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The Retarded Thread: Get off that bus edition
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2022-01-28 at 5:48 PM UTCMuh alcohol
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2022-01-28 at 11 PM UTCme right now
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2022-01-28 at 11:02 PM UTCHead cheese.
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2022-01-29 at 12:58 AM UTCMy stomach problems are getting fucking worse. If my back doesn't hurt my stomach does, it's fucking hell. Ever since I realized pills can cure what ails me I've been taking them in droves and they have compounded exponentially. Years and years of use has rotted my stomach and made me weak. I need to go on Two retreats, one being a good bender, the other being isolation and detoxification. One is obviously much easier than the other. There is a motel near my house I've never been to but kinda want to check into for the detoxification as it would still allow me to be there for my family. The bender will be a hotel downtown with some ho, no fam involved. Right now tho the status quo is fucking painful and requires steady dissociating in order to cope with the pain and fragility of my existence
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2022-01-29 at 1 AM UTC
Originally posted by Sudo My stomach problems are getting fucking worse. If my back doesn't hurt my stomach does, it's fucking hell. Ever since I realized pills can cure what ails me I've been taking them in droves and they have compounded exponentially. Years and years of use has rotted my stomach and made me weak. I need to go on Two retreats, one being a good bender, the other being isolation and detoxification. One is obviously much easier than the other. There is a motel near my house I've never been to but kinda want to check into for the detoxification as it would still allow me to be there for my family. The bender will be a hotel downtown with some ho, no fam involved. Right now tho the status quo is fucking painful and requires steady dissociating in order to cope with the pain and fragility of my existence
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2022-01-29 at 1:09 AM UTC
Originally posted by Aleister Crowley Motel for detox?
Yeah it's a motel of cottages on a lake, I have friends who have gone before because it's kinda romantic and shit. Probably pretty inexpensive this time of year.
Problem for me with detoxing is I know myself and I am pathologically driven to consume pills. Being so close to my house I could sneak back and get some, bug people for some or really find any kinda way to aquire. Putting more steps between myself and pills is a move in the right direction though. Detoxing wouldn't really be that bad for me tbh so might be best to taper with suboxone to a lower dose before going cold turkey (will smoke weed an take gabbies though). Being away from my baby mom will make want to take drugs less but being away from my son will make me want to take more. I could go to my friend's farm but he is always, always drinking and has too many crazy animals.
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2022-01-29 at 1:19 AM UTC
Originally posted by Sudo Yeah it's a motel of cottages on a lake, I have friends who have gone before because it's kinda romantic and shit. Probably pretty inexpensive this time of year.
Problem for me with detoxing is I know myself and I am pathologically driven to consume pills. Being so close to my house I could sneak back and get some, bug people for some or really find any kinda way to aquire. Putting more steps between myself and pills is a move in the right direction though. Detoxing wouldn't really be that bad for me tbh so might be best to taper with suboxone to a lower dose before going cold turkey (will smoke weed an take gabbies though). Being away from my baby mom will make want to take drugs less but being away from my son will make me want to take more. I could go to my friend's farm but he is always, always drinking and has too many crazy animals.
I need a good plan. Sorry for fagging out loud
No I get what you mean. I like weekends away but it always involved drink/ weed and coke but now I'm sober, I look forward to bolting myself away in a cottage somewhere with books and walks beside the sea. I'm starting to understand the importance of not having other users around me, I literally have Zero will power when someone whips out a bag or suggests a drink. I'm getting somewhat stronger willfully but I'm not ready to go clubs etc. I have a few dates with girls but I'll be drinking low alcohol when I do.
I think I feel more safe being with a girl/ going back her place and fucking eachother to death. If I was going out with mates it would only lead to excessive consumption, drug fuelled debauchery and wanton destruction. Even if I go home alone inebriated that would be worse cause I would just stock up on cocaine and masturbate for days like a disgusting degenerate.The following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire! -
2022-01-29 at 1:34 AM UTCDamn if I was Heroin user I would most likely be dead 100x over by now with my addictive personality.
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2022-01-29 at 1:35 AM UTC
Originally posted by Aleister Crowley No I get what you mean. I like weekends away but it always involved drink/ weed and coke but now I'm sober, I look forward to bolting myself away in a cottage somewhere with books and walks beside the sea. I'm starting to understand the importance of not having other users around me, I literally have Zero will power when someone whips out a bag or suggests a drink. I'm getting somewhat stronger willfully but I'm not ready to go clubs etc. I have a few dates with girls but I'll be drinking low alcohol when I do.
I think I feel more safe being with a girl/ going back her place and fucking eachother to death. If I was going out with mates it would only lead to excessive consumption, drug fuelled debauchery and wanton destruction. Even if I go home alone inebriated that would be worse cause I would just stock up on cocaine and masturbate for days like a disgusting degenerate.
Yeah fucking a bitch seems like a good substitute for drugs because of serotonin, dopamine, oxytocin etc but there's usually a whole other host of problems too, like what if they're being emotionally erratic and this fucks with your real intentions? Not to mention what if you bust, lie back and stupid questions start coming? That gives me anxiety and keeps me from plateauing to a "higher self" away from drugs and liquor proving the girl is just a distraction. Just about every girl who's vagina I have access to is amenable to drugs and alcohol too. I can't think of a girl ever stopping me from doing drugs because I'll either be able to manipulate the scenario or I'll make them miserable so they know that's the only way out.
Willpower comes with time and the development of skills but when shit hits the fan those seem to be the first things to go. Sometimes I think the best company would be a hooker I can just whine about my problems to while watching her facade fade. That can be expensive and depressing though.
Idk if I'm gonna detox its gotta be lonely and uncomfortable for it to have any lasting effect. The worst is I know if I tell people that's what I'm doing I will feel obligated to declare my excursion a success even if I end up using the whole time. Now is honestly a good time in my life to undertake this too but the idea of being alone with my thoughts and feelings unmedicated is pretty risky. -
2022-01-29 at 1:37 AM UTC
Originally posted by Aleister Crowley Damn if I was Heroin user I would most likely be dead 100x over by now with my addictive personality.
I've only done heroin a few times but have been on and off hydromorphone (insert gawlum joke here) for over half my life. Even before I was prescribed it I used it recreationally and realized it was my "drug of choice" which has since been expanded to include pretty much all pharms apart from benzos -
2022-01-29 at 1:44 AM UTC
Originally posted by Sudo Yeah fucking a bitch seems like a good substitute for drugs because of serotonin, dopamine, oxytocin etc but there's usually a whole other host of problems too, like what if they're being emotionally erratic and this fucks with your real intentions? Not to mention what if you bust, lie back and stupid questions start coming?
Do you mean the falling in love etc? Yeah that can be complicated somewhat but I'm at that point where I am done with hedonism and want to treat a girl right/ do good by my chillens. Your 30's I feel should be the point by which one starts to invest in their future. -
2022-01-29 at 1:47 AM UTCFucks sake I screen shot a pic some girl sent me on Snap. (Non sexual). She's kinda being funny with me now. Told her I'm no weirdo, just 'mirin her face cause Snap doesn't save pics.
I literally cannot be arsed simping for forgiveness or w.e I'm too tired. I apologised anyway, if she doesn't message again I don't feel particularly bothered. -
2022-01-29 at 2:39 AM UTCThis man has a $22 billion net worth
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2022-01-29 at 2:41 AM UTC
Originally posted by Aleister Crowley Fucks sake I screen shot a pic some girl sent me on Snap. (Non sexual). She's kinda being funny with me now. Told her I'm no weirdo, just 'mirin her face cause Snap doesn't save pics.
I literally cannot be arsed simping for forgiveness or w.e I'm too tired. I apologised anyway, if she doesn't message again I don't feel particularly bothered.
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2022-01-29 at 2:42 AM UTC
Originally posted by Aleister Crowley Do you mean the falling in love etc? Yeah that can be complicated somewhat but I'm at that point where I am done with hedonism and want to treat a girl right/ do good by my chillens. Your 30's I feel should be the point by which one starts to invest in their future.
No, I just meant having to deal with a bitch in tight quarters for a few days. I just wanna try on a few more desperate single moms before I find a ho who wants to settle down.
Originally posted by Aleister Crowley Fucks sake I screen shot a pic some girl sent me on Snap. (Non sexual). She's kinda being funny with me now. Told her I'm no weirdo, just 'mirin her face cause Snap doesn't save pics.
I literally cannot be arsed simping for forgiveness or w.e I'm too tired. I apologised anyway, if she doesn't message again I don't feel particularly bothered.
Yea snap will rat right on ya. Take a pic with another phone if u need to or fuck with the button in the right hand corner but ideally just don't save shit because that's the whole point of snap and now she can't trust things she sends are just between you two -
2022-01-29 at 3:14 AM UTCunions are fucking cringe
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2022-01-29 at 5:44 AM UTCThe following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire!
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2022-01-29 at 7:10 AM UTCthis thread is exactly 2 years old as of today.
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