2017-08-27 at 8:33 PM UTC
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If you could fight any nigga
did you just watched fight club or something ???
2017-08-26 at 11:49 PM UTC
in
Tell me a sad story.
when i was 12 i attempted rape. i lured one of my classmate into the pantry beneath the staircase. in it there were some mattresses that we use for PE lessons for things like high jump and things like that.
once inside i just shove her onto the stack of mattresses and wedged myself in between her legs. when i hatched the idea of doing a rape i thought it was going to be as simple as 123 and as easy as abc but it turned out i was wrong becos i didnt factor in the fact that at around the age of 11-12 girls develop faster and more than boys their age, and that i picked a ''meaty'' girl that was bigger and taller than me and in addition to my scrawny physique ... meant that i was doing a herculean thing.
and i didnt know how wrong i was until i found myself struggling just to keep her lying still on the mattresses, much less being able to undo her top, i couldnt restrain her hands with my hand by grabbing her wrists. so i gave up trying to do a proper, full-course rape and just tried to get it done as fast as possible so i pulled down my pants and tried to rip her panty off like the way i see them do it on tv but couldnt becos either she was wearing some super strong panty or i was a very weak boy i dont know.
so i backed up a little bit and thats when one of her foot landed on my belly while the other om my chest, like a kangaroo kicking a beach ball and i was sent airborne onto the wall behind me. i hit my head so hard against the wall i was kinda dizzy and i cant remember how or where she got that scissor, its the kind of paper craft scissor thats about 3inches long and had sharp pointed tip and suddenly now its she whos between my legs.
and she grabbed my penis and pulled it with one hand and laid the scissor to the base of my penis with the other. by this time i realize what was going on and got really scared and began to cry like a girl and squeal and beg her to stop. she didnt even threaten to cut it off, she just went about doing it.
i was so scarred i was even saying stupid shit like 'pls dont cut me i promise i'll be good i'll even wear a skirt and wont be bothering you all anymore (girls in my school used to despise me becos i'd always sneak up behind them and up their skirts. everybody, teachers included thought i did that for just for some harmless laughs but the truth is i did that for fapage material and the only only ones that didnt hate me for it were those around the age of 8-9 who thought it was funn to get up-skirted)
after a while i dont how long she finally relented and let go, which i didnt think was becos she forgave me or out of pity but becos quite a lot of blood was coming out. she was 3-5% into the cutting when she stopped. after she left i picked my self up and as i didnt have anything so i just rolled toilet rolls around my penis to stop the bleeding and i never told anyone about what happened becos i didnt know how to explain it and was afraid that if i told them the truth i'd got the cut off by them, whoever, instead.
after like two weeks the wound healed leaving behind a scar about 5mm long and i dont know whether it was physical trauma or a mental one but eversince that fateful day i never again being capable of an erection.
and just like that, in less than 3 minutes, a boys life got a big fat marker line that turned one part into a before ... and the rest into the after.
sometimes when i couldnt sleep i'd just lie on my bed with the lights off and let tears roll freely down my cheeks while i chants, repeatedly in my head, hoping that if gotts exist, that they would, some of them would, or maybe one of them would hear me.
i just want them to know, that i didnt deserve any of this.
