kill yourself Bill Krozby
you look like a cave dweller
also i started this stuff when i was 12 or 13. ive never had a chance to develop like a normal person. im like a case study for a total nutjob who is also somehow fairly normal its a total dichotomy
the year long bundy binge was definitely the worst thing ive ever done to myself. 3 years later im still not the same, i was having out of body experiences on a daily basis. it gave me some kind of mild transient epilepsy problem
i think i might have done more drugs that anyone in the world. except for maybe roshambo.
everything that i used to be able to do is now complicated by thousands of holes in my brain probably
also im paranoid to go outside because of police cars watching me lol
im going to the park tomorrow but i doubt im going to make any friends unless people randomly decide to introduce themselves to me
im planning on going to one or two events i found on meetups.com this time not high on klonopin so maybe i wont make a fool out of myself
i cant believe im in a state of desperation like this. any social skills ive had shriveled up from non-usage. the last time i hung out with a friend i think i was 17 or 18. now even those people avoid me at all costs.
they say "just be yourself" but thats always a terrible idea it seems because my personality is like an explosion in slow motion
every single person i used to be friends with avoids me now and blocks me on facebook or whatever. i destroyed all of my relationships for lulz without realizing this would end up happening to me
this is somewhat better than being in solitary confinement for a decade i suppose. i need to murder/suicide already
going insane from prolonged social isolation. every day is like one more strike
I think my withdrawal is over. I took a warm bath and meditated and felt like a fetus/primal human/true human and now I'm back to being content with my soulless non-life. I almost never experience sadness anymore, I guess I'm just used to it or too medicated. It's harder to want to change when you're naturally content with sitting on your ass and playing with your brain
Nuanced poetic brilliance!
Ugly kike bitch
Frog-mouthed and fat
Body like chernobyl
Collects cans from the trash
The answer is gas
Shake that infested ass
Your mother's a whore
And you rode your daddy's lap
Every single time i take a crap it clogs the toilet what do i do
