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2016-02-28 at 11:11 PM UTC
I'd let Kyra Gracie leg triangle choke me out cold just so I could smell her fart. I wouldn't mind letting her mount and deliver some ground and pound if you know what I mean. Also something, something rear naked.
I wouldn't suck her dick -
2016-02-28 at 11:29 PM UTC
I wouldn't suck her dick
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2016-02-29 at 8:30 AM UTCI used to have such a crush on this bitch when I was a kid. That ass in that fucking tight bodysuit. HNNNGGG
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2016-02-29 at 2:13 PM UTC
So I've been in this rehab program (drug court is the actual term) and have 44 AA meetings I have to attend. I'm on 32 right now and it seems like I'm the only one who wasn't been touched by a supernatural force or learned anything from being punished. I haven't drank in seven months not because of some epiphany but because they are so up my ass I'd probably get caught and be in this stupid shit even longer than the required nine months. I think Bradley B started going but I don't know what ever happened with that/him…Most people are pretty level headed surprisingly but there's an occasional cringe worthy faggot who talks about the walls talking to him(this isn't seen as insane for some reason) and being blessed with divine grace etc etc.. Am I really being that overboard thinking it's just a bunch of people who used to drink years ago and have absolutely nothing better to do than go to an AA meeting 5 times a week?
As far as the meeting, and the holy spirit goes, for some people it helps. They force you into it because a lot of them found something spiritual and also it's free. You don't need to find jesus or whomever to get sober. When I really got clean, I did my 90 in 90 and all I found was depression and misery, especially when I'd try and help people and they'd die or fall off the wagon. I haven't been in a room since about July, but I do take my meds, got to therapy, work out and keep myself occupied in other ways.
The last part, yeah, I think you're off base. These are mostly people who have lost careers, marriages, sometimes their homes, obvioulsy health. I don't know if you're experiencing any of those yet, but I'm sure you know what's ahead. But it's true, a lot of those people go because it's a safe place, and it keeps them out the bar/liquor store what have you for and an hour maybe more if they go a two or 3 meetings.
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2016-02-29 at 2:30 PM UTC
Found these while hiking: http://i.imgur.com/6YidQSI.jpg
Oysters are tasty. Those, along with chanterelles, king boletes, lion's mane, and black trumpets are the only ones worth eating in the bay area. Makes hikes more interesting. It's like a game, try to find places where they might grow, spot and retrieve them (These were in an awkward spot, had to move some dead branches out of the way and crouch under, wasn't sure I'd be able to reach them). Mycology used to be one of my interests. There's the whole recurrent aspie obsession thing, except I've never been a monomaniac and have been more of a pragmatist, having no interest in shit like train schedules (I'm not that autistic).
Was hoping this would be something more interesting. It's huge, about 12 inches across. Found two others like it, smaller ones. Probably one of these, which I don't want to eat. Looks different from usual, which threw me off: https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Omphalotus_olivascens
http://i.imgur.com/TevF9A4.jpg
Something relevant I mentioned before:
Theoretically Aspies would make the best hunters, trackers, anything requiring high visual acquity. Tempted to make a post about this at The Shroomery, they may be interested in this, and people on the spectrum are bound to be over represented there, in some areas.
Something that came to mind. With one of these you wouldn't even need to carry water: http://www.rei.com/product/830745/ka...o-water-enhancement
Living off the land is a fantasy, at least in this modern age and in the vast majority of areas. But if you stashed a bunch of dehydrated food up there, which you could bring on a bike trailer, maybe even brought along a solar panel charger, you could (illegally) camp out for pretty long stretches of time without a problem, if you wanted to, and would have a pretty light amount of weight to carry.
I think I'm going to make going to a regional park a weekly thing, for well-being. Just have to avoid the mentality that's it futile, repetitive, meaningless.
I'm also considering going back to a standing desk setup and using an idea I had before, standing in (clean, of course) cat litter box or other container filled with (clean) cat litter or other rough material to accelerate the toughening of the skin. Human soles can become incredibly tough, it's how we managed before shoes. Mine are still tough enough that I didn't develop any blisters or other problems despite the rough trails with my extremely thin Vapor Gloves (5.5mm soles, natural compression from weight/force makes it even smaller). Shoes are a hassle, they slip, can slip off (fuck hiking boots), get muddy and wet etc. There's nothing sharp enough that you need to worry about once you reach a certain point, trust me. My goal is to be able to run through there at top speed barefoot, wearing only a wold headdress and shorts to freak people out, dashing away to avoid any I came across.
This is what a nootropic junkie looks like -
2016-02-29 at 2:53 PM UTC
Specifically like this. -
2016-02-29 at 8:25 PM UTCOh, I actually had Princess Mononoke in mind:
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2016-03-01 at 7:50 AM UTCDaily adventures in autism. Went to Tilden park today, not on any psychedelics, although I had been considering taking a low dose of mescaline, but it was too late. I think a good dose of etizolam combined with the GABA-T inhibiting effect of Nardil, which should prolong and potentiate the effects, made it much more pleasant.
First I switched into my vibrams because the toes actually make a difference in steep foresty climbs, it allows you to really dig your toes in if needed (It definitely was at times). Was checking for mushrooms, was particularly interesting in following the path along Wildcat Creek (constant moisture), but there hasn't been enough rain recently.
First notable moment. A woman, white, middle aged, fit, was stretching against a tree up ahead on the trail. As she came into sight and I passed her I engaged in my typical aspie/neanderthalic behavior of averting my gaze far more than usual (I turn my head away from them about 70 degrees or so I'd estimate, up to as close to 90 as possible depending on the circumstance/person/people). It's possible I may have passed her before, but then have been passed by her because I wandered off to explore something. May have started running to get past her faster. Up ahead I spotted a log with mushrooms (wasn't looking for psychedelics, edibles) and scrambled up to examine it. Some time after she walked by and looked up at me, and asked, not in suspicious tone, just curious, "Could you tell me what you're doing?" Instinctively I shook my head no (tends to be exaggerated and sometimes done with an excessive number of shakes). She said, "That's alright. Good luck."
Good god I'm an autistic asshole. I didn't regret or feel bad about it, I just seem to have no natural interest in human beings. I also tried to avoid people as much as possible, going off trail and waiting for them to pass, taking routes around them. This is not conductive to therapy/recovery.
Went off trail a lot as usual. Fucking rough, you have to be willing to tolerate having your arms and legs scratched up by vines with thorns (small ones, in my experience). A good stick, or trekking poll is useful not only for steep climbs and steadying yourself, but for bashing vegetation out of the way (some dry, blocks paths), or just using it to press things out of the way and push through or step over/onto it. I do not take light paths, this is hardcore off trail. Tore off a good walking stick, was a pretty cool design (wizard), and the wood wasn't dry, so the structural integrity was much better. I need to get a (ultra) light machete. I wonder if REI has something like this. There's bound to be something available.
Eventually I got in this small cavern behind an artificial waterfall and stream/creek. I found some weird orangey goop and at first planned to use it to make a message. There were only a few tennis balls there for some reason, maybe I was the first person to access it, or at least leave my mark. Didn't work, so I ended up making something else, which took too much of my time because I was looking for the right stones:
Afterward I wanted to go onto to the other side to get to the Wildcat Creek Trail. Fuck that was hard climb, steep as hell and muddy, got my shoes dirty as fuck. I literally had to climb a vine to get out. Even laying flat against the ground, trying to dig my hands into the ground, using my wizard stick, wasn't enough and I kept sliding down, not all the way, fortunately, just back to the last stable spot. Ended up managing it by digging and pulling the vine out of the ground, which ended too early. Managed to unearth enough of it to make it out of there.
Later it was beginning to get dark, but once again for some fucking reason I just had this urge to get to explore some high ground first. Ended up forgetting the path I came up on (complex, I just go wherever there's an opening or good path), took the wrong one and got lost. I had to literally juggernaut my way down, tearing through bush, literally crawling, on my back mostly so I could kick my way through to make paths, break dead/dried branches, going under really low trees or whatever they are and maneuvering through their branches, sometimes just pushing through things with pure force. My arms and legs are all cut up, but it's superficial. Eventually made it, but let me be clear, this was about as rough as you can get unless you're in some absurd territory (The kind you'd probably have an actual machete in, but that would make it easier than this was. Maybe like, I don't know, some sort of swamp or place in the Amazon). Took a pretty long time.
Had enough energy to start running back most of the way, not being sure when the last bus left. (I would have been fucked, I could have walked to downtown berkeley, but it would have taken 50 minutes and I was tired. after that shit. Made it literally right as the bus was coming. Oh, and my ecig saved me again, my phone battery was dying and I needed it as a light, compass, and GPS/map.
Brought my Marmot Pounder sleeping bag and a thermal balaclava in a stuff bag, so I could have stayed the night if I needed to, but fortunately the way out was simple enough to manage, unlike last time.
Definitely experienced this hypomanic effect NSI-189 can induce after strenuous exercise. It's awesome, you get this huge burst of cognitive and physical energy. Had enough time to go to grocery outlet, ran part of the way there. Blazed through the store like I was on meth (Wouldn't surprise me if workers had actually thought and talked/joked about this), which is what I would do pre-breakdown. You should see me, I'm a whirlwind. I can scan products, and the products constantly change there due to their business model, at blazing speeds, powerwalking at top speed through aisles. Unfortunately wine selection slowed me down to much and I didn't finish in the 20 minute time limit I wanted and missed the bus.
I wasn't going to wait 37 minutes out in the cold night, so I ran back to the bart in record time, fueled by puck rock, about 8 minutes, with a full backpack and reusable bag under my arm. Spotted a guy jogging and played a game I would sometimes I call "hunting". When I'm running somewhere, or just feel like running, and spot someone along the same route I track them down. I found it make it a lot easier to keep proper tempo and gait, to run longer. Evolutionary/primal/hunting instinct. I would also use a visualization technique where I imagine a delicious wild animal running in front of me and me following it. Managed to blaze past him for my amusement, he was too slow. Also made a girl, looked college age, look behind her as I passed around her, probably startling her, which pleased me. Beat him to the station and made it in good time despite the extra weight.
Also ran part of the way home and made it in good time, even after all that.
Nearly EVERYONE here should be on Nardil and NSI 189. You actually only need about 5 grams, from a chart I saw on depression rating scale reduction it seems the vast majority occurs in only two months, not three. $50 a month is affordable, and the effects last afterward. It sharply reduces cortisol (stress hormone, elevated from chronic stress, depression, anxiety etc), induces hippocampal neurogenesis. Oh, fuck it, I've seen enough about it repeated times. If you haven't learned by now or haven't been paying attention, do a simple search and read about the multiple benefits, it's nothing like standard antidepressants, this has novel MOAs and is literally a the leading edge of science/pharmacology.
Also, it seems an MAOI may potentiate an ALCAR and NAR-R-ALA combo, which is great for stimulant and endurance boost.
>MisterYouAreSoDumb Ceretropic & Nootropics Depot
No blend. I like adding it to my modified ECA stack. So ephedrine HCL, caffeine, L-arginine, L-theanine, EGCG, ALCAR, and taurine. Then I add in creatine and BCAAs if I am going to be working out. I literally ran up the side of a mountain on that stack once, with no fatigue whatsoever!
>I use ALA too. I am just out right now. I really like Na-R-ALA.
Lanny, you mentioned a while ago you were jogging for exercise. Do you still do it? You should definitely try doing it in regional parks, it's magnitudes of orders better. Especially with some mushroom hunting added in during the right periods.
Oh, and it seems I've retained my ability to recover rapidly from my years of heavy weight lifting (compound lifts, Mark Rippetoe, which many don't understand properly and make moronic criticisms of, aligns with my views the most). That was strenuous, but I wasn't at the breaking point at the end, and even had bursts of energy afterward.
Now I need a shower, I'm filthy. May vape some DMT while the mood is still good. -
2016-03-01 at 8:41 AM UTCSince when are you taking the combo and do you have any adverse effects so far?
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2016-03-01 at 11:47 AM UTCSince I started on 2/24. Mo adverse effects that I can tell. They key to avoiding Nardil side effects is to dusty off low/. Yje standard info givem. like with many drugs, us crap. 15mg invtrsdrf nuy 15 per weel id trvommrnfrf I dtarted at 7.5mg for s few daysdue too sensitvity.
Aorrry, seems i passsed out twice for an hour. I need to jurry and finish rating and go off to be. Typomvg wih pme eye oprn in the dark.
I feel baf aboyt thhat woman, I wanto be nicer to people/ I hope we,eet agaim/ -
2016-03-01 at 11:56 AM UTC
Since I started on 2/24. Mo adverse effects that I can tell. They key to avoiding Nardil side effects is to dusty off low/. Yje standard info givem. like with many drugs, us crap. 15mg invtrsdrf nuy 15 per weel id trvommrnfrf I dtarted at 7.5mg for s few daysdue too sensitvity.
Are you drunk or on DMT, haha? Anyway, have a good time, bro.
Aorrry, seems i passsed out twice for an hour. I need to jurry and finish rating and go off to be. Typomvg wih pme eye oprn in the dark.
I feel baf aboyt thhat woman, I wanto be nicer to people/ I hope we,eet agaim/ -
2016-03-01 at 12:08 PM UTCI sleep now. Probably sublingual melatonin and etizolam, glycine, a bit of alcohol, and being way past my bedtime, along with physical exhaustion.. Fortunately I didn't faceplant into my food, I did find my mouse knocked over and caught on my lap. Maybe my second dose of memantine I took late as well. Who knows, with the amount of substances I take.
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2016-03-01 at 12:23 PM UTCSweet dreams. <3
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2016-03-01 at 12:25 PM UTC
Sweet dreams. <3
Die. -
2016-03-01 at 12:42 PM UTC
Die.
You know what, I think I will one day so... win/win? -
2016-03-01 at 12:44 PM UTC
You know what, I think I will one day so… win/win?
No. I didn't mean that. I wanted you to never die is what I meant. -
2016-03-01 at 12:50 PM UTC
No. I didn't mean that. I wanted you to never die is what I meant.
My fault, bro. I should've read between the lines. Now I feel bad because I have to disappoint you. We all die one day. Even me. The greatest man of all time. It is ok, though. -
2016-03-01 at 2:34 PM UTC
As far as the meeting, and the holy spirit goes, for some people it helps. They force you into it because a lot of them found something spiritual and also it's free. You don't need to find jesus or whomever to get sober. When I really got clean, I did my 90 in 90 and all I found was depression and misery, especially when I'd try and help people and they'd die or fall off the wagon. I haven't been in a room since about July, but I do take my meds, got to therapy, work out and keep myself occupied in other ways.
The last part, yeah, I think you're off base. These are mostly people who have lost careers, marriages, sometimes their homes, obvioulsy health. I don't know if you're experiencing any of those yet, but I'm sure you know what's ahead. But it's true, a lot of those people go because it's a safe place, and it keeps them out the bar/liquor store what have you for and an hour maybe more if they go a two or 3 meetings.
BTW, I hope I'm not coming off as preachy. You do you, I was just giving my experiences with the rooms.
Nah not at all preachy. I know a lot of people would probably say I'm still in denial about having a problem but literally after about 2 months I never had "urges" to drink. In fact the only time I thought about it is when I had to go to an AA meeting or one of my counselors would bring it up and even then it wasn't a "omg I must go get drunk now" feeling if anything it brought up memories of partying/things I did while drunk. One of my counselors flat out called me a liar when he asked if I had "urges" and I said I didn't even think about it anymore. I'm happy for the people it works for but to me it just seems like I don't have that nonstop feeling of always wanting to drink. As much as I shit on AA it has shown me the horrible things that have happened to people and definitely gives me contrast of what I want/don't want my future to me like so I suppose it has helped me gain some perspective.
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2016-03-01 at 4:58 PM UTC
Lanny, you mentioned a while ago you were jogging for exercise. Do you still do it? You should definitely try doing it in regional parks, it's magnitudes of orders better. Especially with some mushroom hunting added in during the right periods.
Nah, my choices for jogging are either up the steepest hill in the city or through the TL at night, which I've said before is really not that dangerous, people just blow it out of proportion, but still isn't ideal. Mostly doing pullups by way of exercise these days, takes less time than running and there's a more concrete sense of progress (numbers man, you can just count reps and you have hard numbers!).
Also the "I'm not having any adverse effects... except for the whole passing out and losing my ability to type thing" post was bretty funny. -
2016-03-01 at 5:21 PM UTC
Nah, my choices for jogging are either up the steepest hill in the city or through the TL at night, which I've said before is really not that dangerous, people just blow it out of proportion, but still isn't ideal. Mostly doing pullups by way of exercise these days, takes less time than running and there's a more concrete sense of progress (numbers man, you can just count reps and you have hard numbers!).
you need to lift weights it is good fun
