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2017-11-11 at 8:58 PM UTC
Originally posted by Malice I'm pretty damn sure the first two ER trips actually happened, along with the incident with the neighbors and apartment ransacking after that. Possible the stress and everything I was haunted by pushed me over the edge afterward.
So why exactly is some dude trying to break your arms and ransacking your house? -
2017-11-11 at 9:03 PM UTC
Originally posted by Lanny It does, doesn't it? A little too much. My money is on it being a troll. Too well punctuated for someone who supposedly can't maintain a consistent tense.
You have a funny idea of what psychosis is. People can totally be coherent while they're experiencing psychosis. I don't know why you think otherwise. -
2017-11-11 at 9:05 PM UTC
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2017-11-11 at 9:09 PM UTC
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2017-11-11 at 9:10 PM UTCYour idea of psychosis obviously stems from crazy person youtube videos.
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2017-11-11 at 9:13 PM UTC
Originally posted by NARCassist WE'RE GONNA GET YOU MOTHERFUCKER, YOU DISSED MY UNCLE.
after that description of his happy adventures it wouldnt be far fetched to think that when the nigger said 'dissed' he was actually saying 'pissed' because the dude lost bladder control and literally pissed on the niggers uncle. -
2017-11-11 at 10:09 PM UTC
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2017-11-11 at 10:16 PM UTCav had worse
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2017-11-11 at 11:15 PM UTC
Originally posted by 霍比特人说中文不好 Your idea of psychosis obviously stems from crazy person youtube videos.
lol, no, I said too well punctuated for someone who can't maintain the tense of their writing, not too well punctuated for someone experiencing psychosis. I know you want to hop in here and try to impress everyone with your, uhh, vast knowledge of mental illness or whatever, but don't get ahead of yourself. -
2017-11-11 at 11:19 PM UTC
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2017-11-11 at 11:20 PM UTC
Originally posted by Lanny lol, no, I said too well punctuated for someone who can't maintain the tense of their writing, not too well punctuated for someone experiencing psychosis. I know you want to hop in here and try to impress everyone with your, uhh, vast knowledge of mental illness or whatever, but don't get ahead of yourself.
Jesus Christ the irony. -
2017-11-11 at 11:20 PM UTC
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2017-11-11 at 11:22 PM UTCWhat town? you must of got an incident or police report. take photo, imgur it, show us. blur out personal info except details and location
thanks in advance, "Malice"
Originally posted by Malice I'm pretty damn sure the first two ER trips actually happened, along with the incident with the neighbors and apartment ransacking after that. Possible the stress and everything I was haunted by pushed me over the edge afterward.
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2017-11-11 at 11:58 PM UTCOP sounds a lot like Malice to me.
Malice you sound like someone who's in the middle of burning out. Your health problems sound quite serious. Your narrative in your OP doesn't make much sense, but stop worrying about it, you need zero stress until you are better. -
2017-11-12 at 12:47 AM UTCWell, at least the loli made you a card. That was very sweet of her. Just looking on the bright side. Also, you were told the lease was up then next thing you remember is waking up slumped over next to a fence? How does that even happen, smoke inhalation or something you said? Why can't you remember how you got there in the first place if that was the case? Also, going by your neighbors and general description of events it sounds to me like you went on a benzo bender. Talked shit to some guy's uncle then went for a walk and ended up where you did. Did they by any chance check for narcotics at the ER? Also, tell me more about the psych ward.
In any case, good to hear from you again. Good luck getting back on track. -
2017-11-12 at 12:47 AM UTCIf it's truly Malice, I am truly Sorry Malice. It just seemed weird you buzzed in when people were talking about if you were kidnapped or in a mental institution or jail.
And to be honest, It sounds like he might of been the victim of a burnt out group of people from their own stress and confused Malice as someone who probably broke into their home or Malice did something while drunk and wondered back into the same neighborhood? it doesn't sound fictional much.. just a lot of chaos going on? this is in the North Bay? where the fire was at? or are you somewhere else? this is like Armageddon for those folks. they're wound. -
2017-11-12 at 12:52 AM UTCHe was talking about PG&E which they are considered responsible (possibly) of their transformers shorting out and causing the multiple fires up near Santa Rosa last month. or PG&E is having it happening elsewhere; as well?
Originally posted by Sophie Well, at least the loli made you a card. That was very sweet of her. Just looking on the bright side. Also, you were told the lease was up then next thing you remember is waking up slumped over next to a fence? How does that even happen, smoke inhalation or something you said? Why can't you remember how you got there in the first place if that was the case? Also, going by your neighbors and general description of events it sounds to me like you went on a benzo bender. Talked shit to some guy's uncle then went for a walk and ended up where you did. Did they by any chance check for narcotics at the ER? Also, tell me more about the psych ward.
In any case, good to hear from you again. Good luck getting back on track. -
2017-11-12 at 12:56 AM UTCI see, how bad were these fires? Because i just googled North Bay fires and holy shit.
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2017-11-12 at 1:08 AM UTCWhat a surprise
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2017-11-12 at 1:24 AM UTC
Originally posted by Malice What happened? Landlord tells me she recently divorced and is planning to move back in, so the lease is ending. Bummed out about it, will miss cats and worry about them.
Then: ER-Came to slumped against fence with no memory of why I was going out or what happened and a line of high school students walking past, which I had never seen before. May have been sucker punched to the head from behind.
ER: Smoke inhalation from PG&E caused fire (There were some big news stories about this). Told me I had been asleep for 12 hours. Wrong place at wrong time. May have been told the air quality was a 10 (worst) where they found me. Could also have been giving me auditory hallucinations earlier at home. Pissed self (haha), probably tried and failed to find someone to contact, apparently little girl drew card for me hoping to get better, am also given a bag of food and drink. Lost medication I had purchased. Start crying like a little bitch short time after card is given to me. Walk home to blocks with someone from the hospital checking up on me and on phone with girl telling her how much I miss my family. When I get home neighbors are there. Mother sees me crying/sobbing and asks what's wrong and I admit that I want my parents, don't know where they are.
Ask neighbors across street benign question, they seem to ignore me. Then guy comes across and tells me that I disrespected his uncle and am going to pay for that. Tells me to kneel and hold the bars of the gate. Hear him saying "break his arms". Calls someone over, mentions he'll do it for $35. When car rapidly pulls up I leg it. Jump fence, but am pushed out into street by neighbors. Sprint to Hospital/ER area nearby, which usually has a cop. When I come back the place has be ransacked and is a total fucking mess. Everything feels ruined and I no longer feel safe.
Then an overheard phone call in Spanish a few days later when I'm trying to clean up because I have the windows open to air out the place, telling other person on phone to make sure I don't run this time. Get out, lock door, and put self in strategic position while I call 911. Neighbor notices and people in house start leaving until it's empty. May also have seen them holding hands up as cop car drives past. Cops take 1-1/2 hours. Black guy drives up and rapidly jumps fence while saying something like "White boy fucked up". Then "Aaaaah!" while running. Fortunately I get away and he tries to leave quickly. Hear him telling someone to let him in. Cops arrive, don't do shit, tell me to go to shelter if I feel unsafe.
Accidentally walk in wrong direction. Start running toward ER just in case. May have caught someone following me. Try to go in to get help, but there's nothing they can do for me. Would have called for an Uber if my phone hadn't been wrecked, although I was possibly near broke. Tell them I'm having thoughts of suicide second time I come in. Also catch Hispanic guy come in behind me with an afro and evil eyes, possibly asks what room I'm staying in, then leaves. This results in first 5150. Weird experience at psych ward, definitely not what you'd expect. Really fucked up, actually.
Was also taken off 75mg Nardil, which sure as hell doesn't help.
Anyway, pretty much lost everything and now I'm trying to move back in with my parents, or at least my dad, as my sister messaged me and told me they're on the East Coast now, while dad is in Pomona. Staying at a transitional place.
Post last edited by Malice at 2017-11-11T19:50:52.451272+00:00
Damn man I'm sorry to hear that but I was constantly laughing throughout reading the whole post (mostly because it didn't make any sense to me why you kept returning to the ER or really anything that was happening) before I got to the end then I felt bad for laughing..
You are on the road to betterment lol
