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    aldra JIDF Controlled Opposition
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    I don't want to lose my mind
    I don't want to lose
    I don't want
    I don't

    someone asked me to just tell everything that's inside
    perfectly hidden deep in my mind
    now if necessary
    set the demons free/purify your soul/let this rage out

    so help me here, I'm confused
    you gave me life, I gave it to someone else
    you took her away and made me stay
    with this endless sadness in my whole body,
    it hurts in every cell
    now it's my mind that doesn't work so well -
    if that's not lunacy, I guess it's hell

    people smile at me but I'm not quite sure what they mean
    do they wish me well, do they pity me
    are they teasing me or planning to destroy me

    I hate you but please stay
    I love you but you'd better escape
    trust me love, run, run far away

    I can still feel the wind on my face,
    sometimes I can even feel the taste
    however there's a whole lot I can't
    I can't stand, I need to recant
    I can't even express myself
    but since you took everything away there's not much to say
    then who else would you take away?
    well, well, you did it, now there's no replacement
    just me and this void of psycho insanity

    I just want you to remember
    I didn't ask to be alive - what I did request was to rest
    but as we can both see, there's no peace for me

    to tell you the truth I'm not sure I want to remember
    so erase them all, erase the memories of my life
    this nihilist obsession with my joy, but especially the pain
    take what's good and let the bad ones stay

    this is the last thing I do before stop trying and give in

    please please please be merciful

    I don't want to lose my mind
    I don't want to lose
    I don't want
    I don't
    I - who am I?
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  2. #2
    Incessant Yung Blood
    Get out of your feels Aldra. We all disassociate, it doesn’t make you special.
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    aldra JIDF Controlled Opposition
    Originally posted by Incessant Get out of your feels Aldra. We all disassociate, it doesn’t make you special.

    what does this have to do with disassociation

    the entire thing is about loss or lack of sovereignty

    mind, body and spirit at the mercy of someone or something that doesn't even care enough about you to hate you
  4. #4
    Sophie Pedophile Tech Support
    You okay?
  5. #5
    Originally posted by aldra what does this have to do with disassociation

    the entire thing is about loss or lack of sovereignty

    mind, body and spirit at the mercy of someone or something that doesn't even care enough about you to hate you

    loss ?

    did you ever have it ?
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  6. #6
    Solstice African Astronaut
    Originally posted by Sophie You okay?

    Are any of us
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    Antifa Member African Astronaut
    8=====D
  8. #8
    Nile Tuskegee Airman
    Originally posted by Solstice Are any of us

    I'm pretty content most of the time, but noticed I have crazy mood swings lol, like I'll be fine then think of the past then just feel overpowering despair and sadness for a while and then snap out of it. Probably just me coming down when I do meth tbh.
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  9. #9
    aldra JIDF Controlled Opposition
    Originally posted by vindicktive vinny loss ?

    did you ever have it ?

    that's the trick, isn't it
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