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2017-05-20 at 1:23 AM UTC
Originally posted by Malice You know, a while ago I looked up my old house (parent's) in Los Angeles on Google and saw that it had been torn down and replaced with a multifamily building.
I recall that before leaving my dad was starting to do fairly well for himself and was interested in paying it off, and the amount he would have needed to pay to fully own it may have been surprisingly low.
I swear, if my parents bought it for the remaining amount and then sold it they could have made so much fucking bank. They could literally be in the million+ net worth level at this point.
And of course I posted a while back that my sister may have gone to USC and into medical field.
I had my reasons for not wanting to contact them and ask for help, and it was the exact opposite of selfishness. But at this point I may just try to play the prodigal son role, tell them that I'm losing my ability to function, and get them to pay for any treatment I need.
I mean, they are ultimately responsible for this. Every cradle is a grave, birth begets all suffering in life. Parents have children for no reason other than to fulfill their own selfish desires, so you could definitely make a pretty sound ethical argument that they owe it to me, are morally obligated. A large part of being undiagnosed, having my life go off track, was their own ignorance and stupidity. It's really just been a form of pride and feeling I didn't deserve it (I was a fucked up person), not wanting to hurt/burden them, that has kept me from doing so. I was genuinely planning to commit suicide, and was hoping they had assumed that's what had occurred, so reopening that wound only to tell them I was probably going to end up dead eventually felt like a really fucked up thing to do.
It's going to be awkward as hell, though. "Hey, mom, dad, you know how I disappeared for literally a decade without warning and haven't contacted you at all since then? Well, it would take a really long time to explain why I did it, but I may be dying/losing the ability to function, could I move back in and have you pay for any treatment and therapy I need until I'm able to support myself?"
May just have to suck it and deal with it. Not like it's uncommon for MOON PERSONs to move back in with their parents.
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2017-05-20 at 1:53 AM UTC
Originally posted by Malice The fundamental reason we use and become dependant on drugs:
Honestly, we should have a thread where some of us just post pessimistic quotes, primarily by Schopenhauer and Nietzsche, whenever we feel a need to vent our unresolved teenage angst.
This is just rationalizing a shitty attitude about the world. I used to be really negative and shitty as a teenager. In high school I threatened suicide to get my girlfriend to fuck me. She kept a log of all the retarded, shitty things I said to her and when she finally dumped my sorry ass, she sent it all to me. I couldn't blame her one bit. I feel embarrassed about it; I sure as hell wouldn't want to continue that shitty angst. -
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2017-05-20 at 2:45 AM UTCGeez what up with rejekt?
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2017-05-20 at 4:11 AM UTC
Originally posted by Malice
Oh that ever quotable Nietzsche, perfect for the budding pseudo-intellectual. Someone needs to unify their work. Buddha, Schopenhauer, Nietzsche, Benatar. Not quite, or at least solely, a progression, but critical parts of the puzzle.
This nigga didn't have Netlix, or HD Porn, or a car with leather seats, or airplanes...he wasn't able to sell meth with an Iphone...girls he banged didn't have access to tanning beds or neon colored bikini's...he probably didn't have tailor made cigarettes or a psychiatrist to prescribe him zoloft...he couldn't walk into a bar and try 57 different craft beers for a nominal fee...
His life probably did suck...200 years ago.The following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire! -
2017-05-20 at 4:12 AM UTC
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2017-05-20 at 5:13 AM UTChttp://www.gaystarnews.com/article/gay-porn-studio-fire-using-didgeridoo-dildo/
Entitled ‘Didgeridoo Me’ (because of course it is), the Men.com scene sees two roommates with one having recently gotten back from Australia.
While they do not go into detail of the frustrations of getting it through customs, his playing wakes his roommate up.
Frustrated, his roommate decides to take out his frustration by penetrating his roommate with the instrument.
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2017-05-20 at 5:49 AM UTCthis thread gets too many posts to read but I just wanted to say mmq's gaping leg joke was somewhat funnier than captain's leg/league pun.The following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire!
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2017-05-20 at 7:51 AM UTC
Originally posted by Lanny this thread gets too many posts to read but I just wanted to say mmq's gaping leg joke was somewhat funnier than captain's leg/league pun.
Lanny, if I end up dying just know that at least you gave one incredibly autistic person an outlet for some form of social interaction and entertainment. If it wasn't for the internet and this community I would have killed myself or gone completely insane a long time ago.
I seriously need to see a neurologist ASAP and possibly move into an assisted living facility, or back in with my parents. I'm not even joking. I know I probably didn't seem that bad when we met, although I know being an aspie hiki is bound to make you seem really off, but I had literally had an epileptic seizure that morning and that was honestly pretty much me at one of my better moments, which is pretty fuckign sad because you can only imagine how bad I must be if I'm not exaggerating about how bad off I am the majority of the time.
It's really been fluctuating and I've just been having longer episodes of being incredibly non-functional. My health and ability to function have been rapidly declining these last few years, and it keeps getting worse in some ways.
Definitely may literally be going insane, and I can't guarantee it won't change, but I think at least during my final moments I made a decisive move away from malice and towards benevolence. Can't say everything out of respect for privacy, but I did seem to at least help some people out who confided in me in private.
Just saying this, because I am 100% serious about the possibility of having something seriously neurologically wrong with me. Communicating through typing is pretty much all I can do at times now. I'm either going to need to be hospitalized or my quality of life will become so poor I'll be forced to decide whether it's worth continuing.
Really shitty way to go, but that's life. Sorta how Nietzsche went out, except he was actually incredibly accomplished before his downfall.
“But he will fear least to become nothing in death who has recognized that he is already nothing now, and who consequently no longer takes any share in his individual phenomenon, because in him knowledge has, as it were, burnt up and consumed the will, so that no will, thus no desire for individual existence, remains in him any more.”
RisiR, did you know that "The World as Will and Representation" actually made a cameo in one of the Matrix films? Just an interesting tidbit. It's in the Reloaded film, it's the book they have to pull to open the secret passage behind a bookshelf.
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2017-05-20 at 7:59 AM UTC
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2017-05-20 at 9:40 AM UTC
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2017-05-20 at 10:02 AM UTCDamn what is it with May and suicides?
Is there something about May that makes people act/feel worse?
May has always been my worst month, last May I relapsed on meth after being clean for a year, and the May before that I was in solitary confinement -
2017-05-20 at 10:03 AM UTCmental illness
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2017-05-20 at 10:07 AM UTC
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2017-05-20 at 10:08 AM UTCBoth jokes were equally amusing.
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2017-05-20 at 10:08 AM UTCwhen do i become happy
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2017-05-20 at 10:11 AM UTCIts 4am I went to get donair from the Lebanese place, all the Africans from the club were there they tried to look cool in front of their girls by trying to spook the white boy.tripping on meth but I am unshakable
People on the streets tried to fuck with my this group of skateboard bitchcucks mix male and female walking towards me one of the guys shoves a girl randomly as we get close at an attempt to scare me but I'm do hyperfocused on meth smoking a cig on my phone moving at superhuman speeds I can outwit any hostile drunks
Another weird looking homeless dude tried following me but I'm so quick and alert he could never catch me.
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