I'm feeling agoraphobic about my upcoming trip. I've already paid for everything and need a vacation so I'm going to go but I'm worried about having a mental health crisis and staying holed up in the library coping the whole time. I've chosen the Netherlands because it's familiar and the truffles help me. If I go to England I will do coke and die. Rn I'm just trying to plan what to do because it gives for rain during my stay.
Worried for Akira because we've never been separated for a week and she views me as her mother. I'm worried she'll run away and these are my last moments with her.