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2019-06-11 at 10:34 AM UTC in "White" is racist, use "Person of lacking colour"Europeans are the only people of color.
Shitskins are all the same ugly shade of brown and black. -
2019-06-11 at 10:22 AM UTC in My mom is a fucking idiotI'm not afraid of change, I don't feel the need to.
People like you think that you must do X because everyone else does and because you're now Y age you must live according to these preconseptions.
It's dumb and ridiculous and as time goes on and things like longevity medicine/technology gain more steam people will grow out of those notions. -
2019-06-11 at 10:09 AM UTC in Why is Windows XP so fucking lightning fast but Windows 10 is absolute garbage?
Originally posted by -SpectraL My monitor, a Sceptre 14" LCD has been powered on continuously since 1995 without issue. My IBM ThinkCentre, with a 80GB hard drive, has been powered on since 2005 without issue. I use it for everything, not only web browsing. Gaming, graphics editing, audio editing, networking…
I'm suspicious of that ... wouldn't dust build up and clog the psu/cooling?
That's how my psu in my 2008 build died on me I assume.
Also why keep a monitor running nonstop like that when you can just turn it off while you're not using it. -
2019-06-11 at 10:07 AM UTC in I had another prophetic dreamIt was very creepy and about Donald Trump
Towards the end there was something about him and the Russians, like he was selling us out or something
and then I was a little girl again (the third time I dreamed I was a little girl in the past couple weeks) at a grocery store running away from this deep state agent and to leave the grocery store you had to PAY to get out so I ran and some nigger chased after me and grabbed me and Dyland Roof stabbed him in the back and saved me (Thanks DyDy *hugs*)
At one point I was talking to the shadow government and this being said "The more you know, you don't know at all" when I asked him what they wanted.
Third cryptic dream in a row ....
The universe is trying to tell me something -
2019-06-11 at 9:53 AM UTC in Why is Windows XP so fucking lightning fast but Windows 10 is absolute garbage?
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2019-06-11 at 9:52 AM UTC in I keep having cryptic dreams related to child trafficking/sex cults/slavery
Originally posted by MORALLY SUPERIOR BEING VII: Mattchews Camping Trip You live in a scary world op.
I mean do you really think random guys out walking in the woods are going to eat you?
He was staring straight at me waiting to run over and abduct me.
You stupid insufferable fuck.
Child abduction is very common in the US, thousands of kids go missing every single year.
As for cannibalism, yes it does happen but more often it's sex slavery. -
2019-06-11 at 9:50 AM UTC in My mom is a fucking idiot
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2019-06-11 at 9:50 AM UTC in My mom is a fucking idiot
Originally posted by MORALLY SUPERIOR BEING VII: Mattchews Camping Trip So basically you fell off your bike and had a stiff leg for a while, but you made a full recovery and are fine now.
Then you had a boozy-hungover phase, like just about everyone does.
Now you pick fights with your mom cos she does things - that don't affect you in any way - that you don't like?
Not growing up doesn't excuse you coming on here to call random posters niggers and gorillas and all sorts of silly shit.
You need to toughen up and learn to mind your own business.
These things weren't as simple as listing it and going "ohhh you got through it so it wasn't anything".
Idiot.
Btw the only reason I am able to walk normally now is because I demanded my dumb bitch mother to take me to a doctor and she finally agreed to and they told the stupid whore it was broken, which I knew all along. -
2019-06-11 at 5:23 AM UTC in I keep having cryptic dreams related to child trafficking/sex cults/slavery
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2019-06-11 at 5:19 AM UTC in I keep having cryptic dreams related to child trafficking/sex cults/slaveryAre you implying that I'm like Ted Bundy or that I could have been kidnapped and then cannibalized?
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2019-06-11 at 5:05 AM UTC in My mom is a fucking idiot
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2019-06-11 at 5:04 AM UTC in I keep having cryptic dreams related to child trafficking/sex cults/slaveryTed?
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2019-06-11 at 4:21 AM UTC in My mom is a fucking idiotbtw I think I have been experimented on by the deep state using sophisticated classified technology.
One time when I was living in a hotel I was on the phone with my mom and I started talking to her about BCI tech and age reversal/longevity and I enthusiastically said "we'll live forever!" and suddenly right behind me inside the room a voice of a man saying "No you won't" appeared .... I know that wasn't a fucking hallucination either someone was in the hallway and they were snooping on my conversation and his voiced echoed into the room and sounded like it was coming from behind me or that was voice-to-skull type technology. -
2019-06-11 at 4:13 AM UTC in My mom is a fucking idiot
Originally posted by mashlehash I'm going to smoke a bowl and think better of you, that's what I'm going to do.
I wish I had some weed right now and my CRT set up with pseudotv live loaded with tons of channels of 1970s - 2000s tv ... I would lie down on my bed snuggled with my cats and just sit there like a veggie not even paying attention to the shows just absorbing the atmosphere.
I would close my eyes and imagine myself being back at my grandparents and the year being 2006 and I would fantasize about going about my day as if nothing ever changed. -
2019-06-11 at 4:12 AM UTC in My mom is a fucking idiot
Originally posted by WellHung Understood. im sorry, man. i just hope that somehow things will get better for you. I understand that sometimes death may be the better option… but I hate to advocate for it, Until you've exhausted all other options.
Well for starts I should never drink alcohol again.
I spent the last decade straight going through a process of drinking, recovering from hangovers and then drinking and recovering from hangovers and then straight to being high nonstop for five years.
I might buy a treadmill soon so that should help me some.
Idk, the only thing I can try to do is exercise and stay away from substances then maybe after a few years I'll feel decent again.
As for everything else, my thinking and way of living is very different from how you know life so telling me things like getting a girlfriend and "going out in the world" isn't going to solve anything.
I wouldn't mind having a girlfriend though, but she would have to be understanding of my lifestyle and if she were like me and that introverted then she would probably be too psychologically/mentally ill for our relationship to work ...
You know what would make me really happy is to be able to make enough from my bedroom doing programming or music so I could sustain myself.
My plan B besides killing myself is to live in virtual reality and then full-immersion virtual reality ... my ultimate goal in existence is to exist in my own private reality using brain to computer interface technology, which is possible but the key to that is will the tech be available to the public in time and will it be open and free or used for evil (surveillance and mind control).
I'm not so hopeful ... https://www.zerohedge.com/news/2019-06-09/darpa-wants-thought-controlled-weapons-finding-ways-read-soldiers-minds -
2019-06-11 at 4:06 AM UTC in My mom is a fucking idiot
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2019-06-11 at 3:40 AM UTC in My mom is a fucking idiotHere is the thing though
I don't feel good enough to do any of those things, ever since spine surgery and alcoholism I have felt so lethargic and sickly, I have very little energy and I always feel like I have some sort of flu and when I go outside the sunlight makes me feel nervous and my breathing is very difficult.
I tried working at walmart for a few months and it was so difficult, I could hardly focus and on a few occasions I would blackout/lose track of time.
I don't even have any desire to do anything, what I can do and what makes me happy is to stay inside and live on the internet as I always have, but I realize that it's changing and someday maybe web sites like this won't even be alive, though there will be virtual reality but then I'll have to deal with accusations of pedophilia for trying to be myself and of course there is the whole surveillance issue with eye tracking and every momevemnt in the engine being recorded and logged in a database somewhere.
All I want is to travel back to the year 2000 and once 2006 ends time resets itself and I find myself back in the year 2000, over and over.
That is the only way I can be happy because the way things were and the world was back then is my environment, it's my life. -
2019-06-11 at 3:34 AM UTC in My mom is a fucking idiot
Originally posted by Technologist Sound familiar?
Fuck you.
That does not describe me, I am transaged.
I am a child in an adult body.
It sucks too because people will just label us as crazy or pedophiles.
There isn't even a wikipedia article for this.
And I know I'm not alone, there should be millions of other people out there who live their whole lives psychologically a certain age. -
2019-06-11 at 3:29 AM UTC in My mom is a fucking idiot
Originally posted by WellHung If you did that, how would that make your mom feel?
She would cry and feel bad because she feels obligated to but she wouldn't truly care on an intellectual/interpersonal level.
I think she might be fucked in the head some way, she seems normal enough on the surface but she's very intellectually/emotionally stunted. -
2019-06-11 at 3:28 AM UTC in My mom is a fucking idiot
Originally posted by mashlehash What bicycle accident?
I was riding a bike with broken brakes, went down a concrete hill and I couldn't stop so I fell off the bike and landed face first onto the concrete.
I was paralyzed and in a state of shock but I realized that if I didn't squrim my way out of that state I would be stuck in it forever so I shook myself out and rolled over crying/screaming for help.
A grown man walked right by me and didn't do a single thing and my piece of shit friends slowly walked over to pick me up and help me back to their house.
Not a single person even took what I went through seriously ... I went a couple years being unable to walk normally, my right leg was unable to stretch out because I had broken my ACL, but my stupid bitch mother kept telling me I just sprained it "it's just a sprain it's just a sprain!!" "But mom it's been a year and I still cant' stretch my leg out".
I really ... FUCKING HATE that miserably stupid infantile braindead bitch and I REGRET everyday that she had to be my mother.
It's bad enough I have a soulless father who never tried to contact me (even worse because he does all this charity work and pretends to be this wonderful neighborly man everyone loves) but I also have to live with a soulless retard mother.
I have no one
My one friend I do have is an asshole and I don't really have anything in common with him
The only people I do have are my cats so I'll stick around long enough for them but once they pass away I'm going to kill myself one way or another, whether it be assisted suicide or jumping in front of a bus or train.