2019-08-22 at 5:32 PM UTC
The first time I tried alcohol I knew it was something that felt really good and I wanted more more more but I had no access so whatever. Then I did opiates and instantly knew that that was how I wanted to feel for the rest of my life, and that I would have a lifelong obsession with these things around 14 or 15.
2019-08-22 at 5:37 PM UTC
Like 13. I started huffing gasoline because my school was doing a DARE type thing and they said you could get high that way. And they made drugs sound interesting as fuck.
Although huffing gas only really sounds degenerate. I didn't do it that often. I didn't become a full-blown drug abusing degenerate until I found totse and learned about bundy (age 15 or so).
2019-08-22 at 5:43 PM UTC
I used to be straight edge but I had a lot better luck smoking weed and trying to date stoner, tripper, raver type party chicks.
2019-08-22 at 5:48 PM UTC
Doctor put me on benzos at 16 and I mastered how to get them from any doctor I wanted, was all downhill from there.
2019-08-22 at 5:49 PM UTC
I found zoklet looking for a tutorial on making meth, and ultimately deemed it too dangerous and didn't know where to get everything. I certainly got some valuable information on lots of things I was interested in though. I wonder if wayback still has archived threads and search function...
2019-08-22 at 5:52 PM UTC
There was a secret moderator only forum on The Hive that had top secret research, sources to get precursors and stuff.
One of the people took a bunch of that info and put it on Zoklet because it was a totse forum about freedom of information and known for shitty fake meth recipes.
What that man did was truly a revolutionary action, lots of people hate him and this community because we "blew the lid" on a certain MDMA precursor but INFORMATION SHOULD BE FREE JUST LIKE JEFF HUNTER WANTED BEFORE HE DID 9/11
2019-08-22 at 5:53 PM UTC
Yeah, that was part 2 out of 3 three basically for me, successfully manipulating my mom's Christian psychiatrist (the office was anyway) to prescribe me Xanax and then concerta and adderall, but 90% the Xanax because he rapidly let me go up to 8mg per day within about 9 months or so at the ripe old age of 16, which was when my life started spiraling out of control unbeknownst to me at the time.
2019-08-22 at 5:56 PM UTC
Totse and erowid got me into chemistry, it's just so sexy how they make something from nothing just like funk
2019-08-22 at 5:57 PM UTC
Chemistry is pretty interesting, I agree. But eventually it just turns into math once it gets advanced enough, just like all science which pisses me off
2019-08-23 at 12:04 PM UTC
I never really fit into the two cliques at my HS. You were either a “jock” or a “burnout”. I had friends on both sides. Can’t say I ever became a degenerate. I may have done some stupid shit in my 20s when I was addicted to coccaine, but my actions only affected me.
You either molest the teacher or get molested by the teacher