Originally posted by Phoenix
Because sometimes I get really miserable. 95% of the time I'm bored but content. 5% of the time I hate my life and want to die. Right now I'm in the 95%. A line charting my happiness would look like space and the gravity well of a black hole. Pretty even and then a sharp decline into the abyss and then even again.
Honestly I think that's about as normal as normal gets. I can second having this pattern of feeling myself.
Just caught myself saying or rather asking "What the fuck Gonts?" out loud as I'm watching an Asian girl being held down under water by an invisible entity while bobbing for apples and the water simultaneously and inexplicably boiling..Supernatural in case anyone was wondering.
Not much use in berating you that's already been done extensively. Never failed a drug test while on paper myself but my former fellow probationers always told me honesty was the best policy when dealing with a failed test especially the first one. Try to lie your way out of it and it's only going to get worse from there.
Just skimmed through OP but agreed that "accidentally" or not forgetting birth control is definitely sinister and evil as shit. This is why some soon to be fathers "forget" to come home after going to the store for a pack of cigarettes.
Honestly not really. I have only a few people I would consider true friends and probably another 100 people who would call themselves my friends but they really aren't but simply get some advantage from knowing how to contact me or knowing my first name. Nearly everyone of these "friends" are immature, selfish, and addicted to some type of drug and are always "sorry" for something a 5 year old would do.
It is to be expected being a criminal and landlord so I really can't use the "poor me" excuse but people being shitty gets really fucking old after a while. I tend to think some people are just "lost" though. There's a small percentage of these people who aren't actually bad people by choice but rather they just have no goals, ambition, drive or purpose. They just float around the earth on a pathless journey to no where and this renders their morality unused because fuck it what does anything matter anyways? There's nothing to jeopardize in their future because they feel they have no future..at the very least not one worthy of anything.
That being said I'm pretty successful financially but the novelty of that wears off pretty fast and I'm afraid I'll end up being this Raymond Reddington - esque person within the next 10 years but actually that doesn't even really seem all that bad.
I guess I kind of agree in a way. I'd personally say it's more of a wasteful and unnecessarily expensive drug vs Meth. A gram of high quality shard can last me a week if I'm using it with purpose rather than getting purposely batshit to the moon high. I wouldn't say heroin is a waste or "bad"...I was offered what looked like half a tenth of supposedly bomb stuff the other day and politely declined. I don't dislike boy it's just opiates were never my thing and whoever else ended up doing the 50mg~ or so would have enjoyed it infinitely more than I would have.
Edit: Also...my ex-gf's uncle who has traveled the world extensively was buying what would equate to 8 balls for $5 in Columbia. Granted it was in the early 1990's but still.
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Basically he lives next door, doesn't have any parents, and is horribly abused. Since I have the ability to provide a nice home for him, I feel like I should. I've always wanted to have a kid anyway.
Good on you and good for you, truly. It's rare to see that kind of kindness and morality in my life. Very refreshing TBH.
I seriously and strongly suggest you look up Tony Robbins, James Arthur Ray, Yo Elliot(Elliot Hulse) just to name a few...here's a pretty good video I've found on positivity and motivation...
Worst case scenario you've wasted 4 minutes of your life watching a youtube video...worse things have happened.
