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  1. Aleister Crowley African Astronaut
    Well don't do that then...
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  2. Kafka sweaty
    Originally posted by Aleister Crowley Well don't do that then…

    Yeah hopefully I can move on. He had a year of my life and never wanted to make it official, and I was never a priority.
  3. DontTellEm Black Hole
    Kinda hard not to believe Kafka & falcon arre not the same person. It takes a strange person.
  4. POLECAT POLECAT is a motherfucking ferret [my presentably immunised ammonification]
    Cmere big girl
  5. Kafka sweaty
    Originally posted by DontTellEm Kinda hard not to believe Kafka & falcon arre not the same person. It takes a strange person.

    Eeeeeeeeew
  6. Kafka sweaty
    I’m thinking about what I’d like to do with my life before I stop existing and then I just felt content all of a sudden to just think.
  7. Aleister Crowley African Astronaut
    Originally posted by Kafka I’m thinking about what I’d like to do with my life before I stop existing and then I just felt content all of a sudden to just think.

    That won't happen. I was actually thinking this yesterday, will I ever be content? All that changes is my age which in turn makes me more anxious that I'm not appreciating the here and now.
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  8. Kafka sweaty
    Originally posted by Aleister Crowley That won't happen. I was actually thinking this yesterday, will I ever be content? All that changes is my age which in turn makes me more anxious that I'm not appreciating the here and now.

    I think I’m not appreciating my family and my sister must be scared af about my sudden change in behaviour. We never got along so now I focus on not being a brat and have started giving her hugs.

    What I meant though is at the end of my life I just want to think to myself, not be doing something like people say they want to do hookers. Now it seems more important to be with myself.

    I agree it’s hard to find contentment. Happiness is different though.
  9. Kafka sweaty
    I’ve been reading this book of Japanese death poems and now think it’s important to have your last words prepared in advance because you’ll be too out of it at the time.

    I almost drowned in the sea a few years ago and was thinking of my mum, that she wouldn’t be able to handle it. That surprised me because my dad was always my favourite and I thought I hated her.
  10. Aleister Crowley African Astronaut
    Originally posted by Kafka I think I’m not appreciating my family and my sister must be scared af about my sudden change in behaviour. We never got along so now I focus on not being a brat and have started giving her hugs.

    What I meant though is at the end of my life I just want to think to myself, not be doing something like people say they want to do hookers. Now it seems more important to be with myself.

    I agree it’s hard to find contentment. Happiness is different though.

    Dunno when I'm old I'll probably start abusing drugs/ getting whores cause life will be dull and shit.
  11. Kafka sweaty
    Originally posted by Aleister Crowley Dunno when I'm old I'll probably start abusing drugs/ getting whores cause life will be dull and shit.

    It’s so sad ageing. I used to have this phobia of radioactive decay, didn’t want the sun touching me so it was sunscreen even indoors, if my jeans had rips I’d wear tights underneath. Something I’ve been wondering is if your thoughts can age, and why people think so much of mundane things, to not have better thoughts after all this time on earth, and how stimuli affects thought, like when you want to pick up a cup of coffee so you think about it for a second, what is really causing that?

    Sorry I’m hype rn
  12. Kafka sweaty
    It started as an OCD thing when I was 13, saw tan as dirt because it comes off when you exfoliate, my curtains have been closed since. Now I see the decay everywhere, coming off buildings and trees, rust or soon to be rust everywhere. It’s like a negative mindfulness, people seem like rotting motion with no free will, I just see motion.
  13. Originally posted by Kafka It started as an OCD thing when I was 13, saw tan as dirt because it comes off when you exfoliate, my curtains have been closed since. Now I see the decay everywhere, coming off buildings and trees, rust or soon to be rust everywhere. It’s like a negative mindfulness, people seem like rotting motion with no free will, I just see motion.

    You should take a large dose of mescaline
  14. CandyRein Black Hole
    Today would have been my dad's birthday...when I get home I'm playing all the jams that we listened to ...🥰

    Ahhh yeah💗
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  15. Donald Trump Black Hole
    Originally posted by Kafka Maybe. They said they needed a lot of people for this event.

    Let me know if you want to volunteer for anything in the south over the summer, we could be travel bros. Could travel day by day or take the campervan (two beds).
  16. Kafka sweaty
    Originally posted by Donald Trump Let me know if you want to volunteer for anything in the south over the summer, we could be travel bros. Could travel day by day or take the campervan (two beds).

    How far did you scroll up to find that? Are you in Ireland? I don’t meet people off the internet unless I’ve had conversations with them first and know we get along.
  17. Kafka sweaty
    I’ve been about Ireland in a caravan before, I remember it was parked near abbey ruins, night time, long wet grass. I was alone listening to The Witches audiobook on a red cassette tape.
  18. POLECAT POLECAT is a motherfucking ferret [my presentably immunised ammonification]
    was it a dodge?
  19. Kafka sweaty
    Originally posted by CandyRein Today would have been my dad's birthday…when I get home I'm playing all the jams that we listened to …🥰

    Ahhh yeah💗

    I think if ghosts are there they’d want you to play their favourite music
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  20. aldra JIDF Controlled Opposition
    Originally posted by the man who put it in my hood You should take a large dose of mescaline

    last time I did acid I'd see old people on the street, even my old dog, looking like they were decaying and falling apart
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