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2017-08-09 at 6:26 AM UTCHow've you been LSD? Last I heard you moved to Texas. Where you at now?
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2017-08-09 at 6:42 AM UTC
Originally posted by What_a_Kreep I decided to put my wall of text in a spoiler button because I don't want to force people to read it or have it take up a bunch of space. It's still so long but I cut so much out. I'll probably shorten it up even more. A lot of it is off track and goes into another topic/person than who the main person and what the main occurene is about. I feel as if it's relavent though, just to add some comparison to the picture. I had a really shocking phone call this morning. It's more of a serious post topic so most will be bored and I advise you to not press "spoiler" but it just is nice to get out. Plus, there's a question at the end if anyone has something they can relate to or share with me, preferably by PM.
Post last edited by What_a_Kreep at 2017-08-09T06:26:52.841818+00:00
not trying to fuck with your head or anything, but if it was a drug overdose then saying 'drugs was the reason of death' is inaccurate. it would be more accurate to say 'prohibition was the reason', as prohibition causes the supply of drugs to get handed over to irresponsible people who sell wraps of the drugs with no clue as to there potency or content, making accurate dosaging virtually impossible unless you have access to a lab with gas chromatograph equipment.
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2017-08-09 at 6:44 AM UTCDamn, that's fucking rough, Kreep. Shit.
Hydro, I'm still in Texas. Like a city or two north of Houston. Was in jail recently for possession and I got out on deferred adjudication so now I'm on probation with random drug tests. Doesn't suck nearly as much as I would've thought in the past. I was homeless for a few months before I got arrested, so it helps since I don't want to end up like that again. Kinda think I should've just sat in there a few months. Not really because I'm worried about failing a drug test; I've been fine staying sober, but it's just stressful with all the stipulations and costs of the probation. But I feel like if I wouldn't have taken the probation, I almost surely would've gone right back to shooting dope. It's about time I stay sober for long enough to at least get something going with my life.
My dad's helping me out with the financial shit now.. the fees and bullshit, as well as paying for an extended stay hotel for the last couple months. I know he and the rest of my family are only helping me because I'm actually trying to do good now, so that helps too. But I haven't really accomplished much other than sticking to my probation requirements. Feel tired and lacking in motivation all the time, so I've mostly just been sitting around. I really need to go out there and get a job and shit.. I just never feel like doing shit. I should get checked out by a doctor just in case there's something medical going on, since my mom got diagnosed with hypothyroidism recently and said her mom had thyroid issues too. Could be that, or maybe it's just me, I dunno.
I'm so used to being able to just fuck off online and shit. Been years since I've had a steady job. Doesn't help any that my only transportation is a bike. It'd be a lot easier to motivate myself if I didn't have to ride in this hotass heat minimum fifteen minutes to get anywhere, and that's just the closest stores. Makes getting a job and doing that shit daily seem like a drag, besides all the existential shit about how monotonous and pointless that all seems.
So yeah, things are decent, kinda bittersweet. Could be better but could be a hell of a lot worse. Just feel bad about my dad paying all this money.The following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire! -
2017-08-09 at 7:01 AM UTCHow are you doing other than sexually molesting a pile of cocaine? What's been going on?
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2017-08-09 at 7:24 AM UTC
Originally posted by NARCassist not trying to fuck with your head or anything, but if it was a drug overdose then saying 'drugs was the reason of death' is inaccurate. it would be more accurate to say 'prohibition was the reason', as prohibition causes the supply of drugs to get handed over to irresponsible people who sell wraps of the drugs with no clue as to there potency or content, making accurate dosaging virtually impossible unless you have access to a lab with gas chromatograph equipment.
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Yeah, I guess if you're going to get all "technical" about it. I'm just more referring to Step A lead to Step B when it comes to the autopsy results rather than C-Z behind the scenes action. My first brother was supposedly doing speedballs with cocaine and heroin but I'm not sure what happen with my brother who was found earlier today. They're going to have him cremated and I think my dad is kind of denial and is using the excuse that the body is too far gone to get an accurate autopsy. Which, yes, he has a point, but my other brother was able to get it done and it was close if not the same amount of time before he was found as welll.
My dad has never known how to approach drug addiction or any kind. He didn't even know what pot smelled like till I got busted with it when I was like 19. I used to smoke pot in his truck in high school and he said that I "been smoking cigarettesin my truck!" ... yeah, one time he found a meth pipe in my bathroom when I was living at home (i forget what he claimed he was looking for) but he just left it there, said "I saw what was in your drawer" didn't even take it. He's 71, so him and my mom I thnk were just so burn by the time they had me. -
2017-08-09 at 7:45 AM UTC
Originally posted by What_a_Kreep Yeah, I guess if you're going to get all "technical" about it. I'm just more referring to Step A lead to Step B when it comes to the autopsy results rather than C-Z behind the scenes action. My first brother was supposedly doing speedballs with cocaine and heroin but I'm not sure what happen with my brother who was found earlier today. They're going to have him cremated and I think my dad is kind of denial and is using the excuse that the body is too far gone to get an accurate autopsy. Which, yes, he has a point, but my other brother was able to get it done and it was close if not the same amount of time before he was found as welll.
My dad has never known how to approach drug addiction or any kind. He didn't even know what pot smelled like till I got busted with it when I was like 19. I used to smoke pot in his truck in high school and he said that I "been smoking cigarettesin my truck!" … yeah, one time he found a meth pipe in my bathroom when I was living at home (i forget what he claimed he was looking for) but he just left it there, said "I saw what was in your drawer" didn't even take it. He's 71, so him and my mom I thnk were just so burn by the time they had me.
lol, my dad is exactly the same age, 71. he's the same, has very little idea about drugs other than 'its evil', etc. it really wasn't a common thing in their day like it is now. most of their youth was directly affected by the war and its aftermath. it was a totally different world back then.
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2017-08-09 at 8:45 AM UTC
Originally posted by LegalizeSpiritualDiscovery How are you doing other than sexually molesting a pile of cocaine? What's been going on?
Meh... it's been... a struggle to say the least. I am lucky to have PoC in my life and put up with my dumb ass, so there is that. I don't think I'm worth what he thinks I am worth, and am more trouble than good to him, so I feel guilty about that... just working on issues of feeling worthwhile and shit. In the next month or so things should definitely be changing for the better in several ways. PoC are working on moving in together, which really will be a huge help to both of us with of mental health issues. The distance has been a big hindrance for us, but hopefully in not too much time, it'll be alright. I'd be really fucked without PoC in my life helping me, and 1337 for that matter too... both of them have really been a huge support to me in this crazy, fucked time of my life and I'm fucking truly grateful to have people who love and care about me so much. Struggling with suicidal ideation, my mental health issues, and physical problems on top of it all, it's not been easy to say the least... but better than it would be without them in my life. Malice is right, family (well, the social group aspect, not like, has to be genetic relatives, I don't have any of that helping or supporting me and haven't since my dad died, my son is the only family I have...) is super important to one's mental health, wellbeing and happiness... I'm glad I have the little I do... and the friends I have...
Hey, HTS... what's been cookin', good lookin'? You and Mash need to hit me up more often... and Mash... WTF? you like said "brb" and never came back :( you no love me anymore? -
2017-08-09 at 9:13 AM UTCI hate all of you. Fuck this shit.The following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire!
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2017-08-09 at 9:52 AM UTCThe following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire!
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2017-08-09 at 9:53 AM UTCThe following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire!
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2017-08-09 at 9:55 AM UTC
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2017-08-09 at 10 AM UTCImagine if every time you spotted something good and yelled, "Look, Some Drugs!" LegalizeSpiritualDiscovry came sprinting, seemingly out of nowhere, and dived for the spot, wearing his own custom self-made costume.The following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire!
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2017-08-09 at 10:06 AM UTC
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2017-08-09 at 10:58 AM UTCThe following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire!
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2017-08-09 at 11:05 AM UTC
Originally posted by Malice Imagine if every time you spotted something good and yelled, "Look, Some Drugs!" LegalizeSpiritualDiscovry came sprinting, seemingly out of nowhere, and dived for the spot, wearing his own custom self-made costume.
yeah that's pretty fucking weird. thanks for the straight answer tho. i'll let you get back to being a freak now.
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2017-08-09 at 11:19 AM UTC
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2017-08-09 at 11:41 AM UTC
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2017-08-09 at 2:43 PM UTC
Originally posted by Captain Falcon Come to Tinychat baby daddy baby come to daddy com e to tinydaddychat daddychat tinydaddy tinychat
I was just there, nobody is there. Lol, it's a little early, I have some leftover whiskey. I'll save it for this evening and get in TC probably around 5pm pacific time. -
2017-08-09 at 3:53 PM UTC
Originally posted by LegalizeSpiritualDiscovery I think Chink was more trying to say PoC is making a mistake. And Malice and whoever else was talking about it. I don't know too many details, but they were saying §m£ÂgØL warned him about several things. Pretty sure PoC mentioned that too. Also, you took §m£ÂgØL's virginity and had his kid. The whole thing is pretty weird, really.
It's not my kid (thank fuck) but this. Defining a relationship as a '500lb weight' is typically not a good thing. POC's words, not mine. -
2017-08-09 at 5:11 PM UTC
Originally posted by Malice Imagine if every time you spotted something good and yelled, "Look, Some Drugs!" LegalizeSpiritualDiscovry came sprinting, seemingly out of nowhere, and dived for the spot, wearing his own custom self-made costume.
its like being addicted to mentats in fallout except real life
