Originally posted by POLECAT
feeling used the next day was just part of life,, now its a crime
the one woman who stole my heart said she wasn't into me then asked for a massage the same night while all fucked up on heroin, nodding, in a tight pink dress. I wanted her.... i still do but I declined her invitation cuz the whole sitch seemed fucked up and like id be sticking my dick in a proverbial can of worms.
Rather just keep it transaction and bang hookers, fuck relationships and love too, especially love.
Originally posted by POLECAT
you giuys do realize that rape wasnt just copping a feel back in the day.
back in the day you could cop feels and acost women and it was excepted by the females,, they liked it,, you could even go so far as to grab one up and lay a big kiss on em and they would get all wet and start fucking,, it was magic not rape,, we live in a fucked up world
Yeah whats worse is they want to be taken, but to traverse the taboo in these times of moralistic insantity opens up men to waaaaaay too much bullshit. Fucking women.
This one chick i met i was all "you have a nice ass, may i?"
her?: uhhh if you like it grab my ass don't ask, either im into it or i slap you.
Thats how it should be, not wondering if you'll be labelled a rapist abuser of women because she had regrets.
Originally posted by mmQ
I've been on over 9000 rollercoasters. I once waited in line for 75 minutes to ride the batman coaster at six flags in Chicago. I KNOW lollercoasters.
You think you know rollercoasters? I havent ever ridden one but from my extensive research on the subject and my wayward ways give me DEEP insights in these phenomena and you're just some parvenu amatuere and AND a disgrace somehow.
Originally posted by Sophie
The meaning was in myself, it was my brains way of warning me, you talked about a doorway earlier and not being able to step back. It was like that.
You know thats the basis of a vision quest, yeah you're all fucked up cuz ur starving or ate that mushroom but the subjective personal experience and message is valuable.
Originally posted by Sophie
Agreed. Also, i could do this for hours, bro. I literally spend a good chunk of time each day thinking about these sorts of things.
Go and garden. Sell some daffodilz or nutmeg. Get to ur roots.
Maybe i should just go hunt and forage, drop the thoughts and situate myself in the world.
Originally posted by Sophie
If it's lack of curiosity they're not worthwhile to talk to, because they are not interesting. If it is fear, then they are cowards and if it's comfort in judgement then they are sadists, they just haven't realized it yet.
well put. then we should all do as we want and fight it out when we cant put up with ourselves anymore.
Stupid brain pulling meaning out of thin air, delusion is a hard thing to deal with because the mind starts making a bunch of spurious but seemingly significant links that create a whole unified perspective.
I wish i could have had things work out and i could have done my entheogens and take my dives into myself without being cast into a world of distrust and paranoia. Casting doubts into a world of suspicion to a man who can sometimes indulge in solipsistic skepticism is a cruel thing. Fuckers.
In all things Reason and Moderation and if insanity comes a calling its better to think, sit and come down to the earth, garden or swim or something. The intoxication of power where the only relation is domination and control and direction can be seductive but it's...... No. NO.
Imagine a doorway, beyond which if you step through you can't go back, strip back the veil and gaze upon all with no judgments and then try to explain the grand tableau and interconnected nature of all things, good and bad, with a frim if forlorn acceptance. Then to try and affirm it, all of it. Or at least that was the project i embarked on.
I ended up in the desert.
Is it lack of curioustity, fear of losing grip of their convictions or comfort in their judgement(s).
No need, i think we have an understanding, the simple men are numerous and simple doesn't mean dumb. They're just more secure in their beliefs and would nail men to a cross and feel good doing it.
As far as great evil goes.... yeah i feel that. We should hope the world stays steady cuz a few too many complex grinning monsters with a feeling that they have nothing to lose will unleash insanity.
I felt like that for a sec, and i swear I almost got thrown into a deep dark hole because of it. now I'm humbled and a little bit stockholm syndromed lol.
Originally posted by Sophie
I'm full of insanity, i usually try to restrain myself. Because i fear oversharing what actually goes on in my head will make everyone do a double take and i ain't talking about the noncery specifically.
Nobody wants to be laid bare, I'm no monster but I know some shit i think about and try to come to terms with is repugnant to most people. And when you spend your time plumbing the depths sometimes those monsters can pulled to the surface and dissected in the daylight. Decontextualised disgust for the simple man who happens to be looking.
