Originally posted by Jesus Christ
if you're such a chad then what are you even doing on a site like this? Shouldn't you be on facebook bragging about your normie life while hooking up with sluts?
this isn't a site for incels you fucking moron. being a degenerate doesn't mean you can't get fucked
actually had a pretty decent day today after uncontrollably crying (RIP LIL PEEP) for a while right after i woke up. socialized w/ people all day at work and then i saw an old friend and she bought me some dank fries and then later one of my normie friends who i haven't seen in years hit me up and asked me to come to some bbq on saturday. it'll probably be kinda weird but w/e
Originally posted by CASPER
Yeah my friend has been recommending zoloft, and i kinda know i need to be on something, but ive always been afraid of some irreversible changes or the rebound depression from ceasing dosage. If im at a 6-7 everyday on my best day (10 being i pull the trigger), I dont even want to know what id be like withdrawing.
Still…being able to bang forever seems cool.
Not having as much anxiety seems cool
Having more energy seems cool
Not hating everything and everyone and getting easily annoyed to the point i picture myself crushing someones larnyx while theyre in the middle of pretending that they "just cant find" their mailbox key for the 122nd time this year….would be cool.
Idk. Im a wreck. I wish antidepressants took effect more quickly so i could just take it for a week n see how i liked it.
honestly you just need to go sober off the opiates for a long ass time. opiate addicts are full of shit most of the time and don't realize it takes a long time for your brain to get back to normal after being addicted. i wasn't even using that heavily or for nearly as long as you did and i quit in march and just now am starting to feel the depression lift. you probably need like a year. it sucks but that's reality and the time is going to pass regardless
i stopped being high 24/7 and now i feel real anxiety. i had more anxiety when i was strung out but it was always extremely short sighted an in the moment anxiety. now i feel the weight of the universe, life, death, work, the need to find companionship all lurking around molding my personality. it's all more and more in my control every day. weed has stopped being entertaining and memes are downright retarded. it's painful as fuck and every goddamn day it's like my mind is processing another chunk of fucked up shit from the past. i'm weird right now but i can feel my new self emerging slowly. going backwards isn't really something i can do now, i'd rather just kill myself if that's the route i'm going down because there's no point in having to do 4 different drugs around the clock to deal with life and then just having it all crash down around you and being miserable.
this summer is going to suck (again), but in 2-3 months i'm going to be an entirely new person. i'm interested to see what the future holds.
alright, i'm done blogging. go ahead and berate me, shit talkers
I told you I ain’t right, you knew it going in Just shut the fuck up if you wanna be a friend I don’t want to stretch you more than you extend I don’t want to spit in the hand that you lend I did it to myself, I get what I deserve Thoughts in my head, feel like a raw nerve I’m lookin' for an answer, I don’t want to hurt but I just want to sleep when I’m tired of earth
