I've changed in some ways since I've been here, not really sure exactly when I joined I want to say 15, I was on redfern right before here. I've been through a lot of stuff since joining you fellow space cadets.....
I served out a felony charge
I was off and on homeless, like in a tent under a bridge homeless
I've overdosed countless times
I've been to rehab
I've been to sober living
Been back on the streets
Worked a bunch of different jobs, mostly temp day labor stuff
I lost my mom
I moved to a new state
I quit doing dope and hard stuff
I've been up and down fighting depression
So all this stuff I definitely feel has changed me in some way or other but I don't notice it. Probably one of those things like if I were to hang out with someone from my younger adulthood they would probably be like "damn, homie, you changed"
But that's life
The shit is all around us for free why the fuck do they charge us for it, I don't get it
Not necessarily, I worked at a large grocery store with my ex and I got fired for stealing (small amount that they knew of but I got away with A LOT) They notified police but I wasn't charged, he just kinda said he'd be keeping an eye on me (turned out that specific cop was really good to me, gave me warnings for lots of shit)
Fast-forward about a year and a half my ex was actually rehired at the same place and I was leery about going up there on her lunch break and seeing her. I finally said fuck it, what are they gonna do and started going up there because I wasn't told I couldn't I was just kinda ashamed for a bit but I got over it.
So if you weren't specifically told you weren't welcome there, fuck it go visit, they can't do anything but tell you they don't want you there and in that case if you went back it would be trespassing.
2023-08-09 at 3:37 PM UTC
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the forums are dead?
I don't think these kind of forums are necessarily dying but they have definitely seen better days. I only lurked on Totse but I remember it was really active and Zoklet definitely was. I haven't really been on too many other forums other than possibly finding one trying to Google something or some shit. But I definitely feel like they were more popular when social media wasn't as big as it is today. I think that's definitely the reason we aren't more active, nowadays the kids are on tik tok or the gram lol
Trying to calm my dog down, it's storming and she hates it and jumped in bed shaking and woke me up
I definitely don't think it's cool to be an addict but I'm also not ashamed of it at all. I'm doing my best not to be as fucked up as I used to be, I feel like I've been doing alright for a little while now. The only addictions I still indulge in are caffeine, nicotine, and Crouton. I think that's pretty good considering it used to be fentanyl and crack.
6 packs of Lucky Strikes I found that were 2 for $5 so I had to get them
Sad to say yes this is true. I was getting straight heroin for a while which was pretty rare but the last year or 2 that I was doing dope it was fentanyl, not even heroin mixed just fetty. I still think about it occasionally like I think I'd be alright to snort a little bit but they got that fuckin xylazine in it now and that huge abscess risk scares me so I guess that's good because it keeps me from going back. I guess I don't have a death wish anymore.
I did that yard sale with my grandparents when I was about 10. We drove from southern Ohio to north Alabama. It was pretty cool, I always loved road trips with them. That's the only time I've done it.
The fact of it not just being socially acceptable but also being fairly cheap is the main reason. Once you're at the point of being an alcoholic it's hard to quit because it has the worst withdrawal hands down, if it's serious you can't detox on your own you need a medical detox or you can die. I wish the stigma about drugs was different, alcohol being acceptable and having been around so long many people don't realize how dangerous it really is. I wish you all the best, I know it's not easy to quit.
I still consider myself an addict although I don't use hard drugs anymore and haven't in a while. I still think about heroin all the time and can honestly say I'd even like to do some but that xylazine shit scares me so I guess that's a pretty good deterrent.
May he be punished to the fullest extent, beer theft is unacceptable unless it's from Walmart or something
