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Psychopathic/Narcissistic Scale: A Discussion
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2022-11-05 at 7:38 AM UTC
Originally posted by UNSUB While going through the process to which I got my diagnosis, my psychologist mentioned that whenever I spoke, my face did not move. I showed no facial expressions that gave her any indication as to what emotions I may be feeling. If I told a story, she had no idea how it affected me. Was I sad, angry, happy? She didn't know. When she asked how I felt about certain stories or questions I had answered, it would take a long time for me to give her an answer. I felt that whenever I tried to concentrate on how certain things made me feel, my mind would shut off entirely and I would be drawing a blank. I would look to her and shrug my shoulders. Emotions do not come to me relatively easy. To be able to identify them, they must be substantial enough to make a difference in how I process certain information, otherwise I cannot tell you what I am feeling. This lack of being able to understand or express emotions is what is called alexthymia and it is a marker that would suggest schizoid traits.
Furthermore, on the physical side of things, I find that when I am not consciously put effort into myself, my face does not move on its own. I find facial expressions rather tedious and exhausting the more I have to use them. The muscle movements themselves do not tire me, rather the constant conscious effort and attention I need to put towards them. When I am relaxed, I find that my face falls into a very "dark" unmoving stare that makes people uncomfortable when I interact with them, so I always have to keep note of my muscle movements and how they may be affecting the conversation. On too many occasions, my friends have caught me on this and they now refer to it as "the death stare". I would say that this quality is what I would see as a "flat affect" and along with stunted emotions and a very restricted range of them, that is what I would consider to be a "blunted affect".
I've been told that I am monotone when I speak and that I have thick skin. I also don't laugh aloud, I just smile in an attempt to be nice to whoever is trying to be funny.
I honestly never knew what empathy even was until my early 30's and I seem to completely lack it.
I knew in my early 20s that I had ASPD but I didn't really understand what a psychopath was.
Some people don't like me based on my past. These are little things I did in my youth that they still hold against me. But it's not so much these individual things, it's moreso the pattern that these things have created. It appears that some people are aware of what I am. They don't even know of the much worst things I have done since...
Anyways, my main goal is to be healthy and happy while growing my wealth. -
2022-11-24 at 8:53 PM UTC
Originally posted by Migh I've been told that I am monotone when I speak and that I have thick skin. I also don't laugh aloud, I just smile in an attempt to be nice to whoever is trying to be funny.
I honestly never knew what empathy even was until my early 30's and I seem to completely lack it.
I knew in my early 20s that I had ASPD but I didn't really understand what a psychopath was.
Some people don't like me based on my past. These are little things I did in my youth that they still hold against me. But it's not so much these individual things, it's moreso the pattern that these things have created. It appears that some people are aware of what I am. They don't even know of the much worst things I have done since…
Anyways, my main goal is to be healthy and happy while growing my wealth.
I don’t really have any empathy either. I just don’t feel anything at all, and I’ve been like this for a very long time. Where nothing really holds value with me. It’s like I don’t care about people at all. Everyday I wake up and I’m just fucking dawned by this feeling of “nothing matters” I’m not sad either.
It’s like I was stripped of all my human emotions or I’m just very disconnected from them. I cant cry and when I laugh I’m faking it 95% of the time. I’m diagnosed NPD but I feel like maybe I could be more than that unfortunately. Most NPD are just very sensitive and can turn empathy on and off. But for me, my empathy has always been consistently low. I went from being an abused child to a disconnected adult.
I feel so withdrawn and numb. It’s like I’m letting the time float right through me. I can’t possibly ever love someone if I can’t love myself. Shit just kinda sucks, the only time I genuinely feel alive is when I’m doing stuff I shouldn’t be doing. I am constantly bored of everything.
This has caused to be become very apathetic and no interest in anything but yet I don’t care. I’m just emotionally blunted. I’ve always been pretty flat but I’ve had my things that interest me and keep me entertained. Really the only thing now where I can feel anything is doing extreme sensation seeking which is stuff that’s illegal and ends up causing me further issues. -
2022-11-24 at 8:55 PM UTC
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2022-11-24 at 8:56 PM UTC
Originally posted by UNSUB I don’t really have any empathy either. I just don’t feel anything at all, and I’ve been like this for a very long time. Where nothing really holds value with me. It’s like I don’t care about people at all. Everyday I wake up and I’m just fucking dawned by this feeling of “nothing matters” I’m not sad either.
It’s like I was stripped of all my human emotions or I’m just very disconnected from them. I cant cry and when I laugh I’m faking it 95% of the time. I’m diagnosed NPD but I feel like maybe I could be more than that unfortunately. Most NPD are just very sensitive and can turn empathy on and off. But for me, my empathy has always been consistently low. I went from being an abused child to a disconnected adult.
I feel so withdrawn and numb. It’s like I’m letting the time float right through me. I can’t possibly ever love someone if I can’t love myself. Shit just kinda sucks, the only time I genuinely feel alive is when I’m doing stuff I shouldn’t be doing. I am constantly bored of everything.
This has caused to be become very apathetic and no interest in anything but yet I don’t care. I’m just emotionally blunted. I’ve always been pretty flat but I’ve had my things that interest me and keep me entertained. Really the only thing now where I can feel anything is doing extreme sensation seeking which is stuff that’s illegal and ends up causing me further issues.
i was also diagnosed as npd in the united states. -
2022-11-24 at 8:58 PM UTC
Originally posted by Wariat is this why teenage girls on instagram especislly polish ones in all aspects of society seem to be so full of themselves?
You’d be better served by examining what’s wrong with the way you’re wired rather than constantly bitching about teens who aren’t willing to subject themselves to your depravity. -
2022-11-24 at 8:58 PM UTCi meant i was diagnosed as unspecified perosnality disorder not npd:
https://thriveworks.com/blog/unspecified-personality-disorder-causes-symptoms-treatment-dsm-5-301-9-f60-9/ -
2022-11-24 at 8:59 PM UTC
Originally posted by UNSUB You’d be better served by examining what’s wrong with the way you’re wired rather than constantly bitching about teens who aren’t willing to subject themselves to your depravity.
but they are in porn tho thats the weird thing ever look up oldje or old goes young wnd shit? where do they even find them or where would i find such ones thwts what i wanan know and im not even thwt old as those guys... -
2022-11-24 at 9:01 PM UTCThe following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire!
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2022-11-24 at 9:02 PM UTChow is it not real? the empathy part or the sex occuring part with those wge groups?
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2022-11-24 at 9:04 PM UTCthe fact that you continue to base your ideas on attraction and interaction on retarded, low-budget fantasies
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2022-11-24 at 9:06 PM UTC"fuys why won';t young girls let me nonce on them like they do in the movies it's not fair!"
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2022-11-24 at 9:10 PM UTC
Originally posted by Wariat but they are in porn tho thats the weird thing ever look up oldje or old goes young wnd shit? where do they even find them or where would i find such ones thwts what i wanan know and im not even thwt old as those guys…
Originally posted by UNSUB You’d be better served by examining what’s wrong with the way you’re wired rather than constantly bitching about teens who aren’t willing to subject themselves to your depravity.
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2022-11-24 at 9:35 PM UTCits real in the sense instewd of my butthole hanna hays licked some blakc dudes butthole st age 18/19 and some other white guy in another scene who may even have been older thwn me while she was 20 or so.
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2022-11-24 at 9:35 PM UTC
Originally posted by Wariat but they are in porn tho thats the weird thing ever look up oldje or old goes young wnd shit? where do they even find them or where would i find such ones thwts what i wanan know and im not even thwt old as those guys…
Old guys only get young women if they are particularly interesting adventurous and charismatic without being bald or if they are super fucking rich. You will never be either. You will rot here forever suckling on your mother's teat and complaint to other weirdos that you can't get your bunghole licked by a dog. -
2022-11-24 at 9:36 PM UTCsituations like thoee presenter in porn also do occur you csn read wll the news clips from the usa of 15 yr old girls hooking up with their teachers for instance. i bet ubsub or damaged girls like her have fucked at least one 44 yr old man at 18.
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2022-11-24 at 9:38 PM UTC
Originally posted by Incessant Old guys only get young women if they are particularly interesting adventurous and charismatic without being bald or if they are super fucking rich. You will never be either. You will rot here forever suckling on your mother's teat and complaint to other weirdos that you can't get your bunghole licked by a dog.
but im not that old and actually still look like im in my 20s. and i a, very interesting my life is very interesting partivularly for poland or eastern europe as i lived in cslifornia most of my life got an education and seen the inside of legendary san quentin. plus i am into ancient history and archeology as star trek can attest to and can hold a conversarion without how they do it going into high school drama or bullshit whose fucking who or whose cutting themselves or tik tok shit. -
2022-11-24 at 9:42 PM UTCplenty of messed up girls like ubsub have dsddy issues and fuck old men as teens.
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2022-11-24 at 9:44 PM UTCsomeone maybe aldra on another thread admitted maybe it was jig teen girls are as srupid as a 30 yr old chimp and their desires so pointless and bland. so for them i should be super interesting.
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2022-11-24 at 9:48 PM UTC
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2022-11-24 at 9:51 PM UTCalso if zi wanted to incessant i could still play and pull off the california card. saying im acrually living there just visiting here for vacarion when i hit on the youngins and show them my old clsifornia id hopefully they wont ntoice the circle hollowed through it or i could just hold it.
