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does anyone know if 1337/bipolarhighroller is alright?
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2019-11-28 at 6:50 AM UTC
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2019-11-28 at 7:02 AM UTC
Originally posted by hydromorphone Itd be nice to know.
If you read this, I pray for you everyday. I have my church pray for you too.
I get it if you never want to talk to me bit itd bw nice to know youre alive and well.
If anyone knows, Id like to know hes alright. Thanks. Happu thanksgiving guys. Happy thanksgiving 1337.
Do you go around and solicit from the local churches? There was a woman in the nursing home who had all the pastors on speed dial trying to get them to loan her 5 grand to save her house or something and it almost worked. Everybody hated her, she was disgusting. -
2019-11-28 at 7:21 AM UTC
Originally posted by DietPiano Do you go around and solicit from the local churches? There was a woman in the nursing home who had all the pastors on speed dial trying to get them to loan her 5 grand to save her house or something and it almost worked. Everybody hated her, she was disgusting.
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2019-11-30 at 1:26 PM UTCI guess no one knows.
I go to a pentacostal church. I go with friends I made who see me panhandling all the time. I go because I want to and it makes them happy. I get nothing from them or the church, except maybe a coat and some food here or there.
I do not go to a methadone clinic. That would fuck up my pain management. Im not gonna fuck up my pain management.The following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire! -
2019-11-30 at 1:49 PM UTCNobody cares faggot, kill yourself
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2019-11-30 at 2:58 PM UTC
Originally posted by hydromorphone I guess no one knows.
I go to a pentacostal church. I go with friends I made who see me panhandling all the time. I go because I want to and it makes them happy. I get nothing from them or the church, except maybe a coat and some food here or there.
I do not go to a methadone clinic. That would fuck up my pain management. Im not gonna fuck up my pain management.
being homeless fucks with your pain management but you choose to stay in that cycle so you can use drugs whilst in a shitty lifestyle -
2019-12-03 at 12 AM UTC
Originally posted by Sudo being homeless fucks with your pain management but you choose to stay in that cycle so you can use drugs whilst in a shitty lifestyle
Being homeless has no bearing on my pain management.
I choose this actually because the dope I use is my pain management and my PM doc just is a source of income. I use that money to improve my living situation every month, upgrade my equipment. I panhandle for dope. I live pretty well all things considered and am a lot happier than Ive been for most my life.
Im a lot better off too. Tonight was the first time in a long time Ive been dope sick and that was just because they were on hold and I didnt want to cop shitty dope while I waited. I was just on the cusp too. Funny to think that sometimes I actually can say mugh life doesnt revolve around being depressed and in pain. I get up early, go out everyday, and do my best to be a good person.
Im gonna be getting salt to salt the roads aroumd the light I panhandle for when it snows since I know Id be there before the salt trucks will and before a lot of traffic. Ive made signs too that remind people that bridges freeze before roads,to be wary of black ice, and to try and not over compencate if you begin to slide. Sure, its common sense, but we havent got snow and ice yet so you may not think about it until its too late- plus my light is a major thrufare for young proffional yuppies and college kids... Some less expwrienced drivers who could use the reminder. -
2019-12-03 at 12:10 AM UTCI'm sure he died from an overdose by now
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2019-12-03 at 12:15 AM UTCI fuck niggers on the reg.
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2019-12-03 at 12:29 AM UTC
Originally posted by hydromorphone Being homeless has no bearing on my pain management.
I choose this actually because the dope I use is my pain management and my PM doc just is a source of income. I use that money to improve my living situation every month, upgrade my equipment. I panhandle for dope. I live pretty well all things considered and am a lot happier than Ive been for most my life.
Im a lot better off too. Tonight was the first time in a long time Ive been dope sick and that was just because they were on hold and I didnt want to cop shitty dope while I waited. I was just on the cusp too. Funny to think that sometimes I actually can say mugh life doesnt revolve around being depressed and in pain. I get up early, go out everyday, and do my best to be a good person.
Im gonna be getting salt to salt the roads aroumd the light I panhandle for when it snows since I know Id be there before the salt trucks will and before a lot of traffic. Ive made signs too that remind people that bridges freeze before roads,to be wary of black ice, and to try and not over compencate if you begin to slide. Sure, its common sense, but we havent got snow and ice yet so you may not think about it until its too late- plus my light is a major thrufare for young proffional yuppies and college kids… Some less expwrienced drivers who could use the reminder.
Being homeless would certainly have an effect on your pain management. As someone who also suffers from chronic pain (and has 2 prescriptions for your namesake) I can say that lifestyle DEFINITELY has an effect on pain. I don't know the extent of yours but stress, anxiety, lifestyle blah blah etc can cause it to be worse or better. As roughly 99% of the world would see being homeless as a depressing and stressful hand to mouth existence, this would likely cause them more pain and discomfort. When I'm in my car too much in the run of the day or am busy stressing about various things, my pain becomes much worse and it has always been that way. I also know that when you're dopesick your pain is much greater and when it is otherwise. Pain is a subjective thing though and I can't pretend to understand how yours works, I'm just telling you the experience of myself and most of the medical community I've talked to and books I've read on the subject (pain explained and the mindfulness solution to pain are the best ones I've found) over the last decade and a half.
Your life revolves around drugs and seeking ways and means of acquiring more. That much I can tell, as can anyone else. If you weren't in the grips of addiction you could likely find a place to stay or could afford your own apartment.
Stop trying so hard to appear as a good, selfless person too. You rely on the handouts of others who provide utility to the world and good people don't go around announcing they're doing things they perceive to be good, nor do they feel the need to qualify themselves as a good person.
I hope your pain and addiction get better and you don't harm any more §m£ÂgØLsThe following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire! -
2019-12-03 at 12:30 AM UTC
Originally posted by hydromorphone Being homeless has no bearing on my pain management.
I choose this actually because the dope I use is my pain management and my PM doc just is a source of income. I use that money to improve my living situation every month, upgrade my equipment. I panhandle for dope. I live pretty well all things considered and am a lot happier than Ive been for most my life.
Im a lot better off too. Tonight was the first time in a long time Ive been dope sick and that was just because they were on hold and I didnt want to cop shitty dope while I waited. I was just on the cusp too. Funny to think that sometimes I actually can say mugh life doesnt revolve around being depressed and in pain. I get up early, go out everyday, and do my best to be a good person.
Im gonna be getting salt to salt the roads aroumd the light I panhandle for when it snows since I know Id be there before the salt trucks will and before a lot of traffic. Ive made signs too that remind people that bridges freeze before roads,to be wary of black ice, and to try and not over compencate if you begin to slide. Sure, its common sense, but we havent got snow and ice yet so you may not think about it until its too late- plus my light is a major thrufare for young proffional yuppies and college kids… Some less expwrienced drivers who could use the reminder.
As if methadone isn't a strong universal painkiller -
2019-12-03 at 12:32 AM UTC
Originally posted by DietPiano As if methadone isn't a strong universal painkiller
I didn't find it was great for pain management and I've heard it has massively diminishing returns.
Also, when I've discussed this with doctors they always recommended a lower dose (around 30 40 ml IIRC) which would be pretty useless to anyone with an opiate toleranceThe following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire! -
2019-12-03 at 12:32 AM UTCGo easy, Diet. Easy, Son.
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2019-12-07 at 4:53 PM UTCDamn I was hoping you were dead.
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2019-12-07 at 4:56 PM UTCYea, he is doing great. Just texted with him, actually. Small world
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2019-12-07 at 5:03 PM UTC
Originally posted by hydromorphone I guess no one knows.
I go to a pentacostal church. I go with friends I made who see me panhandling all the time. I go because I want to and it makes them happy. I get nothing from them or the church, except maybe a coat and some food here or there.
I do not go to a methadone clinic. That would fuck up my pain management. Im not gonna fuck up my pain management.
witch you would look so obscure in a pentacostal church -
2019-12-07 at 5:27 PM UTC
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2019-12-07 at 5:47 PM UTC
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2019-12-15 at 3:58 AM UTC
Originally posted by Sudo Being homeless would certainly have an effect on your pain management. As someone who also suffers from chronic pain (and has 2 prescriptions for your namesake) I can say that lifestyle DEFINITELY has an effect on pain. I don't know the extent of yours but stress, anxiety, lifestyle blah blah etc can cause it to be worse or better. As roughly 99% of the world would see being homeless as a depressing and stressful hand to mouth existence, this would likely cause them more pain and discomfort. When I'm in my car too much in the run of the day or am busy stressing about various things, my pain becomes much worse and it has always been that way. I also know that when you're dopesick your pain is much greater and when it is otherwise. Pain is a subjective thing though and I can't pretend to understand how yours works, I'm just telling you the experience of myself and most of the medical community I've talked to and books I've read on the subject (pain explained and the mindfulness solution to pain are the best ones I've found) over the last decade and a half.
Your life revolves around drugs and seeking ways and means of acquiring more. That much I can tell, as can anyone else. If you weren't in the grips of addiction you could likely find a place to stay or could afford your own apartment.
Stop trying so hard to appear as a good, selfless person too. You rely on the handouts of others who provide utility to the world and good people don't go around announcing they're doing things they perceive to be good, nor do they feel the need to qualify themselves as a good person.
I hope your pain and addiction get better and you don't harm any more §m£ÂgØLs
I think the biggest thing that has actually helped me is that I have routine, and healthy escapes. I do have an addiction, and that is managing my pain, but I don't let it be the end all, be all of my life.
As a friend I have said, who's actually a very intelligent guy, he's got his master's in some shit related to social services, but had a mental break down when his wife divorced him and a bunch of shit happened which fucked him over in his career path (he smokes weed and spice but has no addiction or use of other drugs) said to me "you have a reason to get up in the morning - dope- sure it's kinda a shitty reason BUT it's a reason, and you do it everyday, and prior, I bet you failed yo have a reason to.get up and about for a very long time. With that reason leads you to do yourur thing, but puts you in contact with so many other people that you touch positively everyday and you go about your day positively which reflects on to others, and while it's all do to something as small as dope, it's at least SOMETHING and thus this is why you do have it better to most in our situation- you have drive to get up, do what you got to do, smiling all the way, and then spread good while you go about with the rest of your day and why you're likely happier than you were previously. This was said by my friend and I believe him to be right.
I tell y'all small snippets of my life, I'm not on here everyday, I'm busy enjoying life, having freedom. I go to the aquarium nearly daily,.and luckily enough my year pass enables me to bring a guest, which I try to do as much as possible,even bringing strangers, other homeless with me, which is often a highlight of their day, and I know it is for me too.
Sure, I'm dope sick once in a blue moon ,which sucks, but the frequency is so much lower than it ever was when I lived in a house.
Take what you want from my little snippets, but I'm just trying to express that I'm happy, and it makes me happy that I can help others, that I can "share the wealth" I aquire. I am blessed. I have many people who genuinely love and care about me, and I love and care about them. I even got holiday cards (some are Muslim, and one a jedi lol) and some small gifts. I don't always want to be a "taker", so I try and find ways to giveback a little. They really appreciate that and are kinda astonished- thus I am helped even more. Karma is a real thing, and it comes back every day to me. I live and sleep comfortably. I use public transit, but due to coping dope everyday, I do a bit more walking than I'd like to, which is my only complaint, and sometimes I just cop enough for two or three days if funds allow.
I hope you all are doing well and as happy and mentally centered as I am now. I actually feel good despite my existing health issues but that's manageable. I go doctors regularly which was hard for me to do before too, so that's another plus. It's odd to think wow... I'm actually level. It's weird but hey.. whatever works.
If you read this 1337 I pray for you all the time and hope you are well.
Originally posted by MexicanMasterRace She has a pentagram tattoo lol
It WAS a pentacle (a pentagram has a lot different meaning than a pentacle. Pentacle is star right side/point up, pentagram is star down/point down) and I no longer have it. It was covered up by back tattoo of the sword in the stone my tattoo artist friend did for me.
It was a jail house small tattoo inlet the asshole I was with talk me into, and also do one for him on his back. I'm so glad it's gone. I literally was going to use lye to burn it off but my friend talked me into this option which I prefer. Everyone seems to like it too. Kinda cool having a Sword go down my spine.
Regardless, what does it matter what I have on me. These people accept and love me how I am and I love them all the same too. I was blessed with family in them. They're happy and cool too. They joke about smoking weed all the time but nolonger partake but are chill about it and all.
They are really wonderful people. I'm blessed to have a lot of wonderful people around me.The following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire! -
2019-12-15 at 4:08 AM UTCstalker in transparency mode
whatever that means
