And I have a date with the nurse. I've been seeing her off and on since the super bowl. We don't talk or hang out all the time. We actually hadn't spoke in almost over a week. I spend the night at her place but she's slept over at my place once. She's new into town. The last few times we've hungout when I was getting ready to leave in the morning I've gotten weird vibes from her like she's pissed. I don't know her that well and believe in taking things slow.. and I don't want to wear out my welcome and be a clinger so I would go, plus I have stuff to do. And I would think she would understand considering she works twelve hour shifts at the hospital.
The other day I felt really out of it for a bunch of reasons like I was going to break into analytical tears and I deleted her number because I felt like she doesn't like me and I don't ever want to be that guy, I'm not like that. She hit me up last night and we text for a bit and thats rare for us to do that, but I basically told her how I feel about her and that I missed her. (I'm a very passionate, passionate guy) And she said she felt the same way.
I'm used to being alone most the time and am independent in that respect, kind of a loner. I of course have slammers come to my place but most of them I don't really care to hangout with again. And I'll converse with my neighbors a lil bit, I mean I did go to that concert last week with my neighbor but she's a total lesbo and I'm not attracted to her personality as she's always on drugs and you never know how she's going to act. But yea for the most part its just archie the cat and I. But since I've met this girl I've thought about her a lot. We have really fun sex and I enjoy waking up with her, and sometimes it just feels way too much to handle but I try to not let those feels get the best of me. And now that I'm older I'm a lot better at handling them but there's some things that just happen.
Even lanny told me awhile back on intothesanctuary or maybe it was rdfrn i dunno... to just ride the wavve and it will be whatever it will be and he's right, so I try to keep that in mind. But I have a way to sabatoge relationships, even the really good ones. But I digress..
so yeah I'm just going to make the best out of it, put on my dad shoes and a smile and make some vegan hotdogs with her and watch cartoons. What can you do?
