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2019-03-10 at 4:38 PM UTC in Having sex with one guy doesn't make you gayI have attracted gays out on the town when in the company of females. They confuse my relaxed, friendly persona as me actually having more than an interest intellectually. I find a lot of them have a secret agenda or try to push the boundaries. This only fuels my desire to commit hate crimes and stab them to death.
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2019-03-10 at 4:26 PM UTC in Octavian's favorite Roman emperor was Nero...Meh, I'm more Aurelius or Severus.
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2019-03-10 at 4:21 PM UTC in Polecat and I have already waked and baked this morning...
Originally posted by jedi_darryl Am I like the only black doppelgänger person on this site who pretends to act like I’m smoking weed like “yeah nigs im high af right now n not giving a fuk” n shit just to fit in round’ here with you guys? Man, either your successful lives makes you still feel miserable, or that peer pressuring makes you mentally weak. No offense, please don’t take it wrong way. Weed is not good for your health and state of mind. Can’t you see how it manipulates your mind into doing irrational things that you called it “fun”? If you were sober you’d probably think it was stupid. You see? Smoking weed makes you stupid. That’s why I don’t indulge in that substance.
Dazza
Don't feel like you have to pretend to take drugs to fit in here. Some of us practice intermittent sobriety or just drink occasionally.
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2019-03-10 at 4:17 PM UTC in Polecat and I have already waked and baked this morning...
Originally posted by gadzooks You're pretty much spot on there.
The thing is, crack is VERY short lasting, but it is BY FAR the most euphoric drug in existence if you get the good stuff.
Its literally 30-60 seconds of a high for $5-$10… The thing is, though, it's just absolutely divine.
MDMA comes pretty darn close, and lasts way longer, but it's not easy to just go out in the streets and grab some. It's a slightly more niche product. I live in a ghetto hood where everyone does meth and heroin, and a handful do coke, crack, or GHB.
I only sniff Flake Cocaine as opposed to the 1:1 bashed you can get anywhere. Nothing is ever "pure", but that flake is damn gooood. It's like the creame de la creme of coke around here and jaw swingingly good. Not really what you want if you're out on the town unless your tolerance is high. I should imagine that would be good for making crack with albeit that's not my poison. The MDMA is also supreme but not taken in years. -
2019-03-10 at 4:07 PM UTC in Polecat and I have already waked and baked this morning...What are your experiences with Nootropics? I got some years ago and damn nearly turned me retarded. I thought they were suppose to make you smart, not give you brain fog.
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2019-03-10 at 1:52 PM UTC in What y'all reading?
Originally posted by gadzooks I have a strong penchant for reading portions of books, and then just researching summaries and reviews and discussions online to fill in some of the blanks.
Apparently, though, Camus wrote an essay, or series of essays/lectures, on the fundamental problem of suicide.
In fact, he was likely influenced by some of the Hellenistic Stoic philosophers. Most of them were supportive of a person's right to terminate their own lives.
Aurelius is a personal favorite, and I have read through his Meditations a few times over the years.
But The Stranger and The Myth of Sysiphys are relatively light reading and, I admire the Shulginsrespect, because they were the original diversified drug supply
It's mad how similar our interests are. I actually have a copy of meditations on my bedside table but not got around to reading it fully. Stoicism is truly a great philosophy to live by. If all the emperors had that mindset, I believe the Empire would have lasted longer, if not still be around today. -
2019-03-10 at 1:30 PM UTC in General Chat
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2019-03-10 at 1:27 PM UTC in I bet none of you have ever even been outside of the US
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2019-03-10 at 1:26 PM UTC in I bet none of you have ever even been outside of the US
Originally posted by gadzooks Is that the ~800 AD Viking invasions on the North side of the British Isles?
Yeah around that year. I would very much like to visit all the disolved monastries as well, I love the architecture, or what's left of it. I need to invest in a good metal detector and go sometime. Who knows, I could find some valuable coins 'n shit. -
2019-03-10 at 1:14 PM UTC in General Chat
Originally posted by Lanny Grant is my favorite general, followed by Aurelius (if he counts) but I'll always have a soft spot in my heart for Ike.
Alexander the Great, that guy was a persistent mother fucker.
My favs are Phyrrus & Scipio Africanus. The latter didn't even get the credit he deserved.
Sulla was also another notable character. He's the only leader ever to retire from public life other than Diocletian hundreds of years later. -
2019-03-10 at 1:06 PM UTC in What are you doing at the moment
Originally posted by CASPER Ditto.
Drugs weren't the problem in and of themselves. They just seem to put me in a stasis where it's so easy to lose time. When I thought I was stupid and useless and fucked up, it didn't really make any difference to me. Now that I know "I" am still here, and that I'm still good at a lot of things, I feel like I don't want to waste any more time. I stopped talking to friends I've known for 15 years. I just want to constantly be moving forward…even if it's just a tiny bit at a time. I want the people around me to do well too, and I want them to reciprocate the energy and time I give them. Case in point…the girl I've been talking to for a year and a half or so. She's got multiple degrees in chemistry and literature, she's got good taste and she's a musician and actress, model. She's nerdy and kind of quiet. But she's also rich and spoiled. She flakes on commitments, and then plays the victim card when someone calls her on it. She only really puts in effort when she thinks she's being ignored or disliked….which is a completely fucked cycle to get into. I basically told her that I might have put up with that shit when I was sad and mopey and strung out, but now that i feel good and revitalized, I'm completely ambivalent. I genuinely hope she does well, and I'd love to spend time with her, but if she doesn't get her shit together, I'm just going to cut off all contact. I want people around me that make me feel good, and where I can be myself, and work towards great new shit.
Good to hear Casper, I hope you do carry on proceeding forward. It's sad hearing about people who have so much potential but do fuck all with it. A lot of people seem "content", that's both bad and good. By all means if that person is happy with what they have then so be it, you could always say they're more happy than we will ever be cause we're striving to achieve said happiness. It's as if they've finished their chaotic journey and arrived.
We're still trying to find a way to get there. -
2019-03-10 at 12:58 PM UTC in I bet none of you have ever even been outside of the USGrylls you can come with me to Lindisfarne and learn about the the first Viking invasion, soak up some scenery.
Forget the country, we would actually be leaving our counties. -
2019-03-10 at 12:36 PM UTC in What are you doing at the moment
Originally posted by gadzooks Snorting special K and drinking root beer schnapps and trynna decide if I should start a criminal enterprise like on Breaking Bad or stick to the straight and narrow and get a secure low six figure job and settle down and have kids and a white picket fence and then die and decompose underground and have nothing to show for anything decades from now.
In the end the white picket fence option is worth it man. This isn't to say you can't have a little side earner. In relation to Casper's previous post about cutting "social fat", I'm starting more and more to warm to this idea except my analogy would be amputating the gangrenous tissue before it spreads, e.g. those around me that are less ambitious or a hindrance to my improvement. I've spent so much time in the presence of ass holes that need chemicals to socialize it's become somewhat normal and highly detrimental to both my health and finances. Unlike them I always have a way to procure more and more but I'm only just supplementing their own habits and parasitical behaviour to be around me.
Then I close my eyes and think, I could have invited the girl next door who only drinks, have good intellectual conversation, get extremely drunk and have wild sex. I would wake up in the morning a little hungover but I would have no regrets, not be depressed as fuck; and would have probably saved a fuck ton of money.
This is not saying I don't enjoy chemicals, I really do. It just feels like a repetitive cycle and I don't want to be the guy who's still wearing the t shirt. -
2019-03-10 at 12:17 PM UTC in Finally know why NIS is full of spamming kidiots***unsubscribes***
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2019-03-10 at 12:17 PM UTC in Finally know why NIS is full of spamming kidiots
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2019-03-10 at 12:06 PM UTC in What y'all reading?
Originally posted by gadzooks I've been meaning to read that. I have both an English translation and original French copy (I was in French immersion all throughout grade school).
All I remember about what parts of the book I read was the stuff about how Mercault or whatever apparantly got triggered by the heat of the sun and got stab-happy from it.
That's some badass shit.
Imagine having your defense attorney in court trying to argue that you stabbed a motherfucker cuz it was too hot out.
If I remember right Meursault just does it cause he can and why should he be restrained by the laws of man of what to and not to do. I think that was the theme I can't remember. I was 13/14 when I read it so I'll probably read it again. What's his other material like?
I was always meant to read Huxley's "Brave new world", I heard good things. I am also very eager to read "Utopia", by Thomas More who Henry VIII had executed. It was suppose to be ahead of it's time, even the USSR had a special affection for this man hundreds of years later. -
2019-03-10 at 11:35 AM UTC in What y'all reading?I read "The s-t-r-a-n-g-e-r" by Camus years ago but didn't find it as good as I thought it would be.
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2019-03-10 at 11:24 AM UTC in Finally know why NIS is full of spamming kidiots**unsubscribes**
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2019-03-10 at 2:29 AM UTC in Random Thoughts*unsubscribes*
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2019-03-10 at 2:28 AM UTC in What y'all reading?
