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2017-05-14 at 3:55 AM UTCI have all this mental energy but I can't play video games any longer I've been sitting here since 4am I am in a lot of pain, I need to lay down but I can't.. I'm so bored. I just keep posting. THERE IS NOTHING ELSE TO DO I AM SO FUCKING BORED OMG
I have read everything on the internet.. every webiste, forum, social network, youtube. There is not enough time for me. I'm so fucking high right now and I'm not even that high.
I only packed two bowls all day, maybe 5 total since I got the ball, been doing huge hits and smoking the puddle and stem, don't really have a craving to do a lot more and party hard. I'm almost bored of being this high, what a waste. I should try to get a hooker or something. Also I notice meth has got rid of any cravings for bundy, I just ignore the withdrawl because im so high, I have lots of bundy right now but Im not interested, it will ruin my meth buzz.
I have to go shopping with my mom tomorrow at 9 so I will have to cut myself off soon.
Time is going by really fast I just open like 20 tabs and go through them at super speed, check my phone, drink water, smoke weed. I need to drink a beer, fuck.
I honestly feel like shit right now, really sweaty.. FUck I was supposed to shower at around 8 but its 10pm now lol.. fuck it
It's a shitty meth high but I'm glad it didn't totally go to waste I guess.
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2017-05-14 at 4:36 AM UTCN'aww Joanna crying made my heart melt.
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2017-05-14 at 4:40 AM UTCStick to only Meth (etc.)from now on. Skip the Bundy.
Malice, we drove down the serpentines into the city, the bright lights down in the valley all encompassed by halos because it was foggy and had rained all day as she was describing how depersonalisation/derealisation felt to her and it was so on point that I actually got a little attack. It was unreal. -
2017-05-14 at 4:48 AM UTC
Originally posted by Malice Well, for anyone that doubted me, picked up my Nardil prescription:
Pretty much can't get this except in the most (extremely) severe cases of treatment resistant depression and anxiety (cluster of anxiety related disorders).
Should incrementally get better as time goes on, although there does seem to be a strong threshold effect many report. Just need to hold on until then.
So there are a few main possibilities:
1.) I recover.
2.) I partially recover, but mainly continue to stagnate through life, unable to find effective treatment.
3.) I go insane and am hospitalized/institutionalized long term.
4.) I become extremely psychopathic and destructive and may engage in one or all of the following: crime sprees, serial killings, spree killings, mass murder, domestic terrorism
5.) I commit suicide.
If the latter happens, Lanny knows why, although I've pretty much burned my bridges permanently with him. Don't have a problem with theory of mind/metacognition, so I'm pretty sure he's convinced that I'm extremely psychologically unstable, potentially dangerous, and he should keep his distance and even avoid communication. All of this is true and reasonable. 2nd is he's convinced I actually am strongly on the psychopathy spectrum, which is also perfectly possible. Can't blame him for not caring at this point.
If there's anyone I want to apologize to for going on my insane vitriolic rants or hurting them in some other manner when they didn't deserve it, it's Lanny, Casper, The Duke, and PoC. All I can recall, everyone else had it coming.
Nothing more needs to be said. May register for this: https://www.deadmansswitch.net/
So if i disappear for, let's say 3 months at least, you know what happened. I either live or die at this point. Really can't help but wonder if I've been suicidal on some level for over a decade and these incredibly self-destructive behaviors were just a manifestation of it.
Where did you post it? Link?
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2017-05-14 at 4:49 AM UTC
Originally posted by RisiR † Stick to only Meth (etc.)from now on. Skip the Bundy.
I want to do more research on bundy extractions. I still might trip once a month, the drug has uses but binging on it is hell.
My current project is to buy a massive amount of gel caps, pills, syrup and pure bundy and work on different extractions, salts and preparations. If things go well maybe I can try to develop some kind of bundy/DPH single pill stack which I think would be a fucking miracle for medicinal and recreational purposes. -
2017-05-14 at 4:51 AM UTC
Originally posted by RisiR † Stick to only Meth (etc.)from now on. Skip the Bundy.
Malice, we drove down the serpentines into the city, the bright lights down in the valley all encompassed by halos because it was foggy and had rained all day as she was describing how depersonalisation/derealisation felt to her and it was so on point that I actually got a little attack. It was unreal.
BROS OVER HOES THOOO -
2017-05-14 at 4:52 AM UTC
Originally posted by SCronaldo_J_Trump I want to do more research on bundy extractions. I still might trip once a month, the drug has uses but binging on it is hell.
Have you ever had ketamine? I couldn't stand DΧM, I always puked my guts out, but I loved ketamine.
My current project is to buy a massive amount of gel caps, pills, syrup and pure bundy and work on different extractions, salts and preparations. If things go well maybe I can try to develop some kind of bundy/DPH single pill stack which I think would be a fucking miracle for medicinal and recreational purposes. -
2017-05-14 at 4:55 AM UTC
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2017-05-14 at 4:55 AM UTC
Originally posted by 1337 Have you ever had ketamine? I couldn't stand DΧM, I always puked my guts out, but I loved ketamine.
Only once and it was a good experience, I got the same side effect as bundy where I can't walk straight to save my life.
I find having a high tolerance to bundy lets me take as much as I want without puking. When I go months without taking it I puke every time and feel like complete shit. -
2017-05-14 at 4:57 AM UTC
Originally posted by SCronaldo_J_Trump Only once and it was a good experience, I got the same side effect as bundy where I can't walk straight to save my life.
I find having a high tolerance to bundy lets me take as much as I want without puking. When I go months without taking it I puke every time and feel like complete shit.
Originally posted by Oasis all the side effects of bundy make it better because when it starts to kick in you think "OH FUCK ITS HAPPENING!!!!!!!!!!!!" and then everything falls apart
I'm starting to think the syrup/sorbitol and all that other trash is a large cause to most of the bad effects of bundy (and this is intention design).
Super stack when. -
2017-05-14 at 4:57 AM UTCFUcking double post suck my balls fuck you Lanny it should auto mERGE. SUBMIT A PULL DERPADEW!!!!
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2017-05-14 at 5:06 AM UTC
Originally posted by SCronaldo_J_Trump Only once and it was a good experience, I got the same side effect as bundy where I can't walk straight to save my life.
I find having a high tolerance to bundy lets me take as much as I want without puking. When I go months without taking it I puke every time and feel like complete shit.
I ordered a quarter oz of ketamine from ravesupply waaaay back in the day. Ketamine and nitrous is amazing. I have never been so fucked up as I was then. I used to do a bunch of ketamine then go to the arcade; I felt like my brain was having a power surge like how you feel when you get overstimulated on LSD. Anyway point being is do ketamine instead of DΧM. -
2017-05-14 at 5:10 AM UTCdo PCP and huff glue pussy
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2017-05-14 at 5:12 AM UTCPCP is also better than DΧM. Huffing glue is a toss up.
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2017-05-14 at 5:14 AM UTC
Originally posted by 1337 I ordered a quarter oz of ketamine from ravesupply waaaay back in the day. Ketamine and nitrous is amazing. I have never been so fucked up as I was then. I used to do a bunch of ketamine then go to the arcade; I felt like my brain was having a power surge like how you feel when you get overstimulated on LSD. Anyway point being is do ketamine instead of DΧM.
More research needs to be done on that entire class of drugs in my opinion.
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2017-05-14 at 5:30 AM UTCI agree. There is one doctor in the ER who has no problem using ketamine for chronic pain flair ups, particularly cancer pain, and migraines in addition to procedural sedation. Ketamine is amazing for pain management because it lasts for days, when opiates would wear off in hours. Obviously the doses are comparatively tiny, just a couple micrograms per kg IV.
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2017-05-14 at 5:32 AM UTCThats clever, it also works for phantom limb.
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2017-05-14 at 6:12 AM UTCOh man, chronic fatigue and insomnia are such a bad fucking combination. You’re too tired to do anything, even concentrate on anime, yet you still can’t fucking fall asleep. I swear, this is some Dante’s Inferno type of shit, like being in a layer of limbo.
At least Ash had been regularly keeping me company at night. Can’t blame her for preferring the freedom of the outdoors during the day, the warmth of the sun, particularly with the Bay Area’s weather, but out must be nice for her to be protected from the cold and wind. Poor creatures.
Feels nice to have something sentient share your bed. It’s how we evolved.
Bowling alone (decline of civic participation), aspects of modern economies, unfortunate effects of multiculturalism. The, as some had named them, diseases of modern civilization make perfect sense. Depression is projected to become the leading cause of disability.
Industrial society and its future
Everything makes so much sense, but realistically you’re powerless to alter it. It’s the fundamentals of human nature and long-term trends, these petty churnings and passing whims aren’t even worth paying attention to. -
2017-05-14 at 6:17 AM UTC“The thought of suicide is a great consolation: by means of it one gets through many a dark night.”
I’d love to bust Ted and Ross Ulbritch (Dread Pirate Roberts) out of prison one day.The following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire! -
2017-05-14 at 6:23 AM UTCThank God you posted Malice. I'm so angry right now.... I was supposed to do so many things today but I have been on the computer for 20 hours. I feel like there is nothing... nothing... nothing. Everything is so fucked.
I don't know what the fuck I'm even doing, I feel so confused. I just melted down a nice long fat shard but I messed up the hit and burned the puddle.. I am so spun I just tossed a massive crystal and tried liquifying it with a bic.. I should have broken it up a bit and used a butane torch.
Also I have been chewing on the inside of my mouth for days, I only realize now that i'm in pain. Smoking just makes it worse too. This reminds me of the first time I ever tried meth I had no idea what I was doing and made every mistake.
I don't know how to describe I feel right now. I am obsessively talking to everyone. I wish I could talk to someone high on meth.. I used to have this girl I chatted with every night back when I didn't post here for a while and we stayed up for days and days. I emailed and texted with her tonight, but she has no phone with mobile so we can't kik.
I really miss her a lot right now at this very moment... and for lulz I will tell you guys she is that REALLY fat girl I posted in this thread a few times, If I got all her pictures and posted it at once you guys would laugh your asses off and make fun of me so hard, I called her beautiful and sexy every day. Shes like "BUT IM FAT THOUGH!" and I said DONT WORRY WE WILL KEEP DOING METH AND BE SKINNY FOREVER!!.
Just because I'm so bored here is the email she sent me a few days ago, we lose touch every now and again.hey love i dont have a smart phone or kik anymore… but i havent ever stopped thinking about you my friend! im back in kansas and on probation for the time being… bleh. i hope this reaches you and you are doing well! i think of you constantly but dont have a way to get on to the internet often at all.. i miss our all night conversations and crazy antics.. love your snow princess. xoxox
Originally posted by Malice I’d love to bust Ted and Ross Ulbritch (Dread Pirate Roberts) out of prison one day.
Trianglism believes that the original group of founding Trianglists alive on earth right now are limited in number, we estimate 1000. Shoko Asahara, Leonard Pickard, Dread Pirate Roberts and El Chapo are very likely candidates, and it is our duty to free these men at any cost.
https://niggasin.space/thread/11147
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