2017-07-04 at 9:13 PM UTC
Personally, I have not ever bean a cutter and never really knew anyone who was outside of a random co-worker girl who I thought I could notice some cuts under her arm, HOWEVER, I do on occasion like to carve myself a little bit when 5th plat drunk in TC, for the hijinx.
2017-07-04 at 9:19 PM UTC
Helladamnleet
African Astronaut
[impartially tyrannize that lentinus]
I play the long game by slowly killing myself from the inside with drugs and smoking.
2017-07-04 at 9:27 PM UTC
I'm actually terrified of being (seriously) injured and can pass out from it. It's only happened once in pre-school, and wasn't the root of this. I just have an immense fear of living with it for the rest of my life or until the indefinite time when it can be treated/cured, and dying. I've actually never even broken a bone of been to the ER/hospital since then, until my recent trip for alcohol withdrawal and suicidality. 20 year streak.
2017-07-04 at 9:41 PM UTC
It has nothing to do with my agoraphobia and anthropophobia, the way I live my life, BTW. These actually developed particularly strongly after my severe mental breakdown, especially within the last 1-2 years. Brain just went haywire. It's likely primarily amygdala mediated. I know the risk is extremely unlikely and it's completely irrational to fear it in everyday life. I also have a very regimented mentality, strict and consistent rule oriented habits of the mind I've developed and ingrained throughout my life, along with an unusually high baseline level of awareness and sensory hypersensitivity. My peripheral vision is unusually wide and accurate, along with my visual acuity, my ability to detect movement. I have general sensory hypersensitivity for both my vision and hearing, which means I take in an unnaturally large amount of data (It's a very large difference relative to neurotypicals, differences in the visual cortex have been confirmed.) and have issues with sensory gating, which also means I don't properly enhancement out information, so I'm much more likely to detect small instances and less likely to miss something because I'm lost in thought or distracted.
Nearly impossible for a human being to sneak up on me, unless it was in a crowded area, but criminals, particularly violent ones, are far less likely to target you in those environments.
And of course phobias are irrational fears, so despite my rational understanding of this the strong/overpowering emotional response could still be there, but, as I said, my fear of injury and death have nothing to do with it.
2017-07-04 at 9:51 PM UTC
I mean more your desire to cure everything with drugs or special methods, researching into things most people find silly to give more than five minutes of thought. Also your entire post up there. You talk a lot about what's wrong with you and what you might suffer because of it. It just also makes sense that you're afraid of being seriously injured, and what you may suffer from it and not being able to be cured.
2017-07-04 at 11:08 PM UTC
Too much text but I always thought, if you want to punish yourself and feel pain, workout.
It is in my opinion an essential part of the whole shebang. It is part of the addiction and instead of a fucked up body and mind it leaves you with the exact opposite so instead of cutting yourself, do some squats. Don't stop until you piss yourself or pass out.
Trust me is good.
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2017-07-04 at 11:20 PM UTC
Originally posted by RisiR †
Too much text but I always thought, if you want to punish yourself and feel pain, workout.
It is in my opinion an essential part of the whole shebang. It is part of the addiction and instead of a fucked up body and mind it leaves you with the exact opposite so instead of cutting yourself, do some squats. Don't stop until you piss yourself or pass out.
Trust me is good.
The high from working out lasts a lot longer than self harming too. You're good for the rest of the day on that shit. Even just a walk does wonders.
People say "oh you're just trying to get me to be PRODUCTIVE" but shut the fuck up because if it wasn't better I wouldn't suggest it. I mean if you're hurting yourself what does it matter anyway? You punish your body enough, maybe you can punish your mind too for 30 minutes a few times a week?
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2017-07-05 at 1:04 AM UTC
hope you slit an artery and fucking die
dargo is the last person to reply to this thread, i bet he's being a terrible retarded psychologist as usual. i could do your job lobotomized.
2017-07-05 at 1:06 AM UTC
i self harmed once because i tried to get high off it but it was lame
another time i was on bundy and ready to kill someone so i slashed my leg out of pcp rage and bled for like 5 hours
this thread gave me a boner
2017-07-05 at 1:10 AM UTC
Shit. Now this thread has pix, but that's not what I meant.
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2017-07-05 at 1:25 AM UTC
Why does it look like sploo has a hardcore unibrow in the first picture but not the second?
Do you shave it sploo?
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2017-07-05 at 1:28 AM UTC
Originally posted by 霍比特人
Why does it look like sploo has a hardcore unibrow in the first picture but not the second?
Do you shave it sploo?
He has the unibrow in the second pic he just painted the middle of it flesh colored.
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2017-07-05 at 1:30 AM UTC
Those pictures were taken within a couple of hours. Shaving your eyebrow doesn't seem like a good idea on an ounce of Bundy.
LOL.
2017-07-05 at 1:32 AM UTC
I want to see the picture of him on the swing. That was the best thing ever.
2017-07-05 at 1:34 AM UTC
I want to cut skin drapes in my back that hang behind me like a stunt devil's cape.
