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2019-09-18 at 5:36 PM UTC
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worst feeling in the world
Tragic. A disfigured world gives birth to disfigured creatures. Aware that something's wrong, knowledgeable enough to see a course for correction but powerless due the their own shortcomings and weakness. I could probably give you a motivational speech.
"Something about selfishness. Like you don't need 'em. Just like you don't need this place. You can be a strong and independent creep and weirdo. The difference between you and other creeps is money and once you have it the world kneels before you."
But we both know it's pointless. I don't think this is the place to be talking metaphysical shit like "what's the purpose of life" either. I guess it all depends on what do you want. Do you even want to live? Do you want to struggle? Do you want to get out of the dump you're in?
You could've probably got better. Question is, are you too dumb or too smart? Are you disfigured in mind to a point where you can't get anything done, or are you too smart, you see all the trash in the world around you and that scares you off because you don't want to put yourself into it?
Will answering those questions even help you, that I don't know. There are a lot of things which don't make sense. I know it all too well. The human mind is one of those. It's not my place to ridicule you or to support you. Not my place to tell you who's to blame. Not my place to point fingers.
I suppose the only thing I can tell you is that I somewhat know the feeling. From a different angle, but still. The nightmares, the fear, it's all in there. And everybody who tries to provide relief for it, they become collateral. That's how it went for me. In my case, it'll never really leave. So I chose a life of isolation.
I chose to make edgy remarks, lurk the asshole of the internets, watch creeps and weirdos shitpost and go insane. Just so I can be reminded that I'm not the only lunatic out there. It's not gonna get me anywhere. Could've probably got out of it. Chose not to. In the end, I somehow like it. If life is Hell, might as well get used to be a damned soul.
Welcome to hell, buddy. Enjoy your stay. The one good thing when you're close enough to the fire is that you can light your cigars.
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