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What keeps YOU from getting on that bus?
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2018-12-11 at 6:37 PM UTC
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2018-12-11 at 6:38 PM UTCBoo, please forward nekkid Tee Hee pics, bro!
Get Jiggy with it. -
2018-12-11 at 6:38 PM UTC
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2018-12-11 at 6:39 PM UTC
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2018-12-11 at 6:40 PM UTCWell i haven't cried in 3 days, 4 if you count today. Im ready for whatever comes my way!!
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2018-12-11 at 6:41 PM UTC
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2018-12-11 at 6:43 PM UTC
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2018-12-11 at 6:45 PM UTCChurch newspaper?...😄
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2018-12-11 at 6:45 PM UTC
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2018-12-11 at 6:45 PM UTC
Originally posted by vindicktive vinny i willfully declined to be an enabler of evil.
how about you ? what do you do for a living ?
I used to be a sales manager alongside my book income. I had to quit because I was going on vacation for longer than the alloted corporate 'time off' period. Then I didn't wanna go back because I hated it. Looking at construction now because fuck offices. -
2018-12-11 at 6:47 PM UTC
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2018-12-12 at 12:47 AM UTC
Originally posted by vindicktive vinny but the more you had them recalled, the more they're being altered and by the time your 50 what you remembered isnt really what happened.
just figments of your immagination.
That's fucking depressing.
Also kinda solipsistic and nihilistic as well.
Like, what's the point of even remembering anything?
Ah well, I still choose to remember. -
2018-12-12 at 12:47 AM UTC
Originally posted by vindicktive vinny it is hope and dreams, other than responsibilities to our loved ones that keep most of us alive, enduring thru another day of hell with out teeth gritted …
but to have achieved your hope and dreams so easily, you either have to be some one with really low expectation of yourself,
or a high achiever.
the question is which ones you.
To me, it seems like the whole point is to have high expectations, and to continually be striving towards them throughout your whole life, and maybe that's where meaning comes from.
Reading a bunch of Nietzsche kinda inspired that way of thinking in me.
If you're always striving towards some goal or better version of yourself, you're always occupied. -
2018-12-12 at 12:51 AM UTC
Originally posted by Lanny I used to want to end it all. Then I read Chicken Soup for Faggots by Alfredo Gonzales and it spoke to me on a deep level. As in like 7-9 inches deep. Deep in my anus I felt uplifted, and not just because of the upward tilted pelvic thrusting, it was like my fag-soul was soothed for the first time in my life. I realized I didn't need to get on that bus, I'd have many more opportunities to be penetrated, suck dick, and generally be a faggot if I hitchhiked into suicide instead of doing it the pussy way by taking a bus.
Where does one get a copy of Chicken Soup for Faggots?
If you try to google it, it brings up British recipes (they eat faggots over there).
I like the hitchhiking analogy though because it's more akin to the idea brought up by someone above about taking risks and trying adventurous things first - better to die while living life than to die prematurely. -
2018-12-12 at 12:55 AM UTC
Originally posted by larrylegend8383 I also have two childhood friends who were brothers. One jumped off a parking garage and the other was shot and killed. Every day I feel like I'm running a marathon that they didn't get to finish. I'ma finish that bitch for them.
I haven't brought it up yet in this thread, but that's also a part of the motivation I have to keep going, and would be a great source of guilt in suicide.
Everyone talks about the guilt that goes with leaving people grieving, but there's also the guilt of taking life for granted when others didn't even get the chance.
I had a friend OD when he was 19 (I was 21). It's part of what motivates me to try new things all the time and to take risks (of a certain variety - i.e. not necessarily daredevilism or anything over the top) in life. It's part of why I have a lot of ambitious goals that I work towards. It would be a tremendous insult to someone who died so young if I took my life for granted. -
2018-12-12 at 12:59 AM UTC
Originally posted by HTS Spite, basically. If I kill myself a bunch of people will be like "lol tranny killed itself, way to prove the statistics right hts", so fuck that.
Sometimes I even think of spite as good motivation to stick around, although not quite for the same reasons.
But everyday I stay breathing, any haters/enemies out there (I'm sure I have some... I mean, everyone has haters of some variety), it is like sticking it to them for one more day. -
2018-12-12 at 1:03 AM UTC
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2018-12-12 at 1:03 AM UTCI think I thanked just about every poster in this thread, some more than once.
But I also want to say a verbal "thank you" for the positivity and encouragement, or the humor, or the relatable stories, that you all brought to the table. -
2018-12-12 at 2:14 AM UTC
Originally posted by GGG I used to be a sales manager alongside my book income. I had to quit because I was going on vacation for longer than the alloted corporate 'time off' period. Then I didn't wanna go back because I hated it. Looking at construction now because fuck offices.
looking at construction ? does that mean your not in employment right now ?
does looking at the muscular construction workers give you errection ? -
2018-12-12 at 2:16 AM UTC