Stressed and it's only morning. Everything that can go wrong will go wrong. I'm trying to eat my breakfast and he's blowing bubbles my way. Idk how I'll get through the day I don't want to be stoned around my nephew.
Fucking scundered. I'm stoned in the playpark, it's worked I'm more chill but my nephew has been running round screaming that he's a psychopath for the past ten minutes now the other kids are saying it. He also hit his head and I didn't know what to do.
Originally posted by Kafka
Stressed and it's only morning. Everything that can go wrong will go wrong. I don't want to be stoned around my nephew.
Originally posted by Kafka
Fucking scundered. I'm stoned in the playpark, it's worked I'm more chill but my nephew has been running round screaming that he's a psychopath for the past ten minutes now the other kids are saying it. He also hit his head and I didn't know what to do.
Stoned out of your mind watching your sisters kid…..sounds about right for someone like you.
Later today at the beach
Originally posted by Kafka
Probably I shouldn’t have given him all that Valium
Problem solved 👍🏼
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Rain sounds so good. I'm a bit worried about that sleep apnea thing causing cognitive decline, bcus I do have slight nasal valve collapse in one nostril after a nose surgery, I feel like I never take deep breaths and people have noticed that I don't breathe much. I'd be cuddling Cam and he'd think I was dead.
Since I was 20 I've always felt like I've lost myself, not the same person. You could say I died, after 18 you get dumber every year. I hope it's just hypochondria. I noticed recently I can still remember things people said from years ago, but not history or physics facts I should know inside out.
Minding my nephew has made me realise I can never raise a child and that makes me sad. I would never be abusive, I remember being a child so I know what things can sting them, I would never hit one. But I've noticed recently that I have little patience and get stressed too easily because of my autism. If I have a child someone else will have to raise it. I also can't talk down to children, I speak to them the same as adults but without inappropriate topics, so I can't be what they need. Ig they do need someone to be on their side and that's me but I can't be a proper parent.
Thinking about how easy my life is when I don't even notice I have difficulties until say I'm in chaos London or minding a child. I have never had a meltdown in N.I but did in London. Just shows how peaceful my life is.
