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2018-10-13 at 12:43 AM UTC in When I was young I took a shit in the urinal
Originally posted by Ughhu No live in Canada. Reflecting on my childhood I must have been mad at the world. Divorced family lotsa drama.
This carried into my teens and early 20s. Not urinals but I would piss in garbage cans, fill toilets with paper towel, shit on the floor. Anything I could do to ruin another persons day.
Maybe I need a therapist.
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Sounds like you were abused or neglected -
2018-10-13 at 12:40 AM UTC in Evidently the internet in america is turning off in the next two daysLol this is just a wigger version of Alex Jones
Detecting his audience to his patreon yeah uh huh it's tot not because you want them all giving you their money
This guy is just pushing fear porn for views.
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2018-10-13 at 12:31 AM UTC in When I was young I took a shit in the urinalOp are you from a mideastern or African country by any chance
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2018-10-13 at 12:29 AM UTC in Evidently the internet in america is turning off in the next two days
Originally posted by -SpectraL The feds have spies everywhere, posing as everyday people, inside companies, out on the street, everywhere you go. Some of your closest friends, and even relatives, could very well be on the payroll of the feds. If someone were to try a series of coordinated attacks, it's pretty well a given that the feds will know about it in advance.
I think I was approached by one of those people back in 2009 or so ..
It was some long haired guy in his late 40s yelling outside like a schizo then he walked into the taco Bell I was in.
He talked to me and my friend for like an hour about the jedis and their plot to take over the world 1x1 the exactly type of stuff you'll find on /pol/ but this was back before I even knew about the jedis or their ways.
I thought was it because I would post on 4chan all day everyday sometimes making threads about niggers and jedis.
Or was it purely a coincidence and there are many people out there who are aware of the jq and want to stop them.
Shit has gotten to be so weird these past few years I don't even know how to feel ... I'm just in shock by how surreal everything has become. -
2018-10-13 at 12:19 AM UTC in Evidently the internet in america is turning off in the next two daysBtw Halloween is such a blatant Illuminati tradition
I need to find ways for humanity to celebrate without evil forces being involved
I treat Nye like a holiday
There is also e3
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2018-10-13 at 12:17 AM UTC in Evidently the internet in america is turning off in the next two daysBtw I saw this suv on the road that had some sort of screen in his dashboard that looked like bright neon lights
I couldn't really make out what it was .. creepy shit ....
It was like some mkultra tier stuff.
It's also super dark out and really foggy ... It's very appropriate considering the season, it's Halloween month.
Oh and before that I was listening to strategies against architecture by einsturzende neubauten ... Really set the mood for me. -
2018-10-13 at 12:14 AM UTC in Evidently the internet in america is turning off in the next two daysI'll be listening to industrial CDs on my portable player while imagining dystopian scenarios
Hopefully this is nothing sinister and just some sort of upgrade on the net to prepare for 5g and the iot rollout -
2018-10-12 at 9:40 PM UTC in Fallout 76Bethesda is a joke and Todd Howard is a jedi
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2018-10-12 at 8:39 PM UTC in The state of gaming development and technology"indie" devs of today are trash
There are no games out worth playing
Maybe there are some games coming out of Japan that have some interesting qualities that are worth enough to play the game but the sad reality.is that gaming today is dead
Dead like Marco corbelli dead
There is no reason to even pick up a controller anymore -
2018-10-12 at 2:47 AM UTC in I'm turning my life around
Originally posted by Technologist Well that would take you getting rid of your hatred for jedis or blacks. That’s very negative emotions that will eat you up inside. If you’re truly busy thinking about bettering your life, what other people do won’t matter to you!
Wtf is wrong with that
Look, I'm bettering my life here I'm not seeking to become some politically correct sjw type
Also niggers are okay as long as they're in the Congo
jedis on the other hand ... are an actual threat to my civilization and life
They are evil incarnate. -
2018-10-12 at 2:05 AM UTC in I'm turning my life around
Originally posted by AngryOnion You still have time.
Start with exercise,walk 2 miles every morning.
Then after a month or so make it 3.
Diet eat 2 eggs every day and drink plenty of water stay hydrated.
After 6 months you will be amazed at how much better you feel,even if you keep drinkin and shit.
I was doing basically that back when I would play PGo, I used it as motivation for exercise/walking long distance.
Eggs and water, already been there.
I should do more physical exercises though like push ups and squats
Also I need to work on my mind, not allowing negativity to grab so much of my attention or ruminate on things. -
2018-10-12 at 1:45 AM UTC in Fucking dog owners...They're so adorbs
I love playing around with them and trying to communicate with them and understand their perspective and personality
Last year I was living with a woman who had a cat named Dipstick, we would play around all the time, he would come running up to my room checking the place out and scoping me out I would just absorb it all as I would with a human and actually engage with him
It's really special that you can actually have an experience like that with a non-human
When I get a home and a cat he's going to be my best friend -
2018-10-12 at 1:42 AM UTC in I'm turning my life aroundAlso why that question?
Is it because I claim to be of a higher plane than you?
It's because it's true
I'm not sorry
In a universe like this there can only be one truly real player character. -
2018-10-12 at 1:41 AM UTC in I'm turning my life around
Originally posted by Nil Have you ever considered that your superiority-complex is unfounded and maybe even a hindrance?
If you think you know everything then you have a lot to learn.
That's just the thing
I don't know everything, but when I come to a conclusion for something and get to the point where I know it to be true, I don't see any reason to acknowledge alternative viewpoints.
Maybe that's a hinderence but whatever -
2018-10-12 at 1:39 AM UTC in Fucking dog owners...fuck dogs they're useless, ugly and dumb (like handsome and well tanned individuals)
Why would anyone want a disgusting creature in their presence?
Sure some can be oogly and cuddly but they are so inferior to cats
cats are like real people
you can cuddle with them and like real people (dogs are NPCS) they get pissed off and leave if you invade their space for too long -
2018-10-12 at 1:36 AM UTC in I'm turning my life around
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2018-10-12 at 1:35 AM UTC in I'm turning my life aroundhttps://www.kickstarter.com/projects/morphcat-games/micro-mages-a-new-game-for-the-nes
My dream since I was around 12 - 13 was in creating something for the Playstation 2.
If I could find a development kit I could produce somethign for that that would also work in PCSX2.
The kind of game I have in mind right now is like a third person adventure game with existential and psychedelic themes (and no it has nothing to do with yume nikki I haven't even really played that game yet).
"Be the change you want to see"
Instead of sitting here feeling depressed because gaming as I knew and loved it is disappearing instead I should get up and start creating similar experiences to the ones I cherished so much.
Does anybody remember Disaster Report?
Or Dragon Quest VIII?
Or playing Yakuza 1 for the very first time .... (I was so in love with that game that I would play it in the garage during winter)
that feeling of going from top down GTA to GTA 3 and the first few moments of realizing you could move around anywhere and steal any car ... and the feeling of driving it randomly in a city outside of a pre-defined path ...
or the feeling of playing Deus Ex Invisible war and DE1 for the first times ... KOTOR ... Splinter Cell .... Timesplitters ..........
I want those feelings back
Nothing of today is doing it for me and I know it's not just nostalgia, those games had a very specific and special quality to them that I don't see in games of today.
I want to create that kind of experience again. -
2018-10-12 at 1:29 AM UTC in I'm turning my life aroundOkay so first of all I'm being serious
Part of this post is a call for help, because in writing this and receiving positive feeback I'll feel more encouraged (inb4 the obligatory totse and 4chan nihilistic responses) to do what it is I feel is truly necessary.
I need to make a change in how I live my life and the path I take for the rest of my life.
I'm not going to go too into detail because #1 that would take too long and #2 most of you probably wouldn't even care but anyways
Up until this point I have lived my life in a constant stupor of dopamine masturbation and drug addiction, well the drug addiction part didn't start until I was 18.
Anyhoo
A lot of my attitude is just exaggerated into a sort of persona, which I acknowledge that or I wouldn't really call it a persona but when I go on the internet I sort of let go of any sort of inhibition and will act out in any manner, no matter how abrasive or offensive (not that there is anything wrong with that I'm not becoming an sjw this is about other shit) and I go into 4chan mode where it's like ... I'm not how you humans would describe this but ... not bullying but you know when two guys get together and just downtalk each other, my friend would do that to me btw, but anyways I never enjoyed that kind of attitude and to be honest I prefer politeness and positivity ... no really.
So with that said ... when I see people talking about me on here or other forums I always think to myself "but that's not how I actually am" and get upset that none of you really know how I truly am as a person, which is wonderful and the greatest being in existence (I'll get to that later).
And with that out of the way. not only was I not being myself on the inernet, but out in the fleshnet I wasn't even living in my body.
Through drug use, imaginations, video games and the web I lived in a world that was purely mental, meanwhile my body in the fleshnet withered away.
The time has come for me to make a change and actually change my life and turn it around, find healthier ways to live.
I have a an alcohol problem okay that's easy to acknowledge but the hardest part was coming to the realization that marijuana is not for me and then thinking about losing all those moments I had with myself partying in my mind or in virtual reality ... (this is going to be a huge social issue in the coming years and decades)
If I continued with that ... I would lose my mind, I would have failed to live up to my childhood aspirations and desires, I would fail myself for being stuck in a position where I really desire for doing certain things (music production, game development etc) but am completely unable to due to my lack of knowledge and motivation.
It's not laziness (fuck you lanny) I have some kind of chemical imbalance.
But goddamn, this is all the push I have been looking for (being at an absolute ends with the sickness from drugs and the realization of my decline) to finally stop myself and do the things that are truly important in my life, but require a lot of determination.
I'm quitting drugs and bad influences/outlets that do nothing but depress and kill me inside.
I'm going to take up game development and programming and use all of my time to the fullest
No more will I waste away my life's potential and my time and waste in a locked state of endless nonsense.
This is my farewell to the wasted life of the past and a welcome to the new ... ugh I don't even feel clean using that word anymore. -
2018-10-11 at 11:30 PM UTC in i seriously typed this with my noseOP are you bored or somethin
Don't you have anything better to do with your time? -
2018-10-11 at 11:16 PM UTC in 🤢
