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2017-06-28 at 10:46 PM UTC
Originally posted by Malice *puts hands on hips and pouts* Hey, if I'm too awkward and uncomfortable I shouldn't feel obligated to do so. I'm simply being honest, you know I give it to people straight, without obfuscation.
Although, to be honest, I did have an urge to play ping pong after I woke up. It could be a potential demonstration of autsim power, using visual skills to exude an astonishing level of mastery, rising inhumanly quickly, for a hiki that has never played sports before.
You just have a soft spot for Lanny and would be greatly contented to be offered the opportunity to meet and play.
You are sending mixed signals Mal. Also i already played with Lanny(fullhomo) we played Onitama for a couple rounds. Also i ain't flying out to SF to play ping pong, it's not practical. -
2017-06-28 at 10:49 PM UTC
Originally posted by Malice Does anyone else feel, on some level, moderately infuriated and repulsed when they see a woman who is dressed in a manner clearly meant to elicit some level of sexual attraction? Even their mere breasts can be enough to have this effect on me.
No Malice, tits do not infuriate me.The following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire! -
2017-06-28 at 10:51 PM UTC
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2017-06-28 at 10:52 PM UTC
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2017-06-28 at 10:53 PM UTC
Originally posted by 霍比特人 Have you tried or looked into phenibut?
I have some here that hydro left me but I haven't dosed it yet aside from one half ass eyeballed dose I took in her car when she gave it to me. I've heard its good for anxiety but I've got serious issues with anxiety lately and I don't know if a moderately effective nootroopic will cut it, at least for now while I deal with this rough patch.
Considering going back on T-PAIN sodium with occasional IN ketamine treatments for my depression/anxiety. Really struggling bad the past few weeks, hydro's visit was my only solace from it and I've been rapidly going downhill in the past four days or so. -
2017-06-28 at 10:59 PM UTC
Originally posted by Piles of Crack If I don't find a good functional benzo to maintain myself on I think I'm going to become an alcoholic, this is the first time I've felt I was really in danger of having a problem with my alcohol consumption.
Reading up a lot on pyrazolam.
I read a lot about pyrazolam a while ago, it's definitely the best choice for functionality and long-term use. I only wanted powder and no one sold it. I don't know if this has changed, but it may be very difficult to buy. You can always buy pills if you don't mind the markup.
For a benzo with general effects, clonazolam is a very good choice. -
2017-06-28 at 11:13 PM UTC
Originally posted by Malice I read a lot about pyrazolam a while ago, it's definitely the best choice for functionality and long-term use. I only wanted powder and no one sold it. I don't know if this has changed, but it may be very difficult to buy. You can always buy pills if you don't mind the markup.
For a benzo with general effects, clonazolam is a very good choice.
My research has led me to choosing between those two. I'm pretty resourceful when it comes to finding a supplier, only thing I struck out on there was NSI-189 (if you have one PM me please). -
2017-06-28 at 11:26 PM UTC
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2017-06-28 at 11:39 PM UTC
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2017-06-29 at 12:08 AM UTC
Originally posted by Piles of Crack I have some here that hydro left me but I haven't dosed it yet aside from one half ass eyeballed dose I took in her car when she gave it to me. I've heard its good for anxiety but I've got serious issues with anxiety lately and I don't know if a moderately effective nootroopic will cut it, at least for now while I deal with this rough patch.
Considering going back on T-PAIN sodium with occasional IN ketamine treatments for my depression/anxiety. Really struggling bad the past few weeks, hydro's visit was my only solace from it and I've been rapidly going downhill in the past four days or so.
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2017-06-29 at 12:49 AM UTCThis shit go hard as a mothafucka FAMS:
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2017-06-29 at 1:13 AM UTC
Originally posted by Piles of Crack If I don't find a good functional benzo to maintain myself on I think I'm going to become an alcoholic, this is the first time I've felt I was really in danger of having a problem with my alcohol consumption.
Reading up a lot on pyrazolam.
Fuck you...
I heard this like... a month and a half ago... and look what happened there. Bitch, you know damn well that benzos ALWAYS fucking ALWAYS end up going down a road you really don't wanna go. -
2017-06-29 at 1:25 AM UTCTurned out being the best click bait I've ever had the good fortune to click...if you ever, ever, ever listen to a video posted by me make it this one for sure:
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2017-06-29 at 1:45 AM UTC
Originally posted by Malice Dargo, my depression went into remission from Nardil. I'm not even depressed anymore, I actually generally feel content and at peace. It isn't simply the medication, but the culmination of very long and strictly adhered to asceticism, mental refinement and discipline, and my thoughts on life, the nature of existence, the knowledge I've attained and how it's molded my worldview.
I'm glad the medication is finally working. That's what it's supposed to do.
Originally posted by Malice I've genuinely largely freed myself from most of the common desires of man. At this point, even food does not ever tempt me, I can eat the same thing every day without it mattering, or feeling sick of it, desiring something else/new.
It would take far too long to explain why this is, the full explanation of how I achieved it.
What kind of life is it? Is it excessively simplistic and devoid of meaning? No, largely I simply recognized what would never lead to lasting happiness, the countless petty and fleeting fixations of man, and cast them aside. Countless things times I ruminated, came to an answer, and cast something aside. I wanted something lasting, something more important, beyond, ordinary reality.
I was going to write something about how the joy of life is found in the little things - a sunny day, a good meal, great sex - all of which you have seemingly cast aside. But after thinking about it more, I remembered you're right. Life is shit. Complete and utter shit. Pleasure is shallow and fleeting, there's no purpose, no meaning, and we're all simply destined to die one day. Yee.
This will probably make you twitch, but that is exactly why I am a Christian. I came to the same conclusion you did, that life sucked beyond measure, and was ready to end it. Something happened tho (I dunno what) and I found religion instead. Laugh all you want, but now I've got the lasting happiness you're still chasing after. It's pretty nice.
Originally posted by Malice You're a terrible fucking alleged psychologist. You've admitted yourself that you're overpaid and generally don't do much, that 98% of patients just need someone to talk to and bitch about their lives. I'm sure you'll provide some distortion or pop-psychoanalysis to belittle me, will become convinced that I'm simply rationalizing failure or fear of something, fear of change, failure, or attaining something greater, a radically different lifestyle from the one I've become so accustomed to (I recall your diagnosis of internet addiction (true, but not my primary problem) and dismissal of ASD. Terribly simplistic.).
Yeah, thanks bae. I may be overpaid, but I am good at what I do. I won't offer you any sort of psychoanalysis, because the notion I could accurately assess/diagnose you over the internet is rather absurd. Even the one I wrote on Sophie a while back was tongue in cheek. You might benefit from seeing a shrink IRL though, just don't lie about everything. -
2017-06-29 at 1:59 AM UTCI agree that religion can genuinely increase your happiness. There's strong empirical evidence supporting this, that those who are more religious seem to be happier, and not simply based on self-reported data. It's a simple matter to understand the comfort that the belief will bring you, that there's a loving benevolent creator watching over everything and looking out for you, that at the end everyone will be judged and the good people will be rewarded, the bad punished, and if you're good you'll get to meet everyone else who was, your loved ones again, and live eternally in a perfect place of happiness and holiness. But, when I type that out, isn't it embarrassingly obvious what an incredibly childish tale this is, how it placates some of the strongest and oldest human psychological fears, simply seems like an attempt to explain a world they didn't understand and cope with it, supports human psychological biases and flaws?
It seems that many people become unable to cope with reality, possibly due to severe depression or a suicide attempt, or eventually have a mental breakdown for whatever reason, then turn to a faith based conviction to attempt to maintain their grip on sanity.
It's perfectly possible that you're happier than, but on some level you know you're relying on a profound delusion to make your state of happiness possible. Doesn't that make you the one that's unable to cope with what reality truly is? I'm psychologically incapable of believing something I know isn't true, that isn't supported by logic and reasoning, scientific evidence.The following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire! -
2017-06-29 at 1:59 AM UTC
Originally posted by Dargo I'm glad the medication is finally working. That's what it's supposed to do.
I was going to write something about how the joy of life is found in the little things - a sunny day, a good meal, great sex - all of which you have seemingly cast aside. But after thinking about it more, I remembered you're right. Life is shit. Complete and utter shit. Pleasure is shallow and fleeting, there's no purpose, no meaning, and we're all simply destined to die one day. Yee.
This will probably make you twitch, but that is exactly why I am a Christian. I came to the same conclusion you did, that life sucked beyond measure, and was ready to end it. Something happened tho (I dunno what) and I found religion instead. Laugh all you want, but now I've got the lasting happiness you're still chasing after. It's pretty nice.
Yeah, thanks bae. I may be overpaid, but I am good at what I do. I won't offer you any sort of psychoanalysis, because the notion I could accurately assess/diagnose you over the internet is rather absurd. Even the one I wrote on Sophie a while back was tongue in cheek. You might benefit from seeing a shrink IRL though, just don't lie about everything.
Dargo,
I seen a vanity plate with DARGO a few days ago... obviously, thought of you. So, are you that self absorbed to have a vanity plate with your faggy user-handle from some shit-tier forum?
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2017-06-29 at 2:34 AM UTC
Originally posted by Piles of Crack I have some here that hydro left me but I haven't dosed it yet aside from one half ass eyeballed dose I took in her car when she gave it to me. I've heard its good for anxiety but I've got serious issues with anxiety lately and I don't know if a moderately effective nootroopic will cut it, at least for now while I deal with this rough patch.
Considering going back on T-PAIN sodium with occasional IN ketamine treatments for my depression/anxiety. Really struggling bad the past few weeks, hydro's visit was my only solace from it and I've been rapidly going downhill in the past four days or so.
Yeah, why not give the phenibut a fair shake? Just because it doesn't fuck you up, and will make you sick for 8 hours straight if you go much further over that 2gram line, doesn't mean it can't help, at least in some circumstances. I fucking hate benzos, and I'll take Phenibut no problem, and it even seems to help with the seizures for me... I have played lightly with it only because I don't need another monkey on my back, and certainly don't need a benzo-esque monkey either.
Just because it's a nootropic doesn't mean that it won't work. I fucking struck gold with T-PAIN.
"rapidly going down hill"... and it all correlates with you pulling away more, and more... that and I've been an extremely depressed cunt, who has been overwhelmed with suicidal ideation recently. I'm scared to die for how that relates to the people I love, not for all the reasons a sane human being should be scared to die. I don't know... Psychedelics do level me out, but man... DMT just teased my fucking cock, and I do become far less bothered by the whole dying thing.
The moon is a perfect crescent in the sky, setting right now... Very pretty, but always makes me really melancholy when I think too much about it. Deep shit, and all... Empathy is a horrible thing... I fucking hate it... I hate feeling how other people feel, and I feel my whole life, at least the majority of it has been me feeling other people's emotions... I feel like I've used this a lot to escape my own. -
2017-06-29 at 2:37 AM UTCThis reminded me of Malice.
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2017-06-29 at 2:51 AM UTC
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2017-06-29 at 2:53 AM UTC
Originally posted by Malice I agree that religion can genuinely increase your happiness. There's strong empirical evidence supporting this, that those who are more religious seem to be happier, and not simply based on self-reported data. It's a simple matter to understand the comfort that the belief will bring you, that there's a loving benevolent creator watching over everything and looking out for you, that at the end everyone will be judged and the good people will be rewarded, the bad punished, and if you're good you'll get to meet everyone else who was, your loved ones again, and live eternally in a perfect place of happiness and holiness. But, when I type that out, isn't it embarrassingly obvious what an incredibly childish tale this is, how it placates some of the strongest and oldest human psychological fears, simply seems like an attempt to explain a world they didn't understand and cope with it, supports human psychological biases and flaws?
I think you over simplify Christianity a bit. Being a Christian does not mean that my life is a bed of roses, or that God protects me from all harm. And saying 'good people go to heaven and bad people go to hell' implies you can somehow earn your salvation by living honorably, when that's not the case. Also, I'm rather certain the majority of my loved ones, and most definitely my entire family, will be rotting in hell.
Originally posted by Malice It seems that many people become unable to cope with reality, possibly due to severe depression or a suicide attempt, or eventually have a mental breakdown for whatever reason, then turn to a faith based conviction to attempt to maintain their grip on sanity.
It's perfectly possible that you're happier than, but on some level you know you're relying on a profound delusion to make your state of happiness possible. Doesn't that make you the one that's unable to cope with what reality truly is? I'm psychologically incapable of believing something I know isn't true, that isn't supported by logic and reasoning, scientific evidence.
I don't view my religion as a delusion on any level, and neither do other sincere Christians. There are reasons why I believe what I do beyond faith, because as I'm sure we can agree, blind faith is fucking lame. I'll admit tho that if I hadn't converted I'd have gone ahead and pulled that trigger. So maybe that makes weak and unable to cope on some level, but I don't really care.
