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2020-01-30 at 6:01 PM UTC in The Recovery Thread (The Other TRT)The following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire!
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2020-01-31 at 2:24 AM UTC in what's the last thing you bought?good. real recognizing real. clotheslines on the nips tooThe following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire!
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2020-01-29 at 2:42 PM UTC in The Recovery Thread (The Other TRT)
Originally posted by CASPER Have you been sober for any period of longer than….a month or two?
that in can remember in 29 yrs...the longest was 5 and half months..i was working on two crews construction and renovations. i worked 6 days/well over 60 hrs a week during that period and about 3 months when i went back to drinking. i am a fat bastard but i was such a work horse then i hardly was ever tired. maybe 2-3 hrs tops a night sleep and that was more than enough. my right wrist and back were a lot stronger then too...i could take the punishment/grind and than some. arthiristic...whatever sp? in the wrist and a chronic back problem developed i needed the booze to deal with it...docs were suggesting surgery and taking off x amount of time off work THAT I COULDN'T AFFORD TO DO..and the booze helped...than with all the pills...don't aks what i just took whatever i could get my hands on...than i got fired from both jobs
even when both bosses fired me...each was like i'm drunk and high right now...why should i care? i probably had that expression my face too. didn't effect me at all...even losing all that money i was just making over like 8-9 months...i saved up most of what i made during that time too. all i cared about was..i was drunk and high again...well more so numb...at least i still felt something
one thing that always bothered me when i was working like a mad man...everything during that period like birthdays, parties, being around friends, all the good shit in life...sober me was just a fucking zombie. i barely reacted to anything good going on around me or with myself...some fam would be like smile so they can take a pic...or smile enjoy yourself..
i couldn't. it really bothered my father going back many yrs before that...he'd often observe and criticize me for that shit too...everything would be good at home as a kid. i rarely smiled or seemed to him i wasn't enjoying the good things...i just didn't feel much. much of the good shit was like whatever to me. yet when i first started drinking in my early teens my whole mood, personality..whatever wanna call it i was happy..he couldn't shut me up or anyone..didn't make sense to him and i always felt like i was being myself. that bothered him and it bothered me...too much history but i really became a real piece of shit to him and everyone and i just didn't care
fuck this thread. no offence bro but time to do what i do best in life...and time to forget about all the seriousness and bullshit in life. peace. send the bill in the mail. no doubt you're gonna charge me like i charge everyone else.The following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire! -
2020-01-29 at 2:10 PM UTC in The Recovery Thread (The Other TRT)The following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire!
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2020-01-29 at 2:10 PM UTC in The Recovery Thread (The Other TRT)
Originally posted by CASPER With as much as you talk about cramming things in your shitpussy, i was sure you were a tweaker?
In any case, whats the end game?;Just live the way youre living, until you die? Get drunk until you win the lottery?
once a tweaker. for roughly 10 years. a few mental breaks/stays, and alcohol have really skewed everything about myself, my views, beliefs..than got hooked on just about any pill i could find a family..friends houses. didn't care as long as it go rid of the anger for even an hr...tens of thousands of dollars i stole in pills for this, that, your house...whenever i could...than got drunk. (i secretly from those closet to me beck then and now)enjoy mine own misery...i really do througout all the yrs but what has developed slower is enjoying the misery i cause others because of my addictions...and the misery just going on in their lives
when i'm sober i really don't feel much of anything anymore. i literally log off now...lose myself in netflix and next thing i know its already tomorrow...without a drink i just don't care about whats going on outside
at least when i'm drunk or high on something i feel something...anything even if its fleeting...i'm in my 29th year of drinking and its the one constant in my life...i have never been able to rely on anyone..turn to...or trust enough...except for one person and she killed herself
but i always have the bottle...and it'll be in my hands in my coffin. only one i'll ever have in this and the so called after life. i really hope its all just nothing though..guess i can finally have peace of mind. than on the other hand i wouldn't be able to suffer and see others suffer. so fucked in life and death.The following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire! -
2020-01-29 at 12:57 PM UTC in what's the last thing you bought?hope you don't mind...its *sleazy* not trying to cat fight you or anything of the sortThe following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire!
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2020-01-29 at 3:29 AM UTC in The Recovery Thread (The Other TRT)i get drunk and the empty bottle ass fucks me afterward
always helps when i'm drinking with a guy...but its not a mandatory thing either...The following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire! -
2020-01-26 at 11:58 PM UTC in Helping old ladies cross the streeti have with older men. usually got a dime or a quarter out of it when i was a wee youngin. as i got older and did it i ended up in the homes. i was asked tor perform for them in a sexual manner...some were gentle and some were really sick fuckers. still as bad as it was i did get paid...so i got over the HURT quickly enough.The following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire!
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2020-01-28 at 10:56 PM UTC in How many funerals have you been to?
Originally posted by mmQ Damn that sounds kinda heavy. Both parents and 4 siblings of yours have died and you're only 43?
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surprisingly get used to it more and more with...old age lol. i was never close to either parent. my mother was an astrology paranormal nut paranoid about everything...and mostly lived in her own lil world rather than look after/raise any kids..my father hated me because i turned into everything he despised in this world..and i never really showed him any respect. she died at 64..pretty much natural causes in her sleep..my father had a degenerative thingy...he was 71 but look like he was a 100...and under 100lbs...he was like over 250 most of his life...drugs and shit over the yrs didn't help him. my siblings in order car accident, double heart attack at work, and cancer. they were all focused on themselves and their lives early on so never was close to them...just phone calls and holiday gatherings so nothing to really miss.
it was shocking to me to see my dad though 6 months before he past...we both hated each other but seeing him what he had become...i almost cried that day but not at his funeral. i could finally move on from all the anger, how we treated each other...The following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire! -
2020-01-28 at 10:34 PM UTC in How many funerals have you been to?going on the big 44 in november. so i was very fortunate...not many deaths early life. its more than made up for the last 10..maybe 12 yrs.
only a couple really have ever made a lasting impression on me. the rest i'd go for the free coffee, donuts, or whatever was available..and not smile..so people thought i caredThe following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire! -
2020-01-28 at 4:33 PM UTC in Kobe Bryant killed in helicopter crashcan you imagine the triggeranomics if it was HERstory all along and not Hisstory? especially on Twitter oh brotherThe following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire!
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2020-01-26 at 11:41 PM UTC in Our power got cut offFuck the French though! Fucking jedis of the modern world. Burn them all...well 95% of them any wayThe following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire!
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2020-01-24 at 2:51 PM UTC in What are you listening to right now, space nigga?The following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire!
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2020-01-24 at 2:57 PM UTC in What are you listening to right now, space nigga?NOW...but all of Journey is so underrated overall. Dude lead singer how such an early life understanding about so much. I try not to "stop believing" probably one of main reasons I still live...but whatever these dude is on....high on life always...consistent motherfucker. gotta look up to him. no hard life got...he was he was always
cheers manThe following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire! -
2020-01-24 at 4:04 AM UTC in How are you feeling at the moment..just keep it real...
although i might be a lil plumper in personThe following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire! -
2020-01-24 at 4 AM UTC in How are you feeling at the moment..The following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire!
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2020-01-24 at 3:42 AM UTC in Random Thoughtswe should trade signs...being a scorpio is too much of a burden on me. i need a change sisThe following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire!
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2020-01-24 at 3:11 AM UTC in How are you feeling at the moment..its that PMS thing woman have. it makes them rage, vomit, and like shit like linda blair in the exorcistThe following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire!
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2020-01-24 at 2:04 AM UTC in How are you feeling at the moment..you seem like a mellower pam grier on the outside, inside you are probably a annie wilkes aka misery type nigga
kinda scary...but in a delightfully fun way...someone that you can trust NOT to tell anyone where are all the bodies you have keep...
you are a true FISHYThe following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire! -
2020-01-22 at 6:30 PM UTC in Waiting on an inheritanceontario...
too many places to name but couple hrs northeast/west/just north of toronto is a good start. georgian bay especially the islands, muskoka, the kawarthas..
just don't go too far up north...like timmins...fucking hate that place..
if you go in god's country north like dryden and shit...you can easily solid fix'r uppers for under 100k...than you got 100kor so to put into your dream home...if you are the handy fucker type. if you want move in ready shit...harder to find but there are quite few out there if you search hard enoughThe following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire!
