2020-12-08 at 5:45 PM UTC
HI veryone, I Foudn this threead. I'm trying to quit drinking and it's not going th best. I've been staying away from liquor after I was really deep in my feels in August and started having bad thoughts. I started my effexxor 150mg mid seeptember again. I feel better now than when i was drinking so much vodka. I was getting bad withdrawls but managed to quit for about six weeks and then I went to go hangout with this girl I wanted to fuck and she was drinking so the just one thing kinda happened and I proceeded to stay drunk till like a week ago, Today is my first day not drinking, I don't have any weed, but I havee somee hydroxline that my doctor perscribed last month and i told her they didn't work cuz i wanted xanax, so now i just get nothing foor anxiety, fortuantely, I normally take less than im peerscribed (I'm perscribed 225mg effexxor for instanc, but only take 150) becausee if I can't get a refill or i lose my medicaid or something I neeed to be on them or i get really really sad like i did last year when i went off of them for like eight months after my ex left me.
So here's to today, i feel like going down rn and getting somee beer, but I will not because I want better for myself and it's extrmely obvious to me i'm addicted to it.
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2021-01-31 at 7:14 AM UTC
Currently cutting out the ~5-6 years of Crouton abuse. Never really bothered to actually weigh out my dosages but i'd estimate it at having 8g every 4-6 hours through the day. To anyone considering Crouton use I'd highly reccomend to not use it as I did, and just stick to taking a single large dose instead of redosing every couple of hours. I copped 100mg etizolam to help ease the transition, which was incredibly stupid considering my past relationship with tizolam, but it all worked out. Never noticed any w/d from tiz, nor any cravings to redose or to dose on the weekends. I think that 100mg tiz lasted me about 4 weeks, only taking 2 or 3 mgs in the mornings to make work more tolerable. The past 2 weeks I have bought a 1oz bag of Crouton just to chill out with on weekends. Maybe I wont this upcoming weekend. I've noticed that its pretty much the highlight of the week to hit a headshop after work, but its still a massive improvement from dosing multiple times all throughout the day. I've noticed that I am able to sleep a lot longer than before. I was only getting about 6 hours per night before i'd wake up wanting to dose. Now I can pretty reliably set my alarm for 8 hours and hit that most nights. Which is good because i've been hitting the gym hard as fuck the last 6 months and more sleep i can get the better to help with that.
The withdrawals really aren't that bad at all. Unless you've got a fucking hueg dose schedule I'd reccomend to anyone to just cold turkey that shit.
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2021-01-31 at 9:55 PM UTC
Benzos are of the devil. I went a little too hard on the K-Pins for a while. So i ran out obviously. Figured i'd get some booze to help with the rebound anxiety. And i'm not even an anxious person generally. Now i drank a bottle of wine and i feel stone cold sober. Well, a little full, but that's about it.
How fucked am i?
2021-01-31 at 10:02 PM UTC
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[my hereto riemannian peach]
2-4mg of suboxone a day got my pain through the roof but I feel pretty fucking normal. By normal I mean my existence is a pain that can only by alleviated by the sweet embrace of death. When Im sober idk what's gonna happen. I think Ive taken at least 10 years off my life so I might make it to mid 60s
2021-02-03 at 5:30 AM UTC
My recovering isn't going great everyone. I drank everyday for the last 5 days. Not much only a 4pack steel reserve a day. But I need to not be drinking at all.
Will report back when successful. Last time i had about 4 years sober until a break up in 2019. My entire family all alcoholic so hm... Fuck
2021-02-03 at 5:31 AM UTC
By 4 pack i mean 12 to 16 beers a day. Today was 4 cuz I'm really stoned but the other days were a lot more. Forgot i don't have to lie here. Thanks friends.
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2021-02-25 at 9:43 AM UTC
Gonna give this another shot. It's boring, I'm spending too much money and I'm with a girl who is going to leave me if I fuck up again.
2021-04-02 at 4:08 AM UTC
Sudo
Black Hole
[my hereto riemannian peach]
I'm been doing suboxone for a while, basically trying to taper down but be unable to function with the pain of coming off completely. Need some shit to supplement and help coming off. Shits hard to do everyday. Life is fucked. It's hard to be happy, espcially without unnatural enhancers. My life is stupidly delicate. I envy people who can be freewheeling. I still fantasize about faking my own death every day or two but less frequently as it was before. Fuck everything
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2021-04-02 at 4:09 AM UTC
Sudo
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[my hereto riemannian peach]
I posted that here because the current "retarded thread" is absolutely fucking pathetic and shameful and should be locked, abandoned and restarted to be honest. It just has such a shitty feel. Whoever made it fucked up, the energy is all wrong. Jews have definitely fondled it
2021-05-16 at 7:26 AM UTC
Update:
I am drunk.
I dont think this meand anything
in b4 slippy slope, not being a good example.
Idk i auditmyself often. i prolly need to go back to meetings but the last year has been an absolute vitch.
2022-07-08 at 8:30 PM UTC
Sober for about 40 days, from everything. Happy with it. Will post updates.
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2022-07-08 at 8:37 PM UTC
Sudo
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[my hereto riemannian peach]
I forgot about this thread.
I'm not allowing myself to come off box again without beating my tolerance right down. I'm taking gaba instead of gabbapentin so if I take that to get off pills it'll work pretty well
2022-10-03 at 6:26 AM UTC
bump
I return with over 2 years clean.
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2022-10-03 at 12:37 PM UTC
i haven't had a drink in a couple weeks and i dn't feel like myself anymore cuz i came off of all my medications
