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2017-07-24 at 9:04 AM UTCNah dude, I wasn't serious.
It's going to take a very long time for me to recover and develop enough, if it ever occurs at all, for friendships to even be a possibility. There are countless facets to this. Essentially you have to think of it as necessitating a prolonged and intensive therapeutic process.
I'm not sure I'll ever be able to properly convey just exactly what lead me to detach and isolate myself to such an extreme, inhuman, extent for so long. It isn't a bad thing, but even the people here, let alone normal people with fulfilling social lives, cannot imagine how I came to perceive the world.
I genuinely have profound anthropophobia, which is incredibly rare. I wasn't exaggerating when I stated that intimacy, in any form, is one of my greatest fears. There's a very real chance I'm never going to be able to connect to anyone or form real relationships, and explaining why is exceedingly difficult. It may be fine, I may be able to adapt and learn to accept being around others, derive enough of the innate need for companionship to be able to survive, even thrive, but it isn't the same. Something that has been developing over a lifetime and involves an array of advanced subjects, particularly for a period that is close to 15 years at this point.
The impression given online is completely inaccurate. To be perfectly honest, I can't even feel a proper emotional connection to animals at this point. It's almost akin to a form of severe depersonalization/derealization, or the most severe forms of autism where they just end up completely withdrawn into themselves and unresponsive to the world around them.
I don't know, it's probably been the profound lack of people, intimacy, and how closed off I've become after so long, particularly during such a critical period of development. I'm likely going to need intensive MDMA therapy sessions with the right person or people over a prolonged period to overcome this as much as I'm able to.
I completely understand the response to being held or wrapped tightly. It's actually common among those on the spectrum, which is why weighted blankets are a popular therapeutic accessory. The desire to sleep and snuggle with someone, or even an animal, as well.The following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire! -
2017-07-24 at 9:07 AM UTC
Originally posted by Malice Nah dude, I wasn't serious.
It's going to take a very long time for me to recover and develop enough, if it ever occurs at all, for friendships to even be a possibility. There are countless facets to this. Essentially you have to think of it as necessitating a prolonged and intensive therapeutic process.
I'm not sure I'll ever be able to properly convey just exactly what lead me to detach and isolate myself to such an extreme, inhuman, extent for so long. It isn't a bad thing, but even the people here, let alone normal people with fulfilling social lives, cannot imagine how I came to perceive the world.
I genuinely have profound anthropophobia, which is incredibly rare. I wasn't exaggerating when I stated that intimacy, in any form, is one of my greatest fears. There's a very real chance I'm never going to be able to connect to anyone or form real relationships, and explaining why is exceedingly difficult. It may be fine, I may be able to adapt and learn to accept being around others, derive enough of the innate need for companionship to be able to survive, even thrive, but it isn't the same. Something that has been developing over a lifetime and involves an array of advanced subjects, particularly for a period that is close to 15 years at this point.
The impression given online is completely inaccurate. To be perfectly honest, I can't even feel a proper emotional connection to animals at this point. It's almost akin to a form of severe depersonalization/derealization, or the most severe forms of autism where they just end up completely withdrawn into themselves and unresponsive to the world around them.
I don't know, it's probably been the profound lack of people, intimacy, and how closed off I've become after so long, particularly during such a critical period of development. I'm likely going to need intensive MDMA therapy sessions with the right person or people over a prolonged period to overcome this as much as I'm able to.
I completely understand the response to being held or wrapped tightly. It's actually common among those on the spectrum, which is why weighted blankets are a popular therapeutic accessory. The desire to sleep and snuggle with someone, or even an animal, as well.
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2017-07-24 at 9:49 AM UTCMy sleep has gotten severely worse with losing my dog/animals. To the point PoC has offered to procure me sedatives. I just hate how sedatives/most drugs in those classes make me feel with the after affect. IDK, I might score some somas from my mother to have coming soon... I have really had a bad pattern of poor sleep and long periods without sleep (save for my visit with PoC- fucking worked like a charm. Slept deep, and for a normal length of time), but my problem is I'd rather have stims because I feel so fucking... blah all the time, and can't get my ass in gear to get shit done and I procrastinate so fucking badly... probably from being chronically fatigued from not resting properly... it sucks.
I do love animals for a variety of reasons, but in the case of snuggles, except unless it's a big cuddle-pile with my old pack, with 13 dogs snuggled tight around me (for warmth), I do prefer a human being I feel comfortable and safe with (my ex never did this for me, I was scared to sleep with him and awoke in a panic often), because I enjoy how I can wrap my body around theirs, and like... it they have their legs just right, where I can put my legs sorta on top theirs, and snuggle in their arm/head on their chest under their chin, it puts me in sort of a cradled position, which I fucking adore.
there was times, like when we'd watch TV when I was a kid, were I'd cuddle on my dad's lap and he'd hold me, cradling me, arm holding my head/shoulders, and the other under my knees, and omg... I felt so safe and awesome like that. Sometimes he'd carry me to bed, and like... I'd wake up alone and have an anxiety attack big time...
I think a lot of parents think kids get upset sleeping alone due to fear of the dark and shit, but fuck... we're social creatures who developed to sleep with one another in a group. I think it's fucked up that people have such an issue sleeping with their kids. I never have slept apart from my son, and well... I wouldn't ever force him to sleep alone, like a lot of parents do. It's not just fear of the dark, it's fear of being alone, which fuck... who really wants to sleep alone? I think it causes more harm to a kid than forcing them to "toughen up" and sleep in their own bed. My fucking mother tried this and got super pissy over me sleeping in bed with my dad, and yeah, looking back, as much as I did cuddle tight with him, i was a child sized cock-block, but fuck... they coulda/shoulda found other times to fuck than at night when it was time to fucking sleep. lol I think my father really didn't wanna fuck my mother at that point anyway, and I was a good excuse, and why he always gave into me wanting to snuggle and sleep with him. Can't really blame him... she was/is a super cunt.
I'd asked PoC if he'd have any problems with my son sleeping with us, and thankfully this isn't an issue. §m£ÂgØL was dead set against this though, and he didn't give a single fuck about any studies or professional opinions I could cite indicating it wasn't healthy for kids/people to be sleeping alone.
As for your fear of relationships and shit... I understand. I definitely can see MDMA helping you out there. I definitely get that appearances online and IRL are different, I just think you underestimate my ability to sympathize, be patient, and understanding. Funny lol, we're literally the ying and yang of how we go about relationships/closeness with people/animals. I'm open to almost everyone, and you're scared to death of it with a legit phobia. Working with horses taught me a lot, especially the abused ones, about how to be patient, understanding, and move slow... this also translated into relationships. I have a big empathetic heart... I hurt when others are hurting, and have a strong desire to help people in pain, or fear even... meh, I'm also very fucked up and damaged too. -
2017-07-24 at 10:17 AM UTC....Ugggghhhhh....
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2017-07-24 at 10:30 AM UTC
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2017-07-24 at 10:43 AM UTC
Originally posted by hydromorphone My sleep has gotten severely worse with losing my dog/animals. To the point PoC has offered to procure me sedatives. I just hate how sedatives/most drugs in those classes make me feel with the after affect. IDK, I might score some somas from my mother to have coming soon… I have really had a bad pattern of poor sleep and long periods without sleep (save for my visit with PoC- fucking worked like a charm. Slept deep, and for a normal length of time), but my problem is I'd rather have stims because I feel so fucking… blah all the time, and can't get my ass in gear to get shit done and I procrastinate so fucking badly… probably from being chronically fatigued from not resting properly… it sucks.
I do love animals for a variety of reasons, but in the case of snuggles, except unless it's a big cuddle-pile with my old pack, with 13 dogs snuggled tight around me (for warmth), I do prefer a human being I feel comfortable and safe with (my ex never did this for me, I was scared to sleep with him and awoke in a panic often), because I enjoy how I can wrap my body around theirs, and like… it they have their legs just right, where I can put my legs sorta on top theirs, and snuggle in their arm/head on their chest under their chin, it puts me in sort of a cradled position, which I fucking adore.
there was times, like when we'd watch TV when I was a kid, were I'd cuddle on my dad's lap and he'd hold me, cradling me, arm holding my head/shoulders, and the other under my knees, and omg… I felt so safe and awesome like that. Sometimes he'd carry me to bed, and like… I'd wake up alone and have an anxiety attack big time…
I think a lot of parents think kids get upset sleeping alone due to fear of the dark and shit, but fuck… we're social creatures who developed to sleep with one another in a group. I think it's fucked up that people have such an issue sleeping with their kids. I never have slept apart from my son, and well… I wouldn't ever force him to sleep alone, like a lot of parents do. It's not just fear of the dark, it's fear of being alone, which fuck… who really wants to sleep alone? I think it causes more harm to a kid than forcing them to "toughen up" and sleep in their own bed. My fucking mother tried this and got super pissy over me sleeping in bed with my dad, and yeah, looking back, as much as I did cuddle tight with him, i was a child sized cock-block, but fuck… they coulda/shoulda found other times to fuck than at night when it was time to fucking sleep. lol I think my father really didn't wanna fuck my mother at that point anyway, and I was a good excuse, and why he always gave into me wanting to snuggle and sleep with him. Can't really blame him… she was/is a super cunt.
I'd asked PoC if he'd have any problems with my son sleeping with us, and thankfully this isn't an issue. §m£ÂgØL was dead set against this though, and he didn't give a single fuck about any studies or professional opinions I could cite indicating it wasn't healthy for kids/people to be sleeping alone.
As for your fear of relationships and shit… I understand. I definitely can see MDMA helping you out there. I definitely get that appearances online and IRL are different, I just think you underestimate my ability to sympathize, be patient, and understanding. Funny lol, we're literally the ying and yang of how we go about relationships/closeness with people/animals. I'm open to almost everyone, and you're scared to death of it with a legit phobia. Working with horses taught me a lot, especially the abused ones, about how to be patient, understanding, and move slow… this also translated into relationships. I have a big empathetic heart… I hurt when others are hurting, and have a strong desire to help people in pain, or fear even… meh, I'm also very fucked up and damaged too.
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2017-07-24 at 11:13 AM UTC
Originally posted by RestStop Is anyone else tired of this black bitch crying about how "Big Tobacco" profiles black people? Bitch they are a business the last thing they care about is your whiny ass, sissy ass feelings. Killin' you niggaz one Newport at a time.
these are the biggest memes of all time because im aggressively white and i smoke newport menthol 100s most of the time -
2017-07-24 at 11:14 AM UTC"aggressively white"
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2017-07-24 at 11:23 AM UTCWent to an Italian restaurant last night, ordered a fettuccine alfredo, but got a chicken parmesan instead. I did not get my order, I got an impasta. The wait was like 50 minutes and I was not sitting for 50 minutes while my girlfriend's food ran cold, specially when I had a giant, perfectly good meal right in front of me, so I just notified my waitress of the mistake and ate the chicken parmesan. Another day, another case of my life being controlled by big parma.
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2017-07-24 at 11:24 AM UTC
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2017-07-24 at 11:26 AM UTC
Originally posted by Captain Falcon Went to an Italian restaurant last night, ordered a fettuccine alfredo, but got a chicken parmesan instead. I did not get my order, I got an impasta. The wait was like 50 minutes and I was not sitting for 50 minutes while my girlfriend's food ran cold, specially when I had a giant, perfectly good meal right in front of me, so I just notified my waitress of the mistake and ate the chicken parmesan. Another day, another case of my life being controlled by big parma.
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2017-07-24 at 11:27 AM UTC
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2017-07-24 at 12:46 PM UTCTime to go waste my time again at the psychiatrist's.
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2017-07-24 at 12:49 PM UTC
Originally posted by Captain Falcon Went to an Italian restaurant last night, ordered a fettuccine alfredo, but got a chicken parmesan instead. I did not get my order, I got an impasta. The wait was like 50 minutes and I was not sitting for 50 minutes while my girlfriend's food ran cold, specially when I had a giant, perfectly good meal right in front of me, so I just notified my waitress of the mistake and ate the chicken parmesan. Another day, another case of my life being controlled by big parma.
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2017-07-24 at 2:33 PM UTC
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2017-07-24 at 3:20 PM UTC
Originally posted by aldra I dunno, I think it's pretty funny that they think they're in any way passable:
http://www.dailymail.co.uk/news/article-4720274/ISIS-fighters-dress-WOMEN-make-flee-Mosul.html
fuck me, what a cunt, lolA Jihadist attempted to flee Mosul in a disguise similar to a pantomime dame, but was caught when he forgot to shave off his beard and moustache.
The ISIS fighter was trying to get away from the former militant stronghold as the city was recaptured, but didn't quite get his escape plan right.
Dressed in women's clothes and with elaborate make-up, the bearded man forgot to get rid of his facial hair.
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