Ensign Galm
African Astronaut
[specifically erupt this tetrachloromethane]
Lanny, why do you allow jailbait like this? That one pic is really bordering the line of illegal with the context it's being presented in. Intent is written into 18 usc 2256
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Originally posted by Lanny
Hey malice, have you read that paper and do you understand the figure you're reposted several times now? If so, could you briefly describe the authors methodology in coming up with it?
I may actually be a case where I'm just too far gone or practically received a death sentence at birth. I really don't know if I can ever break out of this chronic severe depression and emotional dearth. There are just so many factors and things that went wrong in my life that I've obsessively researched and ruminated over, accepted in an inhumanly detached and impartial manner. It's to the extent that it can't be be properly communicated even if I wanted to.
Goddamn, this life and genetic inheritance were just fucking horrible, regardless of how much blame is my own. I really fucked myself up.
Without any of the things that naturally drive people to continue to live I don't think I can function and endure this. Some people really are in a state where suicide is understandable, and a compassionate response wouldn't condemn it or see it as negative outcome relative to the alternative.
Originally posted by Malice
Without any of the things that naturally drive people to continue to live I don't think I can function and endure this. Some people really are in a state where suicide is understandable, and a compassionate response wouldn't condemn it or see it as negative outcome relative to the alternative.
Yes, yes, but no one is in a state where endlessly talking about suicide and complaining about ever detail of your life while doing nothing is OK. My compassionate response is to shut the fuck up.
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Yeah, exactly. There was this close-knit message board that shut down years ago, The Revolt Press, run by Xannex, a TOTSE member. I realized long ago that losing the only real sense of community I had was where things really started to fall apart.
It's really sad. I seem to have no natural desire for other people, don't receive the same positive response, negative aspects of life and responses are greatly amplified, and I still suffer the effects of severe isolation and alienation.
Genes, environment, psychology. Everything went wrong to such an extreme degree and prolonged period of time. I thought myself to death.
This site has gone to absolute shit. Why do you even bother reading it? I don't understand what drives you to be here, you seem like the kind of person that should have left this place long ago because they found something better and never looked back.
I remember you mentioning that as a child your mother would ask you if you were lonely and saying you never felt a natural desire to be around others, which may have just been because your social needs were met easily enough, other factors prevented you from lapsing into the range of severe depression.
And that post where you tried MXE and said that you had never felt like you cared about anything less than you did during that experience, even recommending it for people that were terminally ill. Something along those lines.
Ensign Galm
African Astronaut
[specifically erupt this tetrachloromethane]
Originally posted by Malice
Yeah, exactly. There was this close-knit message board that shut down years ago, The Revolt Press, run by Xannex, a TOTSE member. I realized long ago that losing the only real sense of community I had was where things really started to fall apart.
It's really sad. I seem to have no natural desire for other people, don't receive the same positive response, negative aspects of life and responses are greatly amplified, and I still suffer the effects of severe isolation and alienation.
Genes, environment, psychology. Everything went wrong to such an extreme degree and prolonged period of time. I thought myself to death.
You clearly do have a desire to interact with other people. Otherwise you wouldn't be posting here. More so, you wouldn't be discussing your problems nearly to the extent that you are here. You COULD write your thoughts out without having other people read them, but instead you post them here.
There is definitely still a semblance of community here. It's not quite the same, but I think many of us find a sort of comfort in the familiar stability of space nigga companionship. The site could definitely be cleaned up however. Would be nice to have a sort of 'actual discussion only' area where we could kick out all the one-liners and trolls.
Originally posted by Sophie
Damn, for some reason i found myself watching court footage of child sexual abuse victims giving victim impact statements. Feels bad man.
I'm sure you're familiar with the case if you're from the US. I don't have a link handy right now, but during the court proceedings the dad of some of the girls that got abused when they were like 5, literally went to attack the guy. This nerdy looking doctor typa fella. The bailiffs and such had to physically restrain him. So what apparently had happened was; this doctor guy had become friends with the family as they were also in the medical field and he had abused one or more of their daughters from like age 5 and onward. Apparently he had done so to multiple little girls leading to the suicide of this other girl that was involved.
Anyway, after the dad got so mad he wanted to murder the guy, the victim impact statement was of his daughter, a teen by now. But it was petty intense and not so pleasant to listen to.
Anywhore, i felt the pedo equivalent of "white guilt" or some shit, because i've never abused a child in my life and yet i felt really, really shitty after watching her make her statement.
