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Lol at the arrow pointer.
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2019-10-18 at 9:13 PM UTC
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I never undersrood why women
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Would tell me they are at a certain place like at a bar we met previously or some event or part of town or something without anything else, so I just reply with a “that’s nice” every time and usually they dont write back on messenger. But it is as if they wish me to beg or be like can we please meet or some shit. Instead of asking me. Either that or its bs small talk they are just engaging with me, anyway, and none of them ever mattered to me.
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2019-10-15 at 2:17 PM UTC
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Your thoughts at the moment
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Listen to some wes watson vids.
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I mean just look at him someone who looks like that alone is worth being fuked with.
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Sometimes your hand becomes like a spider with your fingers as the legs and it has no control of its own.
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2019-10-07 at 9:51 PM UTC
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So I am in Mexico now
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2019-10-06 at 6:27 PM UTC
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So I am in Mexico now
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2019-10-05 at 3:27 AM UTC
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So I am in Mexico now
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2019-10-03 at 10:20 PM UTC
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So I am in Mexico now
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The starbucks ar cancoon costs 100 pesos for a venti ice coffee. Pretty expensive for mexico.
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In a way when you face and feel deep inside adversery, you experience nirvana or in a way coming of the self. Realizing the self and the truth. When sent to a prison, especially being innocent or railroaded.
by an unjust system, you have almost a religious breakthrough a profound experience and new way looking at life. You touch the ground or the essence of life and freedom and what it means. You have almost like a shift in time a movie plays of your life in your head.
And you remember your loved ones. You remember specific people in your life and what they did to you and all the ways you took it for granted. It is almost like being in the movie Called the book of Eli while being in Denzel Washington’s shoes where you’re both blind but by choice and aware of everything around you.
And when the way you thought truth comes out, the way you though justice existed snd the way you thought honesty matters comes crashing down with police not reading you your rights, your own lawyer talking about plea bargains right away and laughing at you, etc.
It almost is a religious experience.
The thing is you cannot go in there go into those CDCR dungeons with your head held up. They do everything in the power to break you make you feel guilty even if it was honorable, make you feel inferior to the trash in there as they bully you as COs and chop it up with some of the convicts or lifetime losers. They literally higher the same people as california prison guards as the people in those places and in terms of local jail they hire army or ex military which i have less issue with.
Bit the GO group or private prison group everyone keeps tslking about going out of business those are real special cases. Some of them are tood and easy going and it is a baby sitting place being in those level 2 mccfs or ice center Ive experienced both. Some will try to Fight you or proboke you with who knows what consequences like my last day before deportation. Where one harassed me and got in myface and kept telling me to shut the fuk up and fuk your propety youll get it when you get it when all I asked was a sinple question if my stuff will Transfer with me. I always held back. I learned from my mistakes even if I did not start those situstions. I simply let him talk and ignored him. But he got right to the door my last day before deportation and i could easily call him inside and maybe who knows the consequences.
In Corcoran level 2 sny low level even that was the situarion where a hispanic guard was friends with this white trash guy who was competing for my bunky in an 8 man pod. I would also let some ok normal people borrow retro gamer magazines I introduced to inmates and he tried to con them harassing me asking why I trade or borrow them when everyone else was doing this and even asking me why I had them. On top of him and his other cop friend harassing me why I was there what I did why I choose sny all these questions at once.
I was even harassed by them or the guards and police being transferred from the hole in san quentin from reception time to the mainline prisons where one kept asking me personal and convict like questions and even his colleagues told him thats enough. I dont get it. No one else.l did either.
But I made friends at VSP with a similar mind. This guy was bi and zi have a thing it was one of the reasons we clung even though I am 100 % straight snd told him and everytime he amde domments he wanted me i just laughed with him and we joked it aside. But he was a punkrocker and we clinged in our view of the us government, the us constitution and what really was going on. I at the time hang to the view I was a Polish ultra or soccer hooligan who like they do in Poland fights police snd government. Only recently i realized theya re not like I thought.
But we would talk about how braindead sodiety is and people in general how they believe the government narrative how they think juries trials and courts in California are fair and alws are good snd vote for even more laws. He even told me being Polish and an immigrant I was not treated white in any sense of the word there. Discussing the case and showing him some of my transcritps even. But we did see others like George Galvin who alsow as white in same boat.
Galvin literslly is still doing time for defending his dsufhter from her boyfriend but thr courts saw it as him imposing her will on who she should date. Either way he will end up doing more than that blond texan cop who killed a man in his own apartment.
It isnt about race but caracel system to destroy people families and the human psyche with lies they feed the media across the channel whether republican or democrat. My punkrock friend Joey was mexican by the way.
But the thing is you lewrn to laugha at it in there. At it all. You learn to have a sense of humor or you will become suacidal quickly. We would laugh st some of the guys partivularly who were there for one off cases or even sex offenders who believed in their country and system.
Before being incarcerated. We would tell ourselves how we knee ahead of time we had a feeling we never fit in or were part or regular us society with its hypocricy and racial politics and divisions that just were aimed to cloud people’s minds.
But I have to say overall it was a trip and a unique experience and I could write books about being at places from San Quentin to Adelanto private prison with GOs to ice center to plane ride baxk when ai felt fresh air again and more. People really do not realize how few inmates were like me and how few in california even have a basic education or ged or high school diploma. This is across the channel at every county jail, lockup, prison, etc.
But the other thing to add is there was self reflection and laughter in there as well. When I made it to the hole in quentin a guy who was a sex offender and funny dude ended up in there literslly the same day but did not right like me to do it. He just checked in.
But his name was chewey like in starwars and he did it for some reason because or thst ssme group targeted him for some other resson thsn me (me for wanting the second tier him for being a sex offender) and we connected. In the hole he showed me this radio channel on paranormal.
And we would talk over the vent as well. He was into computers and onxe i tslked to gim on the yard when we were in Alpine section. We also transferred together to vsp on the same bus. Some othe inmates there were also there when they saw wheat I did to go put myself in hole.
In san auentin donner section and all were supprotive. I literslly fesred i wss marked desd man walking for tsking it to them like that. For attacking them both as the doors unlocked snd st chow hall when they threatened to stab me and sat at my table and di hand signs across.
The crazy thing was and I think part of both admirstion and hate across both inmates and guards or cos alike was I had a dollege education foing in there, I had a journalism ba from chico state which I still cling to and it has been a blessing going into this field.
The other thing to consider is that the hole or shu or donner I believe it was section of SQ reception was more comfortable than thst reception at Alpine. They gave us wind up raidos, warm water for shower and we were just isolated.
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