Last night, he said he was leaving work then blocked me. I think it was because I haven’t wanted to do sexual stuff in a long time, I’d said maybe tomorrow, but last night I just said I was going to sleep. Anyway I feel calm about it so far, I’ll probably miss sending cute emojis to someone more than anything. But I also feel like I’m in a Murakami story because spouses always leave abruptly with no explanation. Today I was fine but maybe it hasn’t hit me yet. Idk if I should let him go because it’s my fault I didn’t want an exclusive relationship or to do stuff with him anymore. He reminds me of a cat, you don’t throw your cat away.