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2017-08-12 at 7:46 PM UTC
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2017-08-12 at 8:11 PM UTC
Originally posted by Totse 2001 If a parent ends their life, their child usually follows. for the sake of your son, don't do it.
I'm a terrible mother, you all can agree with that, PoC can agree with that, and I'm sure once my son is old enough he will agree with that. Dying might hurt him someway, but less so than being in his life. Hopefully he'll understand, if he doesn't well... tough shit.
My Doctor had this disccusion with me many times back around 2007-2011. do it for your kid. besides, think of all the cool crazy shit you will miss. like all of us having to figure out how to survive and battle AI technology.
become a Doctor or at least a Registered nurse. People like human touch and experience and not some AI coded bot trying to give you compassion.
other Jobs probably not going away.. IRS, Judges/Attorneys, Mortuary (selling of coffins) those are set Jobs.
Maybe state Jobs. get into a Union. Union people will have no problem destroying AI if it comes down to losing their Jobs.
Y poor ability to cope with my pain prevents me from doing all that much in furthering my education/career. I will NOT be a nurse... I won't take orders from douche-bags, I wanna be the douche-bag.
Originally posted by LegalizeSpiritualDiscovery Lol, reminds me of the type of people who post this type of shit:
For halfway decent people, recognizing that they're an ass is motivation to feel some remorse and work on not being an ass. Nobody likes the annoying types who do some assholish shit and then go, "Haha yeah, I'm an asshole," and then continue acting like an asshole all the time. Those are the types that people stop hanging around.
I don't think I am worth anything, even at my best. I would never post somethig like that. I don't think "Haha, I'm an asshole", I do have remorse, and guilt and feel like shit for being that way. I do try to be better than I've been, but always revert to being the cunt I am. -
2017-08-12 at 8:13 PM UTC
Originally posted by hydromorphone I'm a terrible mother, you all can agree with that, PoC can agree with that, and I'm sure once my son is old enough he will agree with that. Dying might hurt him someway, but less so than being in his life. Hopefully he'll understand, if he doesn't well… tough shit.
Y poor ability to cope with my pain prevents me from doing all that much in furthering my education/career. I will NOT be a nurse… I won't take orders from douche-bags, I wanna be the douche-bag.
I don't think I am worth anything, even at my best. I would never post somethig like that. I don't think "Haha, I'm an asshole", I do have remorse, and guilt and feel like shit for being that way. I do try to be better than I've been, but always revert to being the cunt I am.
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2017-08-12 at 8:17 PM UTC
Originally posted by hydromorphone Yeah, I did. I was being a cunt. I am a cunt. At least I own what I am unlike some people/cunts. Give me credit for that at least.
I do worry about my son. I rarely post anything about my son because I would prefer to keep that shit off of here. I deal with him everyday. I love him, for sure, but I'd rather forget about that shit when I come here to post since I pretty much revolve around him. Everything I am working on is for him, else I'd just check out now, I really, really want to, you know. He won't be in foster care when I am gone. He'll be with people I know and trust to bring him up and raise him right.
For the record, I'm not suicidal because I'm not with PoC, was suicidal loooong before that, suicidal because I am in chronic pain every moment of my life from varying degrees. It's enough to drive one insane. I hate having to use steroids to deal with some of my issues, for how fucky they make my mind, stealing my memory, and just overall shitty they make me feel. The alternative to using them is being in such agony that standing up, walking, or otherwise doing anything other than being curled up in a ball on my bed is too intense to cope with. I was really fucked before I realized I what was going on was a bad bout of inflammation. Also, the thing about steroids is, the side effects last far longer than the beneficial effects. It's fucked, and I hate my life has to revolve around fucked drug use just to function, hence I'm suicidal.
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2017-08-12 at 8:44 PM UTCThe following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire!
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2017-08-12 at 8:48 PM UTC
Originally posted by LegalizeSpiritualDiscovery For halfway decent people, recognizing that they're an ass is motivation to feel some remorse and work on not being an ass. Nobody likes the annoying types who do some assholish shit and then go, "Haha yeah, I'm an asshole," and then continue acting like an asshole all the time. Those are the types that people stop hanging around.
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2017-08-12 at 9:09 PM UTC
Originally posted by NARCassist you think nobody is gonna sit him down when he asks why he hasn't got a mom, and tell him..,
i'm sorry son, but your mom was very mentally ill and committed suicide when you were very young'.
but what he will actually hear is…
'i'm sorry son, but your mom didn't give a shit about you enough to stay around and look after you, you obviously never meant anything to her and she obviously had no desire what so ever to want to see you grow up and see what you became with your life. she obviously had no concern pertaining to protecting you from any harm or dangers you may of faced during your childhood, or to seeing to it that you stayed on the right track and were looked after and had everything you needed. or had any interest in just being there for you on all the countless times during your life when you just needed advice, support or encouragement, or for those times when you just needed your mom, like just for a hug, or to show him he's loved like every child needs countless times while growing up and even as an adult. she simply gave no thought to you what so ever'.
and as time goes by, in his head that will turn into…
fucking bitch, just leaving me like this. i fucking hate her'.
i mean go ahead hydro, do it, you certainly won't regret it if you do. your son on the other hand will regret what you did every day of his fucked up, miserable little life.
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No one's going to fucking tell him that. They may not even know what happened to her due to confidentially, or they may just be told she passed away, which probably happens to a fair amount of adopted children.
Christ you guys are fucking presumptuous condescending cunts.The following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire! -
2017-08-12 at 9:17 PM UTCOh, thank god, the two week depressive period may finally have ended. It began for no reason, beginning with strong irritability and anger throughout the entire day, which is a common way depression can be displayed in males, and continually became worse until thoughts of suicide came, although not to the point where I would actually do it, my entire mindset was depressive, and I would even begin to cry at night, tears going down my face for prolonged periods for no apparent reason. It was also unbroken, every single day I wasn't happy, where as I was hypomanic before.
I really hope that this is a random fluctuation after all, or at the very least that I don't spend far more time in depressive cycles.
I really want to buy some ketamine, but the damn darknet markets have been so fucked up, and probably will be for a while. We desperately need decentralization, such as OpenBazaar.
I haven't read enough to know how it's developed or what problems it may have, but it seems it's ready to use and the smart contract feature is pretty fascinating.
This year has demonstrated better than anything else why we absolutely need a good decentralized marketplace and a mass exodus to it, more awareness of them and their benefits.
Fortunately necessity, a final shock as great as this, is bound to lead to far more awareness, demand, and willingness for actual change, a break in apathy.
It's greatly unfortunate that it seems to be a universal feature of humanity to be apathetic about large scale systems/institutions that feel beyond their control, beyond their ability to make a real/significant change. People generally need a strong shock like this -
2017-08-12 at 9:21 PM UTCmalice, do you know any adopted children? Most of the ones I met know what happened to their parents and if not they found out as they god older. its the foster home kids who dont get told anything and its not like he couldnt find out anyway.The following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire!
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2017-08-12 at 9:28 PM UTC“In our early youth we sit before the life that lies ahead of us like children sitting before the curtain in a theatre, in happy and tense anticipation of whatever is going to appear. Luckily we do not know what really will appear.” ― Arthur Schopenhauer
I had a great smoke session last night after something was making me feel off and dissociated. Decided to clear my system of potential offenders, and the depressive cycle coming to end must have helped as well.
Strain reviews from Purple Star MD:
Unfortunately it appears I became hypersensitive again after that break. I may need to use a milligram scale once again, or microspoons
OG Kush: That good mellow, relaxing, sedative high as usual. Quite comfortable.
-Do-Si-Dos: Surprisingly potent for $25 an 1/8th! I knew when I took out a bud and examined it, saw the structure and felt the stickiness, that this may surprise me. Practically made me feel more autistic in a way, with how withdrawn and lost in thought I felt. Very highly rated, with a good lineage.
https://www.leafly.com/indica/do-si-dos
Platinum Bubba Kush: Possibly the smoothest mellow and relaxing strain I've tried so far. No headspace issues or anxiety. The lineage is certainly in line with this.
https://www.leafly.com/indica/platinum-bubba-kush
Wedding Cake: A good all around high, but this is more ambiguous. It was hard to put my finger on the effects, just how to describe it. I'll have to try it some more.
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2017-08-12 at 9:29 PM UTC
Originally posted by Discount Whore 2.0 malice, do you know any adopted children? Most of the ones I met know what happened to their parents and if not they found out as they god older. its the foster home kids who dont get told anything and its not like he couldnt find out anyway.
Well, they shouldn't fucking tell them if they can't handle it! I blame the adoptive parents. Who the hell is dumb enough to think it's a good idea to their child their birth mother committed suicide? -
2017-08-12 at 9:31 PM UTC
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2017-08-12 at 10:29 PM UTCMost adopted kids presumably want to find out what happened to their parents, once they start getting older. Most people aren't like you, Malice, where they can just go away from their family and rarely, if ever, give them any thought.
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2017-08-12 at 11:11 PM UTCHas anyone here ever seen the inside of a cockpit?
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2017-08-13 at 12:04 AM UTCHeh, I just had a funny thought about past experiences with women.
I’m very bashful and have noticed that on some occasions I’ve accidentally glanced at a woman walking contrary to me on the sidewalk or a path and my normally stern unbroken demeanor, which makes me appear intimidating and unapproachable, has softened into a coy type of smile, almost as if I’m somewhat amused.
Every time they’ve smiled in return, shown a positive reception, and usually spoken to me/or said something softly.
The same thing has happened just from looking around. When scanning an area I have a very intense unbroken glance. My gaze simply crossing a receptive girl has been enough for them to attempt to speak to me, or even change seats on the train, even if they were speaking to someone, and sit next to me.
It’s funny because if I wanted to attract an attractive girl I wouldn’t even have to try. So many men would kill for this ability, have such trouble with women and feel desperation, and I’ve rejected every single one by simply ignoring them. 27 years and I’ve never so much as held hands due to the philosophical system I continually developed in my mind, countless unconventional thoughts on existence, life, the human condition, and how to live; then actually putting them into action, continually recreating, redefining, aspects of myself.
Oh, autism.
I am going to get a vasectomy ASAP though and give dating multiple girls a try some time after school begins. Due to this being my first experience, I’m strongly against the conventional manner of being exclusive to one girl while dating. If I can convince them, explain that I want to try multiple women without partaking in sex in order to discover and identify what I like, it would be amazing if I actually managed to set a group of girls competing for me, possibly even leading to the ultimate dream of actually for forming a harem scenario! -
2017-08-13 at 12:24 AM UTCyou watch too much anime. my wife disagrees that the last three words can be used together.
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2017-08-13 at 12:52 AM UTCLol. There are quite a few people in my area I know who are polyamorous. You might be able to get something like that going on, but I doubt you can date multiple girls while having them remain exclusive to you, let alone compete over you. Much more likely that they'll either be against it or expect polyamory on both ends of the relationship.
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2017-08-13 at 1:53 AM UTCThere's dozens of varieties of the swingers lifestyle. I'd dabble in all of them before you decide which one is right for you.
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2017-08-13 at 2:32 AM UTC
Originally posted by Malice I am going to get a vasectomy ASAP though and give dating multiple girls a try some time after school begins. Due to this being my first experience, I’m strongly against the conventional manner of being exclusive to one girl while dating. If I can convince them, explain that I want to try multiple women without partaking in sex in order to discover and identify what I like, it would be amazing if I actually managed to set a group of girls competing for me, possibly even leading to the ultimate dream of actually for forming a harem scenario!
lol, yeah, that's definitely a plan that's going to work. -
2017-08-13 at 4:43 AM UTCmalice was obviously joking
