2020-02-19 at 9:03 PM UTC
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🍬🍬Candy~Land🍬🍬
Dregs
African Astronaut
[that freakishly double-edged allmouth]
Candy is such a shit disturber and troll. I couldn't even manage a single turd because of this bitch. Fucking woman and their horns up my ass without permission...although FULL permission on my ONLYFANS
fuck you...I lost out on a lot of money but love ya always deep down in my liver and colon baby
Dregs
African Astronaut
[that freakishly double-edged allmouth]
Didn't mean to say "Fuck you" in the other thread. Just fucked up...Canuckian Late Owen Hart had a sayin ENOUGH IS ENOUGH, ITS TIME FOR A CHANGE...HE SPEAKs to me on many levels. Time I can and embrace all thats been right in front of my face all along.
Done. Maybe see ya on the flip side C. The other side is where I need to be..good and evil wise. Thank you for making me see myself for what I've always been Casper.
Later folks...I'll be back once the embracing has taken 100% of me. Hahahahaha. Have fun.
Dregs
African Astronaut
[that freakishly double-edged allmouth]
Well 29th yr as an alcoholic for me. I hope my brain is the same resilience as yours does when I do seriously do what I'm saying I am gong to do. Life is getting shorter and shorter...my body will say enough is enough...if not fail on me soon with this suffering. I gotta do it soon...more time is not promised.
Any ways..time to get drunk..have fun today..
Slap myself around and get serious tomorrow. Have a good one dude.
2020-02-19 at 2:56 PM UTC
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The Blade Runner movies
Dregs
African Astronaut
[that freakishly double-edged allmouth]
I don't agree but I must thank that post. Its definitely one of his best and I think very few other actors could have done so well in that role. Most of them were dead by the time that movie was being made though. Plus I believe most actors would OVERACT in the part. He always had a certain level of detachment from each of his characters. No knock on Nicholson, Pacino, De Niro...but dudes like that would go WAY OVER THE TOP in a role like that.
Hitcher and Night Hawks for me... Both brilliant but even than so much more could have been done with them.
Dregs
African Astronaut
[that freakishly double-edged allmouth]
Yeah I honestly know its worth a shot. Just have to get a lot more tougher with myself and stop many so many excuses...or letting distractions to veer me off in so directions. My mind is just all over the place..yet somehow remain detached from much of it. Leading me to be confused and convinced I need a drink. So weird to make a single post describing it all in a crystal clear way. This brain won't allow itself to be crystal clear to itself or anyone. Very vague and foggy up there 99% of the time UNLESS I got the RAGE on a particular day and its perfectly understood.
I still like to believe I got a lil Rocky Balboa in me. I used to watched that series over and over for any bit of inspiration. Really sad I know but Stallone has always been the father I wanted..and maybe Daddy in the sexual sense. I mean...
Thanks...If I ever make it 2 weeks I will promise EVERYONE on here to post my Hobo with a Shot GUN mug. Beard is getting there. My stache though is getting a lil weird and slowing growing than the beard...which has never happened. Hmm. Plus it will give y'all something to laugh at endlessly my ugly piece of shit mug...shot
Dregs
African Astronaut
[that freakishly double-edged allmouth]
stays up for days at a time OR off/on naps/sleeps like 4hrs sober..drunk anything over 8 hrs...up to 16-7.
piss
have a few coca cola classics
catch up on all the sites/forums i lurk and or post on
stare out the window approx. 2hrs a day...listening to traffic, daydreaming, and watching people...certain types of people very closely
spend time with my pussy about a couple hrs a day on him
have a few very vague rage fits...OR lose myself in online shit where I don't feel a thing..or both.
i cook 1 if not 3 meals for myself a day...i actually seem to cook/bake a lot when i'm drunk. kills time when nothing going on online or on netflix to watch.
i try to find my cock constantly. to no avail.
randomly call relatives that don't give a fuck about me but i don't care what their schedule is...random journies to their houses, cottages...for hrs...sometimes weeks. bug the fuck out of them get free food and booze. steal any change/cash they have laying around.
drink more coke or whisky depending on the day
netflix
at night eat a lot and watch netflix OR go out and stalk people for no real honest reason lol
either fall asleep bored or drunk...post online all night...or just wander around the city all night with a 26'r or at some strip club. if and when i got the money to do so
and repeat...
Dregs
African Astronaut
[that freakishly double-edged allmouth]
Not sure if I still have the message...deleted some yesterday but I think Oct is dead by now. He sounded like he was in a really dark place and got a shitload of something can't remember but sounded like he was going to be dead.
So maybe a RIP is in order as we my never hear from or see another post from him again.
Dregs
African Astronaut
[that freakishly double-edged allmouth]
Had a little slip..
Fallen can't get up..as DMX would be say..
Ugh made it almost 3 days. Fucking so disappointed in myself..yet on the other hand a proud piece of shit.
I'll start back up tomorrow..maybe I don't know. Just wanna feel alive..and this shit is the only thing that does..or close to it does. I hate being sober...I feel utter rage at myself and the world SOMETIMES but most of the time really nothing. I want to..I gotta feel something right now. If I can't feel this way...I'm seriously going to BOOM and I am at a place where I don't care about much anymore.
Sorry Doc C...know you are coming from a genuine place when you reply to me.. Ugh. I know you wanna beat the shit of me. Same here.
Once this bottle and day is gone I will start over.
2020-02-19 at 2:38 AM UTC
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🍬🍬Candy~Land🍬🍬
Dregs
African Astronaut
[that freakishly double-edged allmouth]
So that wasn't your apartment? Damn. I've been sober for over 60hrs now...guess this is just gonna get weirder and weirder.
Carry on then.
Dregs
African Astronaut
[that freakishly double-edged allmouth]
i'm having a VISION CANDY...
a PSYCHIC INNER PISCEAN FEELING...
Ready for this...and put it all together in YO HEAD
MATT AND FINNY ARE THE SAME PERSON!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
2020-02-19 at 2:26 AM UTC
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🍬🍬Candy~Land🍬🍬
Dregs
African Astronaut
[that freakishly double-edged allmouth]
so selfies and you castrate men in bathrooms on breaks...your smile is all because of the agony on the face of man you castrating
sick bitch..probably uses pliers first for twisting..than we you get off on it..
you use an x-acto swifty on his cock...resting his neck gently on a pillow
2020-02-19 at 2:21 AM UTC
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Random image thread
Dregs
African Astronaut
[that freakishly double-edged allmouth]
*music hits*...nigger dancing and lip synching to "can't touch this" all the while he jizzin shadow cream on all dem white folk.
Dregs
African Astronaut
[that freakishly double-edged allmouth]
Maybe GOD is blessing me slowly with the Corona shit. Only 8 cases in Canada but maybe I will get the worst case yet and put me out of my damn misery.