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2017-07-30 at 5:12 AM UTCOPIATE PROTIP: Don't smoke while you're nodding hard. I had my hand up to my mouth to take a drag but before i could do so i nodded out. As you know when you lose consciousness you lose motor function. So my arm just relaxed and my hand with cig attached landed on my left forearm. Luckily the sting woke me up, didn't hurt much though(Too high) But now my arm looks like that of HTS minus the cuts, lel. Nice round cigarette burn. Also this other time, i was nigger-sterilizing some syringes in a metal pot with water and bleach on the stove and i got the pot real hot, to give the water/diluted bleach concoction a proper boil. But being absent mindedly high as fuck i burned my left hand on the edge of the pot. I literally have a 4cm long scar from that. Like 2nd degree burns, but again i was too high for it to hurt much, lel.
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2017-07-30 at 5:14 AM UTC
Originally posted by Sophie OPIATE PROTIP: Don't smoke while you're nodding hard. I had my hand up to my mouth to take a drag but before i could do so i nodded out. As you know when you lose consciousness you lose motor function. So my arm just relaxed and my hand with cig attached landed on my left forearm. Luckily the sting woke me up, didn't hurt much though(Too high) But now my arm looks like that of HTS minus the cuts, lel. Nice round cigarette burn. Also this other time, i was nigger-sterilizing some syringes in a metal pot with water and bleach on the stove and i got the pot real hot, to give the water/diluted bleach concoction a proper boil. But being absent mindedly high as fuck i burned my left hand on the edge of the pot. I literally have a 4cm long scar from that. Like 2nd degree burns, but again i was too high for it to hurt much, lel.
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2017-07-30 at 5:16 AM UTC
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2017-07-30 at 5:24 AM UTC
Originally posted by What_a_Kreep it. total waste. get the most out of your money and your habit and just slam it.
I was talking about cigarettes. Also, i usually have Oxycodone and fentanyl, the fent is for intranasal administration. And oxy works pretty well when you snort it as well. On a rare occasion i will slam Oxy, but injecting pills is pretty sketchy. I also slammed speed once, that shit was intense. -
2017-07-30 at 5:28 AM UTCWhat would happen if you shot weed oil?
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2017-07-30 at 5:29 AM UTCI always feel so fucking ridiculous when I actually manage to break through my absurd procrastination and avoidance due to agoraphobia and anthropophobia and actually go outside.
There's barely anyone out there along the path I walk anyway. Pedestrianism is fucking dead in the overwhelming majority of America, outside of the largest/densest cities and metropolitan regions. I swear, I don't even feel particularly anxious when I'm actually out there, my general anxiety is only mild, and while I certainly strongly dislike people, I don't feel terrified of them.
Dear god, I'm such a fucking mess. I am unbelieveably dysfunctional.
Then again, when I think about how such a large fraction of the population is practically insane, by my standards, the absolutely abhorrent beliefs they possess and behaviors they engage in, the thought of them attempting to interact with me, even speak to me, is absolutely horrifying. Fortunately it literally never happens, and even if it did I'm absolutely shameless and could easily make an excuse/say something allowing me to leave. Hell, as I've mentioned before, I literally have no problem flat out running/jogging away from people. It's the most efficient strategy! Think about it, what the hell is going to happen that's so bad if you do this? At the very least if it's a total stranger or someone that has no significant impact on your life (Of course this wouldn't work out well if you did it to a boss, coworker, friend, loved etc., although that would be a fucking hilarious habit to have.). A sense of embarrassment? Who the fuck's going to care, it's all in your mind, you allow it to have power over you. Although, of course, it is a strongly innate natural human reaction. Being an aspie I certainly have it far easier, it's far easier to overcome any remaining remnant of such qualities. It is something I've actively strived to develop for over a decade, though.
Oh, and the overwhelming majority of people are so fucking ugly! Really, if you actually look directly at them, at their faces, the countless imperfections are so conspicuous. To be clear, I literally have never, in my entire life, seen an overweight person who I thought was attractive/aesthetically pleasing. Now, of course ugly people can't help it and I certainly shouldn't judge them it, make assumptions about their qualities, as it's incredibly insubstantial, nothing but a superficial physical appearance and demeanor, and I abhor how profoundly it impacts standard human beings. There's a vast array of evidence demonstrating this, which is incredibly disillusioning and simply showcases the worthlessness of the human race. But, still, at least I hate looking directly at people, particularly making eye contact, to begin with. The world humans have created is already hideous and bleak enough, it being populated by commoners with such profound neglect for basic decency with regard to the maintenance of their physical vessels only makes it far worse.
Not only that, but I constantly feel horrified by how absolutely meaningless their lives our, filled with a constant barrage of negative attributes. For example, do you ever see people who are 40+, the older the worse, who are still working menial jobs at grocery stores? How the fuck do you end up like that after decades. Their very expression simply exudes the suffering and meaninglessness of their entire existence. Instead of cowardly clinging to life at that age I would accept that I had clearly demonstrated I was never going to get it and commit suicide in the most peaceful manner available. Of course, the vast majority seem to stupid to even figure out how to kill themselves properly. How fucking hard is it to do some basic research? All you're attempting to do is to cause your body to cease to function. Death is so fucking easy, it's constantly occurring and is all around us! The fact that they're unable to figure this out after extensive periods of suffering and a profound desire to death on demonstrates that the metric for gauging/quantifying intelligence should be radically altered and the majority of human beings should be qualified as mentally retarded/deficient. -
2017-07-30 at 5:35 AM UTCAnyway, that aside. Hahaha, I crack myself up sometimes. Imagine posting that on a good subreddit, in the right thread. Incredibly misanthropic, condescending, and elitist.
Anyway, I thought of a great outline, pretty extensively developed, for an essay on karma in the original interpretation of the teachings of the Buddha. I'm thinking about posting it to r/buddhism, although unsurprisingly the strong majority seem to have a piss poor understanding of it, generally an americanized version of the standard version that includes the nonsensical mystical aspects. Regardless, I just a reception about whether I've "gotten" (truly grasped) it/something. Even from those who don't share the secular view, it could be pretty interesting to see how they respond to my argument on the interpretation and whether my view makes far more sense, exhibits profound insight and eloquence.
I think I know what I want to devote my life to attempting to achieve, what I truly want to be in life: A philosopher king. -
2017-07-30 at 5:45 AM UTC
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2017-07-30 at 5:45 AM UTCMost philosophers strive towards, and struggle to, find a job. Maybe you should start there.
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2017-07-30 at 5:47 AM UTCAlso bleh, every drug I do makes me feel shitty lately. Maybe it's to try this sobriety thing people keep telling me about.
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2017-07-30 at 5:47 AM UTC
Originally posted by cerakote why do you think that iq means very much?
its like i have a big fucking chunk of a cobalt blue diamond. it has just been taken out of the ground, so its unpolished, uncut, and unprocessed. its a cool diamond! its cobalt blue which looks fucking sick, and would only look better after becoming a shiny, angular, piece of expensive. but i just sit and circlejerk about my diamond rock and how much it could be worth or how nice it would look after some work, or generally fucking off instead of making those visions into reality.
thats you and your dumb gay iq. instead of making a contribution to society you would rather just sit like a wart on the ass end of a bridge troll and just talk about how smart you are when people who "are dumb" are running laps around you in life.
that's because he's not really smart, he's a faker. he takes the iq tests like 50 times so he knows all the answers, prolly has them written down, then takes the test and obviously gets a high score coz he has all the answers and can answer them quickly. anyone can do that.
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2017-07-30 at 5:47 AM UTC
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2017-07-30 at 5:51 AM UTCThere's something relaxing about listening to a heartbeat.The following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire!
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2017-07-30 at 5:59 AM UTC
Originally posted by Lanny Most philosophers strive towards, and struggle to, find a job. Maybe you should start there.
Oh, please, as if I wasn't fully aware of it. A major in philosophy is one of the worst choices you can make if you intend to make a living off it. That has never been my goal, and I have no intention of working for others. Actually, to be clear, it has absolutely nothing to do with any career aspirations. Income is entirely separate from. I've stated my reasons for attending school before, various forms of personal development (eudaimonia) and effectively therapy, but I simply intend to see how far I can get. Philosophy, even writing on the subject (To be clear I don't post anything extensive or serious online. Comments/rants on a message board, particularly one like this, are by no means an accurate reflection. Why the hell would I put that much effort into it? The same is true for you.).
You would have to be incredibly, unbelievably, naive to believe you're actually going to get a good job/profession with a philosophy degree, even from top universities. Of course the reasons the vast majority of people do enter into a philosophy major are unbelievably naive and flat out fucking retarded.
Hey, it never really crossed my mind, but, in a way, that's actually a good thing! The competition is going to be so fucking easy. Now, of course I'm not going to assume there won't be anyone more intelligent and well read than me, you mentioned something related to this before, and my speaking skills are absolute shit right now after a lifetime of neglect etc. There are always geniuses/prodigies that can pop up in high ranking universities.
Oh, on a related note. A section of a post I wrote 11 days ago that you missed:Also, I forgot to mention this. I was searching for an old post of mine and came across something you wrote two years ago, which brought it to mind:
Life has no inherent meaning, I am unable to find satisfactory subjective value. Of course that doesn't make me feel better.
Have you ever seriously engaged with the works of any existentialist philosopher? If you don't mind something a little dry I'd suggest Sartre's Existentialism is a Humanism or Camus' The Stranger or The Myth of Sisyphus (the former is a novel, the latter an essay. The Stranger is probably more fun to read but more cryptic/open to interpretation than Sisyphus). You should also make an effort to avoid complecting politics in the equation (Sartre was largely a communist, Camus rejected communism and that came through in The Stranger and Heidegger (another famous existentialist) joined the nazi party during WWII so the mindset kind runs the gamut of political positions. I'm not saying it's going to change your life or whatever but I think the works from that movement are interesting, firstly, and secondly the classical existentialists do a really excellent job of, at least, cataloging and recognizing the anguish of an honest confrontation with modern society and it's issues but also giving us a way of thinking about our situation in honestly and without self delusion and still finding some solace or even happiness in it.
Amazingly, I'm actually a complete novice in philosophy. Prior to this I had the same common misconceptions about it having no practical value, being unable to find answers/solutions, ultimately leading nowhere. That and the view that ultimately everything was unknowable/uncertain.
I distinctly recall that I developed an interest in existentialism at some point during the 3 year period of suicidal depression. The reason was quite cliche, a desperate final attempt to find a compelling reason to live. No answer I came across, nothing I had ever read, in fiction or philosophy, felt satisfying, ultimately everything posited appeared to be fundamentally flawed and untenable.
I don't think I began taking philosophy somewhat seriously until sometime this year, really within the last 4 months or so. The reason I may be to grasp it so quickly, relative to typical complete amateur, is due to my abnormal/atypical neurology and mind along with the enormous widespread knowledge base I'm able to utilize to form connections and derivatives. I'll spare the details. -
2017-07-30 at 7:16 AM UTC
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2017-07-30 at 8:11 AM UTC
Originally posted by Malice Oh, please, as if I wasn't fully aware of it. A major in philosophy is one of the worst choices you can make if you intend to make a living off it. That has never been my goal, and I have no intention of working for others. Actually, to be clear, it has absolutely nothing to do with any career aspirations. Income is entirely separate from. I've stated my reasons for attending school before, various forms of personal development (eudaimonia) and effectively therapy, but I simply intend to see how far I can get. Philosophy, even writing on the subject (To be clear I don't post anything extensive or serious online. Comments/rants on a message board, particularly one like this, are by no means an accurate reflection. Why the hell would I put that much effort into it? The same is true for you.).
It was a joke, although I can see why it wouldn't come across as such. In any case, that's a commendable reason for studying something. One of my deepest frustrations with my peers in CS is the attitude that the study of a vast and fundamental field is exclusively justified by the possibility that it pays off in a cushy position at twitter or facebook or some other profoundly boring commercial machine. We train people to investigate the very fabric of our world and then waste them on facilitating the exchange of fucking cat pictures and the broadcasting of relationship statuses. It disgusts me at times.Hey, it never really crossed my mind, but, in a way, that's actually a good thing! The competition is going to be so fucking easy. Now, of course I'm not going to assume there won't be anyone more intelligent and well read than me, you mentioned something related to this before, and my speaking skills are absolute shit right now after a lifetime of neglect etc. There are always geniuses/prodigies that can pop up in high ranking universities.
You might be surprised. In my experience at least half the people I ran into in a philosophy department were realistic about their job prospects and most of the rest were pre-law and don't count.Amazingly, I'm actually a complete novice in philosophy. Prior to this I had the same common misconceptions about it having no practical value, being unable to find answers/solutions, ultimately leading nowhere. That and the view that ultimately everything was unknowable/uncertain.
I distinctly recall that I developed an interest in existentialism at some point during the 3 year period of suicidal depression. The reason was quite cliche, a desperate final attempt to find a compelling reason to live. No answer I came across, nothing I had ever read, in fiction or philosophy, felt satisfying, ultimately everything posited appeared to be fucken'mentally flawed and untenable.
I don't think I began taking philosophy somewhat seriously until sometime this year, really within the last 4 months or so. The reason I may be to grasp it so quickly, relative to typical complete amateur, is due to my abnormal/atypical neurology and mind along with the enormous widespread knowledge base I'm able to utilize to form connections and derivatives. I'll spare the details.
I'm glad to hear you're exploring philosophy. I can't say I'm convinced its study is useful or will make anyone's life better but I find it intellectually quite satisfying, I think you'll feel the same way if you don't already. Re: the quote, have you dug any further into existentialism? There's a lot to read there and a lot of it is really opaque, it's a movement often glossed over by analytic departments and one I didn't get any real exposure to after leaving school. -
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