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2016-04-09 at 5:42 PM UTCYo Lanny, is there some way you could possibly speed up the site? Also is there some option to jmp to the last page in a thread when I click on it in "new topics"
I hope all yall nig nogs have been doing good.
I haven't been up to much other then working my ass off. That whole mil shit from last year semi fucked me financially so all I do pretty much iswork. I did go down to florida last month for a few days and had a pretty good time. I'm about sick of working to pay bills tho -
2016-04-10 at 2:17 AM UTCStayed up until 8AM researching a few things. This is what effective afinils do to me. The problem is the strong OCD tendencies that can manifest, where I do things to perfection, an unnecessarily excessive degree, and end up wasting a lot of time.
I was about to go to bed because I was beginning to nod off, then ended up waking up 3 hours later laying back in the chair. I had a sale to make, so fortunately I had packed my noot/supplement/pharmaceutical/drug stack in a pill bottle, a concoction of powders, the afinil being the most helpful for dealing with the effects of sleep deprivation very effectively, along with T-PAIN to regulate the glutamatergic system, having consistently experienced a significant depressant effect from pro-glutamatergic substances like afinils and piracetam (glutamate theory of depression); there's already an imbalance between excitatory and inhibitory neurotransmitters in the autistic.And of course my daily NSI for the antidepressant effect, and strong acute effect of reducing cortisol.
Made a nice sale today. Added a few more hundred to the war chest. I even managed to engage in some small talk, instead of just not saying anything. Went smoothly. I may be developing some semblance of humanity!
Now I'm eating premium salt and vinegar, and barbecue potato chips; and drinking some liquid courage while my previous intake kicks in: 15mg Nardil pill, half a blue microscoop of etizolam (potentiated by the GABA-T inhibition of Nardil's metabolite PEH/Phenylethylidenehydrazine. 350mg of phenibut (bought 5 wines, 2 more of the excellent Riesling dry white, a sangria I'm drinking now with some brandy added for the high alcohol content, for it to kick in fast(It's kind of tasty, seems great for mixing drinks. As a child, this was my favorite soda, non-alcoholic, it had such a rich and unique taste, and a South African merlot that was recommended by the manager with a note that the description on the back was accurate (flavorful), supposed to have a very distinct taste, along with a sauvignon blanc by the same producers. I think the phenibut potentiation can be a good thing if understood and managed properly, you can enjoy a greater variety of wines without having to drink an excessive amount to get high. Did a meth race around the store to catch the bus in time.
Reason I'm drinking liquid courage? To call a really cheap rental option in a really convenient place. I swear, I hate calling people more than I do talking to them IRL. A common trait among autistics is a great aversion to change, changing the place you've lived in for a while being a major change, often a fear of unknown people/social interaction/communication, It has the same things, the location may be more convenient, much cheaper after the landlord jacked up the rent (only after 3 years, the percentage increase per years is reasonable. When I think about my aversion, I then thought about everything my apartment had and everything the other location has. A house is a biological storage and maintenance facility to me.
Uh of, may have gone too far, having trouble typing (fixed the typos) and seeing clearly/focusing my eyes (I close one eye). Oh well, offer 2, even 3 months rent in advance, flash some hundreds, dollars, and behave well, it should be fine,I'm just preparing to call anyway, I'll have sobered up enough by the time I get there.
Oh, and my wine expenditures may be excessive. It's just so good, though, and I like the hobby.
Lanny, really, stop being lazy, the bus ride isn't that long, take a trip to Grocery Outlet and check out their wines, use your data plan to look for reviews/(aggregate) ratings on whatever catches your eye and has a manager commendation.
You like thrift stores, GO is very similar in some ways. Drinking nothing but two buck chuck and other generic items is boring (autistics prefer consistency and repetition). I turned weed smoker, and possibly litefire (I don''t know if he was aware of it before I made multiple autistic posts/rants about it, their business model, and purchases I bought), onto it.
Oh, turned on my dual 45w 6500k daylight bulb setup to combat some of the sleepiness and gain other benefits.
Fuck, just checked Better History, it took me 50 minutes to drunk write and edit this.
Goddamn you Lanny/NIS! What kind of person feels it's genuinely too late to give a quick tour now, as if we don't have electricity *(artificial light)? Well, 1K plus and some extra enticement should change their mind if it happens.So Malice is moving weight and hitting up stripclubs now? Shit man
Casper would be so proud of me.
You should try it too. I know you're capable of researching things thoroughly like you did with cars and fish, this actually isn't anywhere near as difficult or complex as it may seem.
Working on the straight and narrow doesn't make nearly enough for the little people. Remember when you were selling syncan blends? Imagine that general process, but with 10X the profits. If you're more risk adverse now, feel too old, too many obligations or a possible record, to risk it, there's really no significant risk at all when you follow a few basic sense opsec procedures. If you burn furiously bright like a flaming candle, then disappear into the dark, prepare and stored up beforehand; you could make a killing and get in and out fast, so fast that there's almost no chance you'd be on anyone's radar, have had evidence gathered against you etc. Quit while you're ahead, it really works on the darknet where you're effectively anonymous outside of your handle/vendor name.
Oy, all that work to try to be helpful and I still haven't called. So many typos because I can't see straight. I dodn't even drink much! -
2016-04-10 at 3:15 AM UTCdid
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2016-04-10 at 3:17 AM UTC
Nardil is a godsend. If there's one thing I would recommend to you, it's this,
fuck nardil parnate is god -
2016-04-10 at 3:17 AM UTCor marplan
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2016-04-10 at 6:23 AM UTCI've been benzo fre for way too long. Once I went from Zannys to k pins I just quit pretty much
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2016-04-10 at 8:13 AM UTCFuck it's hard to do anything when you're tired as hell, feeling like you're about to pass out, and drunk on top of that, unable to focus your eyes so you have to keep one closed if you want to see clearly.
I don't regret it. I have the perfect text typed up to get the place I want. Now I just need to install an SMS scheduler to send it in the morning, it's too late now. Summary: I'm genuinely the perfect tenant and have the references to prove it, and, most importantly, money. I am willing to pay extra, months in advance, to secure the place I want. I've taken new pics of my money stash with a new identity stamp. and will include that I've already paid last months rent and will receive my deposit when I move out, boosting my savings by around $1700. I'm also willing and want to sign the papers immediately after a quick examination.I've been benzo fre for way too long. Once I went from Zannys to k pins I just quit pretty much
Nardil, man. Did you ever get your testosterone levels like you said you would?
You work so hard and such a relatively simple and low effort act could make such an enormous difference in your quality of life. Your ability to work, your energy, intelligence, creativity, confidence, health etc.
What if you could have your old self back when you were at your prime? What would you give for that? All you have to do is get a simple blood test, the draw takes less than 30 seconds and then they send you on your way and send it off to be analyzed at a lab.So Malice is moving weight and hitting up stripclubs now? Shit man
Realistically, would I have rapidly gone from being a literal hikikomori/shut-in to this without something causing a massive radical change? It wasn't therapy, I don't go to it, I don't have any people in my life, never volunteered like I was considering, had no spiritual moment/transformative psychedelic experience, haven't gotten laid and still don't have any experience with women, didn't practice social skills and interacting with people.
Think about it, if Nardil can make me go from that to this, and I'm likely not even at the optimal high enough dose yet (only prescribed 45mg, 60mg will probably be where the threshold effect occurs, and there's an enormous positive difference, This is just the boot up stage, I've only been on it for a month,)
As for Nardil, I managed to get it on my first try with my strategy: https://www.reddit.com/r/Nootropics/...ogical/cxdau3r
Other people have done the same. Someone that was suicidal actually PM'd me on Reddit asking for help. After he tried ordering Parnate, the other main MAOI, from overseas in desperation his card was locked. That was the trigger point that caused him to go to a crisis center and I gave him some more advice on that. About a month later he PM'd me and told me he had managed to get Parnate from the doctor there without much prodding and was now doing well.
A guy on Longecity that has a good reputation and sells NSI-189 for a very low price contacted me after I mentioned having ordered Parnate powder in the past, which didn't work out for me because I'm so sensitive to norepinephrine, which it has a stronger effect on; the anxiety it triggered was too bad, Nardil is much better for people with anxiety, He was ordering Parnate pills online, but it was too expensive; he was also in Greece and they have the whole massive economic and unemployment crisis going on. I managed to trade 25 grams of NSI-189 for some of my Parnate. He's also regularly paying me $35/g to mail it to him, according to him it seems to be even more potent than the pills; $175 for 5g at a time. I originally bought 60g and used maybe 5g at most. That's $1925, a good business relationship. -
2016-04-10 at 8:18 AM UTCWhy don't I like the taste of cough syrup?
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2016-04-10 at 5:26 PM UTC
I don't regret it. I have the perfect text typed up to get the place I want. Now I just need to install an SMS scheduler to send it in the morning, it's too late now. Summary: I'm genuinely the perfect tenant and have the references to prove it, and, most importantly, money. I am willing to pay extra, months in advance, to secure the place I want. I've taken new pics of my money stash with a new identity stamp. and will include that I've already paid last months rent and will receive my deposit when I move out, boosting my savings by around $1700. I'm also willing and want to sign the papers immediately after a quick examination.
That sounds more like creepy likely-to-murder-a-hooker-in-the-unit tenant than perfect tenant tbh -
2016-04-10 at 10:47 PM UTCCool story: Over the past month and a half, been working full time, busting my ass. Dealing with community service and fines and car troubles and just....a ton of shit id rather not. Just recently, my house got broken into twice and then my car got stolen while I was at work. Not having a way to get around, I started taking Uber for the first time ever. Was at first very impressed, but on my third trip, was reminded why i fucking despise public trasportation..... Came down with the mother of all flus. 105.2 degree fever for 2 days, 104.3 for another 3. Puking blood. squeezing the sides of my skull to try to relieve the pressure. No food or water from saturday night to early thursday morning. Conveniently though, apparently I was simultaneously going through withdrawal. So besides a super low dose of stuff to take the edge off, I havent had dope in over 10 days now...and no desire to use, really.
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2016-04-10 at 11:26 PM UTCDamn Casper, that sucks. You decide to go straight and do good, start improving your life and this happens. And poor/working class people face problems like this all the time. Do you really want to look forward to a lifetime of that? Maybe it's a sign that the conventional boring lifestyle just isn't for you. If only there was someone that knew how to get your old self back...
It's a shame you may not be in a good mood for this, I felt happy when I saw you had posted. Hopefully you have enough capacity for temporary cheerfulness.
I was about to text you: Dad, look, I'm making it! http://niggasin.space/forum/better-l...9647#post89647
Start at post 3361 in TRT. Aren't you proud of me?
Edit: Skip the autism, though. -
2016-04-11 at 4:15 AM UTC
Damn Casper, that sucks. You decide to go straight and do good, start improving your life and this happens. And poor/working class people face problems like this all the time. Do you really want to look forward to a lifetime of that? Maybe it's a sign that the conventional boring lifestyle just isn't for you. If only there was someone that knew how to get your old self back…
It's a shame you may not be in a good mood for this, I felt happy when I saw you had posted. Hopefully you have enough capacity for temporary cheerfulness.
I was about to text you: Dad, look, I'm making it! http://niggasin.space/forum/better-l...9647#post89647
Start at post 3361 in TRT. Aren't you proud of me?
Edit: Skip the autism, though.
1. Nice Dude! Although of course, you have to know what you actually paid for the coins. if you ended up paying 4200 for them, its money in your pocket but profit wise leaves some to be desired. The anti depressants and stuff....as long as theyre legal and you can do it with little risk, that sounds like a good racket too.
2. I chuckled so hard at the thought of you robotically trying to "rain" on strippers. Yes, yes....I needed that. What'd you think of the naked women though? You seem to think a lot about testosterone and male-ness. I mean a strip club is really a place for women to take advantage of US, but still.... was that something youd do again?
3. I will fucking disown you if you dont stop fucking around with those ugly fucking shoes. Those are the kind of shoes if I saw someone wearing in high school, I'd have had to hit them. Just buy you self a semi cheap sport jacket and some black leather dress shoes, playa.
4. Theres nothing to say there wont still be glimpses of the "old" me now and again, but with what's on my plate at the present time, dealing with all the drama that comes from living that life, and the self loathing and regret....id rather just put all that on hold and work toward something i wont hate myself for. Feels good though. I feel like Ive done my time. 10 years. I think Ive proven im an "authentic" junkie...whatever the fuck that is. I always hoped something would just snap into place and shake me out of that dream state, and I guess a skull splitting fever hallucination is as good as anything. Besides the not really being able to walk again yet thing, I feel great. Looks like I even lost a couple inches off my waist.
Glad to see youre putting all that autistic energy into something immediate and constructive. Hopefully it stays fulfilling for you. It just occurred to me that something with your attention span and attention to detail could be an excellent market analyst or something. -
2016-04-11 at 4:48 AM UTCSo I did coke, broke up with my gf, continued doing coke the next day/night, fucked another girl, tried to take a picture of her sucking my cock to send to my (then) ex gf, she got weirded out. I called her the next day and told her I was done with her, started feeling terrible. This continued for a day or two until I called her back and tried to make things right. We kinda got back together when I reminded her of how cold I am and how she meant nothing. I developed a kidney stone from treating alcohol gut with tums (high in calcium). She took a $45 cab to come pick me up and bring me to the hospital where I screamed, swore and beat my head against the wall before being taken to another room and injected with hydromorphone. Immediately got a huge erection while they tried to coax me into taking a piss. Waited in a room for 5 hours before they told me that yes, I did indeed have a kidney stone and here's some more hydromorphs to help ya.
So I sick noted my exam a few days later. Me and the female are tentatively back together. I've been making arab money thanks to good connections and have been taking hydromorphone everyday since and drinking less. I paid someone to do my community service hours and my PO wants more done now. It snowed today/yesterday. I dunno what the fuck I'm going to do with my lyfe. I want to go to caracauo in the dutch antilles this year and also be a good drug dealing degenerate father figure to dese lil chilluns in my lyfe. My best prospects for a career requires dealing with Arabs on a daily basis but will likely make me Israeli money. The people closest to me know how emotionally fucked I am. I made three women cry within 24 hours a few weeks ago and people were seeming to be very defensive around me. I feel better now, I don't want to get hooked on dilaudids again but the world seems like such a better place when mah cold hart goes warmmm.
Malice, you're awesome, I wish I could find a use for you. Your transition into REAL BOY! will be legendary. I can't wait to read your first vagina "trip report." Your elation at having 10k is also cute and I hope it motivates you to achieve more. I'm at a pretty good level right now but I try not to think about it. I dunno what I'm gonna do with my life. It seems like all these idiots around me care about me and I just want to disappear on dilaudid with some bitch until I feel absolutely empty. I love you all, I'm glad I shared part of my life with this "community." This last incarnation in lame but still cut from the same cloth. Did Zok move or change his name? I want to letterbomb him about getting me the database -
2016-04-11 at 8:46 AM UTC
2. I chuckled so hard at the thought of you robotically trying to "rain" on strippers. Yes, yes….I needed that. What'd you think of the naked women though? You seem to think a lot about testosterone and male-ness. I mean a strip club is really a place for women to take advantage of US, but still…. was that something youd do again?
My sex drive is so low I honestly didn't care at all. They guy I was with was the best host ever! Of course he's the only one I've met, but I'm still confident he'd be pretty highly rank.
There was only one moment I would have done differently. One of the girls (possibly functioning as a waitress as well? I can't remember if it was someone different) came over and the guy introduced me. She made some girlish vocalization after I gave her a firm handshake, just something I normally do to give a good impression, and went back for another one. If I could have a do over I'd ask, "Do you want it harder this time?"
Yes, I originally paid for the coins, so it's not like I'm gaining pure profit. Thing is, it's nice to at least finally have them converted into useful cash, which you can easily buy things with, feel and see the fat stacks of hundreds.Here's how I'd put it: It's like breaking open a piggy bank for adults.. Theres nothing to say there wont still be glimpses of the "old" me now and again, but with what's on my plate at the present time, dealing with all the drama that comes from living that life, and the self loathing and regret….id rather just put all that on hold and work toward something i wont hate myself for. Feels good though. I feel like Ive done my time. 10 years. I think Ive proven im an "authentic" junkie…whatever the fuck that is. I always hoped something would just snap into place and shake me out of that dream state, and I guess a skull splitting fever hallucination is as good as anything. Besides the not really being able to walk again yet thing, I feel great. Looks like I even lost a couple inches off my waist.
By the old you I don't mean the part of you that was a junkie at all, that should be surpassed. I mean the kind that made more money than anyone in his graduating class, even if he ended up with little/nothing to show for it (Most entrepreneurs fail repeatedly, even suffer bankruptcy, before they finally succeed, (at least the good ones) often at a later age, maybe their 30s, putting into use everything they learned and what not to do wrong.
Don't avoid the lifestyle and see only the negativity in it, envision and alternate form of it where you strive to perfect yourself and your operation. For example, I could realistically receive 60x returns on a product (it has to b extracted), the wholesalers I found on Alibaba are surprisingly helpful and well spoken and are willing to relabel the items, which customs has no way of knowing or testing.Imagine that. In your old line of work 4-5x returns you thought were excellent, in the modern world if you're intelligent, this is nothing, I searched, I weeded out, I searched for reputations and complaints, asked questions, finally narrow it down to 4-5 in sequential order, and 60x return is found. Not to measure the countless hours of research related to the markets on which to sell them, on the substance, manufacturing techniques, equipment, opsec (operational security), cashing out, etc.
I am not going to be a market analyst, I'm not that kind of autistic.
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2016-04-11 at 9:13 AM UTCYou must stop talking about this. Have you factored in prison time? Is that part of your equation?
Law enforcement cares about stuff of that magnitude. Ask the coupon guy. C'mon, man. -
2016-04-11 at 9:20 AM UTC
[What Does the Government Have to Prove?
In many federal drug cases, federal prosecutors will often allege that the accused participated in a federal drug conspiracy. A conspiracy in this context is an agreement between two or more people to commit some sort of drug-related crime. Note that the crime does not need to have taken place; the government must only prove that two or more people discussed committing the crime.
Indeed, it is rare that a federal drug indictment will not include a drug conspiracy count. Procedurally, it is a gift to the prosecution, as it allows them to charge several people for the same crime, even if the relationship between them is less than solid. In fact, there have been drug conspiracy cases where some of the defendants did not even know one another at all.
The federal government likes to use drug conspiracy charges because it can more easily charge more people who were involved indirectly in the alleged drug crime. Many people who are charged with drug conspiracy did not actually participate in the crime. It is enough if they merely discussed it. Then the government can hit them with drug conspiracy charges.
http://federaldrugcharges.net/topics/what-constitutes-a-federal-drug-conspiracy/
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2016-04-11 at 4:45 PM UTC
You must stop talking about this. Have you factored in prison time? Is that part of your equation?
Law enforcement cares about stuff of that magnitude. Ask the coupon guy. C'mon, man.
Damn, lost a post. Goddamn Lazarus still doesn't support WYSIWYG and Lanny never added an option to switch between text editors.
1.) Anyways, the basics of it were. Imagine having your cache of drugs over a trap door style hatch that opened over a small high powered furnace. Build for speed and power, not durability/sustainability, since it would only need to be used once. Or a vat of chemical(s) that would quickly render them into legal substances, alter/destroy them.
"GET ON THE GROUND!"
"HANDS UP!"
You cross your hands, press a button on a modified wristwatch that has been designed to nearly guarantee the prevention of any accidental activation, yet can still be done very quickly and inconspicuously.
2.) Another option would be to use (modified) proprietary software, something as simple as this: https://play.google.com/store/apps/details?id=com.pyronix.app
Or a non-mobile setup that doesn't require a phone and internet. The cops trigger something that would normally never be triggered except by law enforcement, any illegal items disappear.
3.) You hide your drugs underground a manner that would be very difficult to find or penetrate. A simple underground cart I believe El Chapo used one of these for his tunnel in his prison escape. This was, if you choose a very good location, you can retrieve your precious, valuable, drugs later.
4,) Zoklet was much larger and well known about (Bad Ideas, BLTC),often appearing on the first page of search engine results for criminal activities.There are such an insane number of web pages, even forums/message boards, some of which have far far more illegal activity perpetually occurring amd being discussed openly. We;re practically invisible. IF LE visited this site for a risk assessment, he'd see a bunch of shit posts, generic posts (Bill Krozby, actor), and poor junkies (BLTC) and would rapidly lose interest, he has other things to do, other websites to assess.
And RisiR, why are you, a German, concerned about the police? https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/List_of_killings_by_law_enforcement_officers_in_Germany#2015
Our police kill more people in a week than your's do in a year. Literally.
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2016-04-11 at 5 PM UTCI don't fear getting killed by the cops but getting locked up. There is no NSI for you in there, buddy. No hiding from the world, no privacy. Self-control is appropriate. Risk/reward just don't match up when it comes to talking about crime. Think about it.
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2016-04-11 at 11:44 PM UTCWhy the fuck do I get so much damn anxiety and stiffchick'd from snorting focalin? Any way to stop this fuckin shit? what is it vasoconstriction or some stupid shit like that? all I got is gabapentins
shit out of luck
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2016-04-11 at 11:52 PM UTC
Why the fuck do I get so much damn anxiety and stiffchick'd from snorting focalin? Any way to stop this fuckin shit? what is it vasoconstriction or some stupid shit like that? all I got is gabapentins
shit out of luck
fuckity fuckity fuck
Your doin gods work son ∆
