harder it means its a better ROA.
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2019-01-07 at 2:24 PM UTCSoyboy IV: The Flower of Death and The Crystal of Life African Astronaut [the oppositely able-bodied hop-step-and-jump]
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2019-01-07 at 2:29 PM UTC
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2019-01-07 at 2:33 PM UTC
Originally posted by Narc This is why chasing heroin on foil is so much superior to pinning that shit. You get to be on the best buzz all day while still completely functional.
Pin heads are fucking stupid thinking coz it hits you harder it means its a better ROA.
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Pretty much everyone I know who IVd is either dead or long sober. It just forces you to that crossroads so much sooner. Smoking it was really a curse. I was doing 3-5 g a day, but I was still able to pretend to be a living breathing boy. Being so easy to hide cost me a lot of time. Lot of time. In retrospect I wish I'd only needled it. At least then I'd either be long dead or well into my new life, definitive and hopeful feeling either way, -
2019-01-07 at 3:11 PM UTC
Originally posted by CASPER Pretty much everyone I know who IVd is either dead or long sober. It just forces you to that crossroads so much sooner. Smoking it was really a curse. I was doing 3-5 g a day, but I was still able to pretend to be a living breathing boy. Being so easy to hide cost me a lot of time. Lot of time. In retrospect I wish I'd only needled it. At least then I'd either be long dead or well into my new life, definitive and hopeful feeling either way,
Well thats you mate. Me, I'm happy being able to go on living a normal life and maintaining an easily manageable dope habit.
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2019-01-07 at 3:28 PM UTC
Originally posted by Narc This is why chasing heroin on foil is so much superior to pinning that shit. You get to be on the best buzz all day while still completely functional.
Pin heads are fucking stupid thinking coz it hits you harder it means its a better ROA.
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U fucking wot m8
In the event you take too much yeah. You're not functional, but this is not a problem specific to IV or heroin for that mater. 30mg, pharm grade morphine mainlined gets me nice and buzzed while i remain functional. If i rail an oxy 80 and then another, yeah i'll be nodding borderline KO for a while.
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2019-01-07 at 3:34 PM UTC
Originally posted by Sophie U fucking wot m8
In the event you take too much yeah. You're not functional, but this is not a problem specific to IV or heroin for that mater. 30mg, pharm grade morphine mainlined gets me nice and buzzed while i remain functional. If i rail an oxy 80 and then another, yeah i'll be nodding borderline KO for a while.
It's about dosage not ROA is what i'm trying to say.
Thassit mate
But with street heroin its impossible to dosage properly as you won't know the strength of each bag from one to the next.
At least on the foil if it starts to feel too strong you can just put it away for a while and pick it up later.
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2019-01-07 at 3:38 PM UTC
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2019-01-07 at 3:49 PM UTC
Originally posted by Narc Thassit mate
But with street heroin its impossible to dosage properly as you won't know the strength of each bag from one to the next.
At least on the foil if it starts to feel too strong you can just put it away for a while and pick it up later.
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That makes sense. I'm just glad i got access to quality stuff. Heroin not included unfortunately -
2019-01-07 at 3:51 PM UTCI dropped my phone on the floor noeq my keyboard iz asctijg qwrord
