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2022-04-13 at 9:47 PM UTC in she added two new pics guys
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2022-04-13 at 9:44 PM UTC in she added two new pics guys
Originally posted by Wariat Not rhe ones that duck doga i doubr those want love my friend or the pervert ones i mean.
If we're talking, say, 18-19-20, sure, you do start to find some of the typical party girls who are into casual sex and not looking for love. I don't know if I find that very appealing, though.
And... out of that population, you will have a hard time finding any who are looking for casual sex with older men. They exist too โ daddy issues are way more common than I ever expected โ but most are hooking up with their peers, whom they are around a lot and whom don't have the "creepiness" factor you gotta get past. You'll have to look pretty good in the first place for that to be likely. -
2022-04-13 at 4:03 PM UTC in ๐ฉ๐ฉ Poop - Land ๐ฉ๐ฉY'all remember Rizzo? That motherfucker inspired a large part of what became my philosophy.
You see, a lot of drug users still appear to feel vaguely bad about it... a bit ashamed, a bit lame. "Oh, yes, I do that stuff all the time... but I'm still going to say it's bad and I wish I didn't do it and I don't recommend it" kinda thing you know?
Ol' Rizzo In A Box showed me the way. He wasn't like "yeah I am so ashamed that I sniff coke and smoke weed", he was like "that shit is fucking awesome and I wish I could do even more" hell no he wasn't ashamed or putting on some false, conventional, Just Say No morality
...and that got me thinking: wait, I'm making this choice too, so either I'm dumb and should stop or else I need to quit acting like I don't love it
I made the second choice. ๐ Too bad that dude's not here any more. I'd shake his sweaty, nutmeg-stained hand. ๐ฉ -
2022-04-13 at 3:46 PM UTC in ๐ฉ๐ฉ Poop - Land ๐ฉ๐ฉ
Originally posted by RIPtotse And yah I love the feeling that NOT doing shit is cooler than doing shit used to be cuz I've done so much fucking shit now. Idk as I get older I start to realize there's more to life then just doing drugs and shit. It's like I actually want to save my money and buy shit instead of drugs now adays. I kept thinking something is wrong with me but my counselor assures me that's what it's like getting older…also I have a looooot of gray hair for 31
Shit here I was mocking her for being proud of not being a cool drug user, and you come in and start making me question things
I mean, before anything else I just don't understand people who don't want to experience drugs. And that's not even me being "I love getting high I'm such a cool bad boi", that's honest puzzlement... some sort of basic difference between us and the normie non-SpaceNiggas, I feel like.
It's not just for the hedonism aspect โ although I also don't understand people who aren't pro-wireheading: why wouldn't you want to experience pleasure all the time?! โ but rather because drug experiences are largely ineffable. Can you communicate to someone else the experience of tasting an orange, if they've never had one? Before you try an entirely new flavor, can you even possibly imagine what it's like?
Imagine the poverty of a life in which you never once taste any flavor except that of Blando's Nutrient Pasteยฎ. Would your current self not want to tell that version of you to try eating some fruit or chocolate or French fries or whatever? Would that not enrich and expand your life to experience?
(Hypothetical, general "you", I mean. I know you, RIPTotse / the modal NiS reader doesn't need convincing of the attraction in drug use...)
So that's how I think about trying a new drug. It's an experience which "feels like" something entirely new, something you cannot even imagine until you've done it. People who have tried a drug can talk back and forth about it using metaphors... but if you've never tried, your understanding of the conversation will be on the same level as that of a Decolonization major trying to understand high-school mathematics: useless, wrong, and possibly laughable.
Who couldn't be curious?! It's not like anything else in the world, not like anything you can even imagine! Like seeing an entirely new color!
...but all that said, yeah I get what you mean. I hate doin' stuff. I want to just chill comfortably, dammit. Okay, and maybe travel a little. Having stuff โ and being able to stop, relax, and enjoy it โ is pretty nice.
And okay, I have to admit: when I stopped doing tons of drugs, my life got way easier. As a proponent of degenerate hedonism, I was surprised by this result, but it's undeniable. Physically, financially, possibly mentally โ more freedom, less stress.
Maybe durgz are better as a... spice. A little scent in the air rather than the air I breathe, if you know what I mean? -
2022-04-13 at 3:16 PM UTC in 16 yo ukrainian chick im talking to nowWere you mocking her for being sad?
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2022-04-13 at 3:10 PM UTC in she added two new pics guys
Originally posted by Wariat like I said i wouldnt want to sample the goods their age i had a high standard now and now all it is if theyre young its good enough and not too fat or anything. i just want that age difference. im more attracted to the age than any female that age basically.
That's a recipe for unhappiness, my friend. It isn't like you might imagine it is.
"This is hot and exciting because she's young" only goes so far; it stops being thrilling, and then you have a regular relationship. It's not any different than fucking a girl who isn't young, except you have to deal with more sensitivity.
This means if you have any soul left at all, you have to spend a lot of time comforting and listening and being sensitive yourself. Because breaking the heart of an innocent is a sad, bad thing to do.
They generally want love, Wariat, not nasty sex, despite all that the porn tells you.
And, if you have some romance in your soul left too, you've fallen in love with her at some point. And daily life, sharing a life, making a relationship work, with a girl who's younger takes exactly the same kind of effort as with an older one. And then she gets older. And if you haven't found something beyond "damn she young AF bro!" to be into, you'll be out of luck. -
2022-04-12 at 2:51 PM UTC in ๐ฉ๐ฉ Poop - Land ๐ฉ๐ฉWe're being proud of not doing stuff now?
"I've never had those adventures!
I've never explored my senses and my mind through the entirely novel qualia of neurochemical alteration!
The world has an entire class of experiences โ that humanity has undergone for millennia, in thousands of vastly different times and places โ which I know absolutely nothing about!"
Pfft. If we're proud of that โ of failing to do a thing โ hell, I got you beat for sure. I haven't done all kinds of stuff!
I never went rock-climbing or parasailing, for example:
PROUD 2 BE
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2022-04-12 at 1 PM UTC in ๐ฉ๐ฉ Poop - Land ๐ฉ๐ฉ
Originally posted by RIPtotse I've literally smoked crack maybe 10-13 times? Done coke maybe 25?
Cocaine sucks.
Word, maiNigga.
lol I love that I am, finally, once again among people for whom "only done coke 25 times" is reasonable and understood in sentiment. I've made similar comments about various drugs โ "oh, I'm not a big fan of dissociatives; only done PCP or ket half a dozen times maybe" โ and normies are always like "wut omg thatz so mutch!!!"
and it's like no shut up bitch at the rate I consume drugs that's nothing.
("But AdMech, you sound proud of that" Why yes, drugs are cool, everyone knows that deep down
We need to start an outreach group to provide positive messaging about drug use to today's youth. COCZ: Chemical Outreach Cooperative of Zokse?) -
2022-04-12 at 1:24 AM UTC in ๐ฌ๐ฌCandy~Land๐ฌ๐ฌ
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2022-04-12 at 1:11 AM UTC in ๐ฌ๐ฌCandy~Land๐ฌ๐ฌLook, you don't have to make up some magical "boyfriend" to seem cool to me, CandyRein. Just be yourself!
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2022-04-12 at 12:54 AM UTC in What are you thinking about....
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2022-04-12 at 12:30 AM UTC in a simpleton like Scron never possessed mental illness...So I got a massive raise today โ almost half again my current salary โ for a promotion that was effected months ago. About fuckin' time. No backdating the increased pay, unfortunately... of fuckin' course.
But I know for a fact that the previous holder of this position made about $300/week more than I do, still.
Ignore it and be happy they managed to wrangle as much as they did from the accountants... or push for it despite the raise?
edit: Also, that motherfucker did a worse job, but in way better conditions (he had one employee to manage and a system in place already; I have a dozen, and start from scratch). So... I feel entitled to it.
But also, don't rock the boat...? Don't get greedy? Fuck I don't know -
2022-04-12 at 12:13 AM UTC in cannabis, caffeine, amphetamines, alprazolam, and escitalopram are my daily cocktail...
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2022-04-12 at 12:11 AM UTC in ๐ฌ๐ฌCandy~Land๐ฌ๐ฌ
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2022-04-12 at 12:03 AM UTC in What are you doing at the momentI used to make crack for my friends because they were too dumb to figure out the complex 3-step process "mix, heat, smoke".
But I never liked it that much. Now, heroin... I liked heroin. A lot.
Unfortunately, a girl and a career both were all like "hey stop doing heroin all the time or you'll have neither girl nor career" and I caved like a weak lil bitch.
but I'm still available for consultation on the drug use of others ๐ -
2022-04-11 at 11:36 PM UTC in What are you doing at the momentCrack is a waste of money, y'all. Get some speed instead!
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2022-04-11 at 11:26 PM UTC in Gabaergics causing timelines to mergeI like gabapentin. It chills you out without being overpowering.
I used to get a supply for when I invariably ran out of opioids, because I have no self-control, and it worked like absolute magic. The RLS was so fucking bad I was seriously considering the tradeoff between "shoot self now, be dead forever" / "undergo a few more days of this inability to sit still for even a second"... thank God for gabapentin. -
2022-04-11 at 11:21 PM UTC in ๐ฉ๐ฉ Poop - Land ๐ฉ๐ฉRemember the "๐ฉ poop ๐ฉ" thread on Zoklet, you guys?
This is making me feel like some sort of perverse grandfather. Now, back in my day, we had real ๐ฉ poop๐ฉ threads, far as the eye could see… -
2022-04-11 at 11:19 PM UTC in ๐ฌ๐ฌCandy~Land๐ฌ๐ฌ
Originally posted by CandyRein Why the hell do you wanna know my deal.. itโs like 10 other people here..
Learn one of their deals …
Only 10? Man. Where's everyone gone?
...but you're still here. Why? How did you and these other people find a Totse-themed board anyway? Will I purchase a sports car and angrily shout at other drivers to compensate for deep-seated insecurity which cannot be overcome no matter how many ways I make myself into the living avatar of what I believe N wants? So many questions... -
2022-04-11 at 11:12 PM UTC in ๐ฌ๐ฌCandy~Land๐ฌ๐ฌThis is the middle post.