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2018-04-13 at 12:27 AM UTC in The Retardest Thread: Fashionably Late Edition.
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2018-04-13 at 12:18 AM UTC in The Retardest Thread: Fashionably Late Edition.
Originally posted by hydromorphone For 6 years I've only used tianpetine to help me function with my chronic pain. Before that I wasn't even able to work, much less leave bed most days- I needed help just to the bathroom a lot even. I wouldnt call it abuse when the drug I use literally gave me part of my life back. I also was on pain management for 6 years before coming off that for 2 years (when I pretty Much had no quality of life, save for when at the end of it I began buying pills now and again), so its not like this shit isn't documented. My discontinuation was an insurance/financial reason, no other- I could have stayed on forever if I'd have been able to afford it and wanted to deal with bullshit from the doctors. I also have a thoracic aortic aneurysm, had a heart attack in March 2016, and back in 2013 had a pulmonary embolism.
Even at that, none of my health issues have any connection to any drug usage. T-PAIN doesn't even have the profile to cause epilepsy. I've tried many anti-epileptics and none work or work to any degree its justifies dealing with the risks and side effects, though I did up my tianpetine better than anything before has helped, but I realize that's a losing battle, so I just keep it to as low as helps my pain so I can function half way normal.
For a short stent as a 16-17 kid I did abuse alcohol for a period. Xanax was another, but there was more to do with memory issues, bad anxiety attacks, which some was caused directly by the pain from my accident, along with just depression and stupidity. That for for about a year and then I cut it out and took me almost as long to get my head back together.
I've never abused an opiate though despite what people would like to think. I've never just used or nodded out for the fun of it.
Its complicated and more than just 'this way' or 'that'.
Edit: and for the record, when it began, I looked at everything for an answer as to why this started. Even T-PAIN. I believe now its caused from the many blows I've received to the head over the years, one too many TBI's, which fits with other symptoms I experience.
If someone uses heroin for chronic pain, or uses a medication they're not prescribed, it's still considered abuse. For fuck's sake, you IV the shit. If it was strictly and solely for medical reasons, there'd be no reason not to take it orally.
You are really good at rationalizing shit to yourself; I'll give you that. -
2018-04-13 at 12:14 AM UTC in The Retardest Thread: Fashionably Late Edition.
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2018-04-13 at 12:13 AM UTC in The Retardest Thread: Fashionably Late Edition.Man, I'm so deep, brah.
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2018-04-13 at 12:12 AM UTC in The Retardest Thread: Fashionably Late Edition.
Originally posted by hydromorphone Well, we can agree to disagree about this, I suppose, but please note, I do not see myself as a blameless victim nor does he. He's been harder on himself that you or anyone else has been, and that's a fact. I also think you fail to see or properly understand certain things going on too, but again… That's whatever. I know some things I can't even mention because of certain people who lurk the forum who I'd rather not know certain things or be able to connect certain dots back to PI me IRL, which hopefully you can understand that.
Talking about the subject just from a general, human emotion stand point though, maybe what should be asked first is: why? Why would that person punch themselves? Could it be they were trying to get a biting insect off them and accidentally hurt themselves or something like that. There is a lot people do that you have to look below the surface at to really understand sometimes. Sometimes people do things misguided or ignorant of things that leads to their own self harm too.
Like in 1337's case, he didn't intend for shit to get like this. Had he listened to me in the very beginning or went sooner to the ER, he probably wouldn't be like this now. He didn't go to the ER so late because of not wanting to be there for me being hospitalized not so long before, and in some assbackwards way of not wanting to stress and burden me further being I'm not well myself and am pregnant with his child. I acknowledge he let this culminate to what it is, and was a down right dumb ass, but I still have sympathy and empathy because I can see in more than just black and white. I would feel that for most people too, not just because he's my husband.
Speaking on my own issues especially those in the past, I KNOW I've been responsible or at least contributed to some. Others were circumstantial, or like with my epilepsy shit coming about, ”acts of God".
He tried to get the biting insect of depression or some other mental malady off himself by taking a dirty needle to his balls and then leaving the resulting bubble to abscess and fester.
He tried to get rid of the mosquito by slamming a mace onto his own ballsack.
Using mental issues as an excuse is one thing, and there is a fair bit of rationality to it even, but you can't entirely shift blame off yourself that way. You still end up with a mace injury instead of a mosquito bite, and you're the one who swung the mace. -
2018-04-13 at 12:07 AM UTC in The Retardest Thread: Fashionably Late Edition.If I take a piss, do I deserve to have an empty bladder?
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2018-04-13 at 12:06 AM UTC in The Retardest Thread: Fashionably Late Edition.
Originally posted by hydromorphone We all have made mistakes. Its being able to have empathy to those things. He didn't deserve what happened nor did he hurt others doing it- that's the only way I can rationalize laughing at someone's pain.
Anyway, its whatever. I didn't intend to make you feel guilt, just how I feel about stuff like that.
If I cut off my finger, do I deserve to be missing a finger? -
2018-04-12 at 9:01 PM UTC in hey mal how does it feel to get raped by a totse member?
Originally posted by Dfg I don't trust unless I can verify it. And I don't do secondary sources either. I trust your judgement but people are flawed so even if she is a girl or real, her claim might be BS.
Or the rape was just her doing it and then regretting it.
I mean I do a lot of one night stands, don't even remember the names of the girls etc. If some bitch called me and said I raped her, and I know I didn't, but she is just scamming me or wants something out of me, I would be fucked. Luckily I do track every movement via tracker and I do ensure the CCTV captures the girl and I pay her so it's an agreement.
In Bill Krozby case I am skeptical. This whole story just seems like wtf.
So, really interested to hear Bill Krozby side.
Edit: 6 fucking am, night
Guy has been arrested numerous times for assault on women. Guy has described himself raping women. Guy has had multiple women come forward to tell him how fucked up he is for his sexual assaults.
"I dunno, sounds fishy, hurrr." The fact that your incredibly speculative assumption is that she might have consensually had sex and regretted it is very telling about your attitude on rape in general and how that is shaping your opinion and causing a bias. Based on everything he's said about past encounters with women, that's just an illogical assumption to make, based on absolutely nothing but your own prejudices and preconceived notions. -
2018-04-12 at 8:54 PM UTC in hey mal how does it feel to get raped by a totse member?
Originally posted by benny vader in the 1st world country ???
where purity and virginity meant nothing ???
btw, ask her how many nails she broke scratching Bill Krozbys face and trying to gouge his eyes out ???
and which cheek bones of hers that Bill Krozby broke.
Oh, surprise, the pedophile is a rape apologist with outdated asinine notions of what rape looks like. -
2018-04-12 at 8:53 PM UTC in hey mal how does it feel to get raped by a totse member?
Originally posted by Dfg Yeah but as I said you guys don't really know me :D.
She is BS, I am talking to her on PM. I deal with facts and details, so far she hasn't shown any credible evidence. All she has proven is her inability to make logical decisions and her poor judgement when it comes to trolling someone.
So, no I don't not take mal side for sure. I was neutral on this but something about mal isn't right. Call it a gut instinct but I sense BS.
You expect her to come up with "credible evidence" for her being raped a few years ago.. to some insensitive Paki she doesn't even know and who implied only ugly women get raped? Lol you're fucking stupid.
Besides, Bill Krozby has described raping women multiple times. -
2018-04-12 at 8:49 PM UTC in hey mal how does it feel to get raped by a totse member?
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2018-04-12 at 2 PM UTC in Malice suicide thread
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2018-04-11 at 8:57 AM UTC in Malice suicide thread
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2018-04-11 at 8:22 AM UTC in Raw men noodlesYeah, they never seemed to make me feel full for very long. I could see that happening, OP. I've eaten two before when hungry and felt hungry again like an hour later.
P.S. You are a beautiful person with a beautiful penis. -
2018-04-11 at 8:19 AM UTC in J.R.R. TolkienTom Bombadil is the shit.
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2018-04-11 at 8:13 AM UTC in WTF is going on with Trump
Originally posted by benny vader hes going to win a second term.
No, he won't. I've never seen a president so universally mocked and abhorred, even by those who initially supported him, not to mention the insane amounts of controversy around him. And not just making fun of disabled people. The fucker is almost proven to have colluded with Russia. Even if that miraculously ends up being disproven (pretty much impossible at this point), the damage is done and completely irreparable by now even for his most hardcore supporters.
The real problem is that the next guy will likely end up being even crazier and stupider. -
2018-04-11 at 8:08 AM UTC in hey mal how does it feel to get raped by a totse member?
Originally posted by Dfg I need some context, who is mal, what's her old handle. This is juicy stuff but I don't have any background so not sure which side to take here.
Some bitch Bill Krozby raped who decided to make an account here to out him as a rapist, even though we all already know he's a rapist since he's described raping several women. -
2018-04-11 at 8:06 AM UTC in The Retardest Thread: Fashionably Late Edition.
Originally posted by Malice Ooh, took some memantine, Longvida curcumin, GS15-4 panax ginseng extract, an Innovix Labs curcumin pill, and a ksm-66 ashwagandha pill. I definitely feel a noticeable positive difference already.
Sploo, why don’t you just scam disability so you can have more money for things like this? It’s so easy. With your psychiatric history, having been sent to the psych ward who knows how many times, you would probably get approved fast.
Because most of those psych ward visits involved drugs. He ain't getting shit. -
2018-04-11 at 2:17 AM UTC in The Retardest Thread: Fashionably Late Edition.
Originally posted by CASPER To be fair it probably wouldve happened with any girl I started getting serious with, after being closed off so long. But id just stopped caring. And i did everything to drive her away. But it didnt work and now that that shell is cracked, i realize how fucking miserable and lonely ive been all this time. Its not important whether shes full of shit or not, but i cant see someone trying this hard to make nme think otherwqise. When her last two boyfriends were physiucally, verbally, sexually abusuive, she said that shes scared to be alone with me, especially at night. And it looks like her cancer is probably back so shes going back to wisconsin. Ive been kiond of a wreck thge past couple of weeks. Just crying and jumping out of my car in traffic to slap on strangers windows and scream at them over some minor bullshit. Between the car shit and this and what apparently seems to be fentanyl w/d, im pretty much just…..ugh. It was so nice not giving a fuck. This shit is gay af.
You shouldn't do that. Never know who's strapped and not willing to deal with it, man. -
2018-04-10 at 7:34 PM UTC in I think I have opened a can of wormsThis place is legit a government operation to distract you or whatever.
