2018-10-14 at 11:27 PM UTC
Nobody tells me what to eat, or when to eat it.
K
2018-10-14 at 11:37 PM UTC
i punch things and myself and cut myself and burn myself with hot water and wax and dig my nails into myself (they are long). also poked self with needles, clech jaw until it hurts, etc.
i do it because self hate gets to a point i need to release tension. last time i did it majorly i was freaking about my worthlesness all day and getting drunk didnt help so i gashed my leg a lot to distract myself. id rather be pathetic like this than actually do anything.
its only bad cuz im actually smart and have a phd fellowship but im an idiot and fuck up constantly. i kind of want a low stress job and life to autistically play video games all day. ive considered breaking up with my gf even to play games more. idk tho its emotional support etc
2018-10-14 at 11:42 PM UTC
little boys and teenage girls cut themselves
I cut myself when I was 8 or 9 with a rusty razer but then just stuck to punching holes in walls when I would get mad after that
then you have to try and fix them because no one wants to see holes.
wax or hot water sounds like kink. drive screws under your fingernails if you want to inflict pain on yourself. unless you get septic shock or tetanus, the only way I can think of dying from it would be from a heart attack from the fucking pain.
